Paper Castles
Look at the castle I’ve built,
on the ground that I created.
You watched me struggle
to get to this point.
Now ,you’re reluctant to give me praises.
Are you hating?
Why are you jaded, now that I’ve made it?
It rained, I got wet
and mud stained my clothes.
I didn’t ask for help.
More satisfaction came from
doing it myself.
I’ve saved the town
and you’re looking at me all crazy,
like I need to be found.
I’ve seen more of my own blood,
than support throughout this process .
I can’t believe that you’re bold enough
to talk to me like I’m stupid.
I don’t need a medal, just say
“I’m proud of you”.
Let me know you’ve acknowledged
that I’m not a little girl.
I didn’t do this to please you,
but I did want to prove something to you.
Should I feel bad now?
Why don’t you feel good?
I’ve exceeded what the world
thought I’d become.
I’ve gone from a shack
to royalty,
bitter to sweet and I still
have the same heart in me.
I’m still down.
I’m still a lover.
I know where I came from.
I remember the summer
that I was born into.
When the hot, humid air was so thick
I choked ‘til I was rescued.
I was thrown into a pool,
but I remember the flames.
I still wake up
swearing I’ve heard hell
whisper my name.
Even in my castle,
even as a queen,
I still have nightmares.
But, I’m still climbing
because I’m still trying to reach a dream.
Make it a sweet one.
You have shown me
what behaviors not to repeat.
Live for yourself, girl
cause that’s where the satisfaction will be
when you start breaking barriers.
As long as your heart is at peace,
don’t worry what these fools think of you
just believe in me.
I believe in me.
I know what I am…
I know what I will…
I know what I must do…
Someone’s gonna get killed.
My struggle is real.
Envy is your pill.
You’re drugged up,
you’re a screw up.
Don’t credit my success to luck
all because you messed up.
I shake my head.
I can’t believe I’ve lived like this
for as long as I did.
I’m not looking for attention,
all I want is respect.
You don’t have to like me,
I’m not the girl to ask for that.
I just want…
I just want your heart in my castle.
I want to know it won’t go up in flames
because you think I’ve wronged you.
I want us to eat together,
just as we planned.
I never switched up,
I played the same position.
Where are you now,
in the one room shack?
Would you love me again
if I neglected my hard work
and came back to you?
I wanted you in the castle,
but if your heart’s in the shack
I will live and die there too.
I never ever thought you understood me.
I knew in my heart,
That’s not how it should be.
I could’ve given all my love,
but you came between us.
I’m disappointed knowing you’re
heart’s not smart.
Broken hearts are never intelligent.
You broke mine and left the burning walls
as evidence.
I’m dumb enough to walk back into it
cause I just want is to feel whole again.
You make me who I am.
