One Sweet Love
This past year I have been on a mission. Initially, I was looking for a partner, a soul mate. At some point, a little over a year ago, I realized, it wasn't happening. How could I find my man when I wasn't yet certain how to be me? I know. It sounds kind of funny to hear a 54 year-old woman say she is still "finding herself"! But, I guess I am! I have been "single" for 7 years now. Intermittently, in those seven years, I have had relationships. None of them were "the one". I thought that I was meeting and dating enough people to find him but it wasn't happening. After two frightening experiences through online dating, I decided to give that up for a while. That was around the same time that I realized that I was the one responsible for making some wrong choices. I also realized that I wasn't happy with me so why was I expecting anyone else to be? So I decided to make some changes!
"Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common sense."
~ Helen Rowland
This article is not about all the different changes I made this past year even though there were quite a few. I did meet and make many new friends, both male and female. But...I still didn't find the one! Last June I was reading an article by Arielle Ford author of The Soulmate Secret and the new Wabi Sabi Love. It talked about asking the universe for your soulmate. I decided, what the heck? It was now and I was ready. So I read and followed her directions. It was a liberating feeling! First, I worked on what I wanted to order from the universe. Then I went out and placed my order!
That was a few months ago. At the time I didn't account for the broken foot that would change my lifestyle quite a bit for a while. I also didn't really account for the fact that my empty nest would no longer be empty. So....here I am, not actively working on anything except going to work and writing! Today when I got in the car, I turned on Pandora. The first song was One Sweet Love by Sara Bareilles. Being the big believer in signs that I am, I can say "I saw the sign." I realized that I have slipped lately. I have just been going through the motions. I had been telling myself that I already had my one sweet love. I was telling myself that it was enough for me. I was telling myself I wasn't worthy of being loved. Of course I am alone. If I don't deem myself worthy, why would someone else?
Do you believe that there is at least one true soul mate for each person?
"And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course."~Khalil Gibran
Now comes the fun part...looking for that one sweet love! I'm not sure who he is or where he is but I know that he is out there. I also know that we will find each other. I just don't when! In the meantime, I plan on enjoying the journey!