The Long Goodbye

I see you through dawn misted eyes,

Tempted not to kiss them lips, that longing goodbye.

But to stay here wrapped in your embrace,

Yet alas I have to entertain the daily rat race.

It’s the glimpse of you I see in my heart,

Your smile,

Your laugh,

Embed in my senses, never to part.

The scented morning air catches me just,

Thoughts of you make my head rush.

You’re the reason for living,

My world,

My very being.

When we struggle and times are tough,

No matter how hard,

Being with you is always enough.

You’re my lover

My family,

A man like no other.

My very best friend,

My soul mate till the end.

It’s these thoughts of you I treasure day to day,

I don’t wish to bury them or keep them locked away.

But I never knew these images in my mind,

Would be all I have left of you over time.

If I had stayed one morning that one minute more,

I wouldn’t be seeing you through tears as I morn.

If I had held you just one more second in the day,

I wouldn’t be wishing you were here to stay.

I thought the goodbyes I use to contend with,

Were the hardest,

Most painful,

Even when sealed with a kiss.

This departure,

This long goodbye.

I still see you, in the hazy sun rise,

But I’m frightened to open my eyes.

To see that empty space in our bed,

Remembering you,

And all that’s now dead.