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No-Not Tonight

Updated on June 21, 2014

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It's like she did the unspeakable and got away with it.



She walked in

took a good look around

waited

for the night to begin.


She had driven

down all the back roads,

blared music as loud as it would go,

smoking one more Marlboro Light -

one right after another.


He was not going to find her.

Not tonight.

He could booze it, lose it, and bruise someone else’s body;

he could stamp the purplish-blue marks – storm clouds

on the insides of someone else’s arms.

He could grab, tighten and hold someone else’s arms


Tonight.


Perhaps, he could just fall down and die somewhere -

She could hope…


Cara had chosen to wear

the pink gingham long-sleeved shirt:


She didn’t want some cowboy

still dusty from the trail

get all sheriff

and want to go kick his ass.


No-Not tonight.


Tonight


She wanted to dance

Until the band played its last song…


She didn’t want some chick

still hot as hell

get all Dixie

and want to go kick his ass.


No-Not tonight.


Tonight


She wanted to dance

‘til the bartender hollered, “Okay Folks, This IS Last Call.”


She didn’t want the man there with his wife

still up from last night’s viagran dose

tell her how his marriage is over -

he and the old lady have an arrangement -

You know?

So not to hurt the kids...


She wanted the night


More than ever


She wanted to slow dance

With a real man

One who

Knows how to let go…

Knows how to let the curve of her lower back

Guide him to that perfect spot

The one who would dance with her all night

Not expecting anything from her

Happy to just enjoy her smile…


She should have figured

Cara should have known

She couldn’t run

She couldn’t hide


There would always be someone

Wanting more of her,

Demanding more of her,

Requiring her to adjust,

To their settings,

To their wants and their demands -

-As was the case that night-


Oftentimes the meanest people

run around with even meaner friends

And just because she was able to run

And believed she could hide -


There he was

His best friend

The one He really, really likes…


Watching her

Watching Cara

Snuggled up so sweetly with some guy

One of those pervs who do not even drink

Dancing one song right after another

Cara -oblivious to the fact that He was on his way


You know?

That’s what best friends are for

Got to always have their bud’s back

Hell, Jake would have called him

If He had seen Lila out dancing in some

Honkytonk bar in the middle of nowhere

Funny how Cara didn’t seem to even

Skip a beat as Jake walked through the door

Somehow she seemed transformed,

Mesmerized by a spirit so strong

So ready…


I told the guy standing beside me,

“Hey. Watch this.

That’s my friend, Jake.

His old lady’s that bitch who’s been dancin’ all night with that

Dude who’s not even drinkin’…

Doubt she’ll be dancing

much after tonight…

See, my buddy Jake and me…

Well, let’s just say,


‘We keep our womenfolk in line.'


I can’t let Lila get to thinkin'

she can just up and go dancin’

whenever she gets a notion.

Jake understands.

That’s why I had to call him.

Now watch this.

Jake is going to walk up to Cara,

and he’s going to gently take her hand

and walk her quietly out the door."


“Man, I don’t think so…

Looks like he’s drinkin’ a shot to me.”


“Yeah, I believe you’re right. Hey, if you don’t mind,

keep a watchin’ while I hit the head. I’ll be right back.”


“Sure man. Sure.”


Just after I shook, tucked and zipped,


I heard the bang!


Never would have thought Cara

was the bitchy type -


Yet, there laying on the middle of the floor


Laid

Jake

Dead!


Cara kept dancing.

Just kept on dancing.


From what I hear,

she’s even opened up her own dance school…


It’s like this bitch

did the unspeakable,

and got away with it…


I’ve already told Lila

she won’t be so lucky



copyright @ Kim Houck 2014



Information found on The Domestic Violence Hotline

Nearly half of all women and men in the United States have experienced psychological aggression by an intimate partner in their lifetime (48.4% and 48.8%, respectively).[vii]

Females ages 18 to 24 and 25 to 34 generally experienced the highest rates of intimate partner violence.[viii]

From 1994 to 2010, about 4 in 5 victims of intimate partner violence were female.[ix]

Most female victims of intimate partner violence were previously victimized by the same offender, including 77% of females ages 18 to 24, 76% of females ages 25 to 34, and 81% of females ages 35 to 49.[x]

"you will NEVER love me again"

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      Jamie Lee Hamann 3 years ago from Reno NV

      Wow, you had me going emotionally at one point I wanted to shoot every guy in the bar. Of course I am a pacifist and would never shoot anyone, but damn! Thank you for sharing. Jamie

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago

      Jamie,

      Damn! If I got you going emotionally enough to where you were ready to shoot even though you wouldn't really, then I can feel like I did a pretty decent job on this one. THANK YOU!

      Kim

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 3 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

      Kim, this poem is an emotional roller coaster. You've managed to evoke a range of reaction from sadness for Cara to loathing for her husband Jake and his buddy, while I do not advocate violence, I have to own up to a YES...moment at the end. Nicely done. :)

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      Bill Holland 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

      This really is a tough read...lots of pain here...lots of anger....nicely written, Kim.

