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Paper Castles

Updated on February 21, 2013
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Look at the castle I’ve built,

on the ground that I created.

You watched me struggle

to get to this point.

Now ,you’re reluctant to give me praises.

Are you hating?


Why are you jaded, now that I’ve made it?

It rained, I got wet

and mud stained my clothes.

I didn’t ask for help.

More satisfaction came from

doing it myself.

I’ve saved the town

and you’re looking at me all crazy,

like I need to be found.


I’ve seen more of my own blood,

than support throughout this process .


I can’t believe that you’re bold enough

to talk to me like I’m stupid.

I don’t need a medal, just say

“I’m proud of you”.

Let me know you’ve acknowledged

that I’m not a little girl.

I didn’t do this to please you,

but I did want to prove something to you.

Should I feel bad now?

Why don’t you feel good?


I’ve exceeded what the world

thought I’d become.

I’ve gone from a shack

to royalty,

bitter to sweet and I still

have the same heart in me.

I’m still down.

I’m still a lover.


I know where I came from.

I remember the summer

that I was born into.

When the hot, humid air was so thick

I choked ‘til I was rescued.


I was thrown into a pool,

but I remember the flames.

I still wake up

swearing I’ve heard hell

whisper my name.


Even in my castle,

even as a queen,

I still have nightmares.

But, I’m still climbing

because I’m still trying to reach a dream.


Make it a sweet one.


You have shown me

what behaviors not to repeat.


Live for yourself, girl

cause that’s where the satisfaction will be

when you start breaking barriers.


As long as your heart is at peace,

don’t worry what these fools think of you

just believe in me.

I believe in me.


I know what I am…

I know what I will…

I know what I must do…

Someone’s gonna get killed.

My struggle is real.

Envy is your pill.

You’re drugged up,

you’re a screw up.

Don’t credit my success to luck

all because you messed up.


I shake my head.

I can’t believe I’ve lived like this

for as long as I did.

I’m not looking for attention,

all I want is respect.

You don’t have to like me,

I’m not the girl to ask for that.


I just want…


I just want your heart in my castle.

I want to know it won’t go up in flames

because you think I’ve wronged you.

I want us to eat together,

just as we planned.

I never switched up,

I played the same position.


Where are you now,

in the one room shack?

Would you love me again

if I neglected my hard work

and came back to you?

I wanted you in the castle,

but if your heart’s in the shack

I will live and die there too.


I never ever thought you understood me.

I knew in my heart,

That’s not how it should be.

I could’ve given all my love,

but you came between us.

I’m disappointed knowing you’re

heart’s not smart.

Broken hearts are never intelligent.


You broke mine and left the burning walls

as evidence.

I’m dumb enough to walk back into it

cause I just want is to feel whole again.


You make me who I am.


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    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      5 years ago from Maryland

      Thank you, Bobby.

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      Bobby 

      5 years ago

      Really good. Like really... Inspirational as well

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      You're right Philly, the message is twisted. This poem is based on a very young and naive part of my life where I wanted to progress, but I was willing to stand idle for someone I "loved". It was a pretty dumb phase I went through, but I learned to become stronger from it and that proves your point. You're totally right. We should walk away and follow our own goals and hopes instead of dwelling on what someone else wants. I'm no longer a people pleaser.

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      Jose Velasquez 

      6 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      This message sounds a bit twisted. If you want a castle and someone else wants to stay in the shack. Your two world weren't meant to be entwined. There's nothing wrong with walking away if you know your heart wants more.

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Thank you for stopping by, Cashmere. That is actually my favorite part of the poem too, I got a little emotional writing that verse. I appreciate your votes and kind words!

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      Olde Cashmere 

      6 years ago

      Brilliant poetry Ryem. I loved the line ''I just want your heart in my castle." among many others. Voted up, awesome, interesting, and beautiful :)

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Thank ya, sir!

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      Martin Kloess 

      6 years ago from San Francisco

      great work! a problem and solution fragile and unseen. congratulations.

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Qudsia, Thank you for reading my poem! I appreciate the time you've taken to comment. This was certainly written from the heart. It means a lot to know someone understands the emotions I've tried to convey.

      Lady C, Your compliments are wonderful, thank you! I will have to keep writing to maintain my sanity lol...I'm not sure what's next. There aren't any guarantees in this world. Thanks for the support!

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      LadyC0310 

      6 years ago

      This is truely a masterpiece. I am sure that a lot of people can relate to this one. Some people know how to handle there success eventhough some people act stupid behind the sucess of someone else. A simple job well done...I am proud of you, can mean so much. However people will mess up a good thing do to jelousiy...(That is not spelled correct but know what it says...lol). Keep writing ...keep inspiring..what's next Ms. Ryem?

    • QudsiaP1 profile image

      QudsiaP1 

      6 years ago

      Ryem, this is an absolutely wonderful portrayal of your emotions said in an amazing manner. The way you have explained the struggle within the protagonist is absolutely amazing. Well Done.

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      IAmForbidden 

      6 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

      welcome dear. always a fan of your writings.

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      You write beautiful poetry that make me wonder the exact same thing, Spy!! Thanks for all your votes I appreciate each one!

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      IAmForbidden 

      6 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

      ryem, how do you write such a masterpiece? all my votes.

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