One Sweet Love

This past year I have been on a mission. Initially, I was looking for a partner, a soul mate. At some point, a little over a year ago, I realized, it wasn't happening. How could I find my man when I wasn't yet certain how to be me? I know. It sounds kind of funny to hear a 54 year-old woman say she is still "finding herself"! But, I guess I am! I have been "single" for 7 years now. Intermittently, in those seven years, I have had relationships. None of them were "the one". I thought that I was meeting and dating enough people to find him but it wasn't happening. After two frightening experiences through online dating, I decided to give that up for a while. That was around the same time that I realized that I was the one responsible for making some wrong choices. I also realized that I wasn't happy with me so why was I expecting anyone else to be? So I decided to make some changes!

"Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the imagination and bottling the common sense."

~ Helen Rowland

This article is not about all the different changes I made this past year even though there were quite a few. I did meet and make many new friends, both male and female. But...I still didn't find the one! Last June I was reading an article by Arielle Ford author of The Soulmate Secret and the new Wabi Sabi Love. It talked about asking the universe for your soulmate. I decided, what the heck? It was now and I was ready. So I read and followed her directions. It was a liberating feeling! First, I worked on what I wanted to order from the universe. Then I went out and placed my order!

That was a few months ago. At the time I didn't account for the broken foot that would change my lifestyle quite a bit for a while. I also didn't really account for the fact that my empty nest would no longer be empty. So....here I am, not actively working on anything except going to work and writing! Today when I got in the car, I turned on Pandora. The first song was One Sweet Love by Sara Bareilles. Being the big believer in signs that I am, I can say "I saw the sign." I realized that I have slipped lately. I have just been going through the motions. I had been telling myself that I already had my one sweet love. I was telling myself that it was enough for me. I was telling myself I wasn't worthy of being loved. Of course I am alone. If I don't deem myself worthy, why would someone else?

"And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course."~Khalil Gibran

Now comes the fun part...looking for that one sweet love! I'm not sure who he is or where he is but I know that he is out there. I also know that we will find each other. I just don't when! In the meantime, I plan on enjoying the journey!