Out of Place Love

When I tell you my version of life

You will never have known me

Experience reveals

That love is my downfall

It leaves my heart empty

My hand holding someone

That has already left

My head is overweight

I don't know how to be here

Everything is in it's place except me

I have become someone else

Flung into silence like a silence of pain

Indifferent to, unaware of life

What light there is

The world catches and holds

I have been waiting for this particular silence

With its messages from the dark

That brings back the misery

Or wakes up the ignorant

Every picture held in thought is silently real

Moved in so many ways at once

The same and always different.

Negotiating dreams

This is what it means to be human

I feel love evading me

I scrutinize small things

I require that the past be kept back

To finish dying without me

I push together clumsy words that don't fit

Make promises I can't keep

We made a knot that did not hold

In this strange place that I invent

Forever must be over.