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      Jo and Bill,

      Thank you for your awesome comments. All of those things you noted, were things I was after. It has been a long time since I felt the rush one gets when s/he feels like she's kind of hit the goal. Knowing me, I will read back over tomorrow and find all sorts of places where I could have made the piece better. But, for today, I am going to do my best to just enjoy that rush...and hope that it rushes me enough to where I get outside and mow the yard-for that is what I had first to do on my to-do list....

      Smiles,

      Kim

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      John Hansen 3 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Wow Kim...what a great read, made the emotions ( good and bad ) work overtime. Glad Cara came out on top, and kept on dancing. Voted up. You hit the goal.

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      Good Morning Jodah,

      A Wow from you and Jamie. Thank You. Thank You for giving this piece a vote up. After sleeping on it, I have already made some changes to the hub. I did not feel as if I had provided enough information regarding abuse. Hope you and yours are well.

      Blessings,

      Kim

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      Genna East 3 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

      Wow…I followed every line, as if I were there. I like your style, Kim, and the voice of Cara. For example:

      “She didn’t want the man there with his wife

      still up from last night’s viagran dose

      tell her how his marriage is over -

      he and the old lady have an arrangement -

      You know?

      So not to hurt the kids.”

      The emotions are thick with this poem. I hate gun violence, but confess that when the shot went off, I felt relief and justification for Cara.

      Voted up and beyond and shared. :-)

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      Genna,

      I am enjoying getting the "Wow" from fellow hubbers who deliver wows every time they publish. I was hoping someone would notice the up/viagran reference. Smile. Thank you for cheering for Cara and THANK YOU FOR THE VOTE/SHARE! I so appreciate your support.

      Kim

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      mylindaelliott 3 years ago from Louisiana

      Great lead in to the article. Such an important subject too.

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      mle,

      thank you--hope you and yours are well--heading over to mle page now

      best,

      kim

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      Suzette Walker 3 years ago from Taos, NM

      Wow! I was really into this narrative poem, Kim. What a statement against domestic violence. What a great and engaging poem. Domestic violence is so important to speak out against. Your poem makes a great statement against it and a great way to bring the message home. Voted up+ and shared.

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      Suzette,

      Thanks for reading and offering another "Wow." Smiles. Thank you for the vote and share. It is interesting how something can inspire something else. I noticed a couple of days ago that I had bruises on the inside of my arms. How they got there, I do not know. Maybe when I was picking up big rocks for landscaping around my home, or when I delivered a set box springs for my parents, or when I was working on one of the many other chores. As a result of these "storm clouds" on my arms and probably because I have watched one Law and Order too many came this piece which in turn led me to research and discover the stats. I pray for all who walk around believing they must wear long sleeves...

      Blessings,

      Kim

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      Kristen 3 years ago from Nassau

      Great poem. I've never experienced DV but I surely felt like slapping a few heads in your "poetic" bar.

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      CrisSp 3 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      What a ride for life! No, not tonight and never ever! Very powerful message and you delivered it so well.

      Cheers courageous woman!

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      KonshesGirl,

      Greetings. If I was able to produce a reaction where the reader feels like getting involved, then I feel like I accomplished what I was after with this poem. Thank you for reading and for your comments. I appreciate the support.

      CrisSp,

      So good to see you. Unfortunately, DV is very real for some people and deserves to be noted in very real ways. Thanks so much for reading and agreeing "No, not tonight and never ever!" Cheers to you my friend.

      Blessings,

      Kim

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      Dianna Mendez 3 years ago

      I was drawn in from the beginning but did not expect the ending. What a night! It's dad people resort to violence. Sad that it is a way of life for do many innocent people. Well written, dear friend.

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      teaches12345,

      It is indeed a very tough place for someone to be in and often leads to more violence. I am so glad my attempt at bringing attention to the issue was well-received. Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate your support.

      Blessings,

      Kim

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      Audrey Howitt 3 years ago from California

      This took me back to a time in my life that I seldom think about now--such a tough place to be--to feel that kind of awful disregard--like you are a thing--not a person--I wonder sometimes if this is still under-reported--

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      Audrey,

      I am sorry to hear that you can relate to this poem on such a personal level. I certainly did not mean to take you back to a tough place...

      I believe this is still very much under-reported. That is why I think it is also important that we do not forget. I appreciate your willingness to stop by and show me support. I am thankful that you can say this is something you seldom think about now. That implies you have moved forward in your life, and that's always a good thing.

      Many Blessings,

      Kim

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      Audrey Howitt 3 years ago from California

      Hi Kim--I think it is important to know that all the things we do--good and bad--affect others--your poem is a place of strength really--a good place to be

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      Audrey,

      I am so glad you think so for while I do not condone violence of any kind, I can also relate to that feeling of being trapped. And the intent of the poem was not only to try my hand at a tricky narrator shift, it was to remind folks we can't forget about DV for it is VERY REAL. One person experiencing violence is one person too many.

      You serve as my inspiration. Thank you for being you.

      Kim

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