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Prison Song

Updated on August 24, 2012
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When I opened my eyes,

I was mad and frustrated.

I was curled up in a ball,

with my knees to my chest

and my wrists tightly cuffed behind me.


I couldn’t even bring my arms to the front.

I couldn’t hold myself for comfort.

I was unable to remove the hair from my face

and I couldn’t dry my tears.

I just had to watch the blood

as it left stains

on the dress you had

once told me,

I looked like a queen in.


You've taken my entire life away.


The way I used to dress up my dolls,

is the way I dress myself.

I just want to be pretty for you.

I do the things you like

so that you know

I am the only one to

get the job done

for you.


I look into the mirror

and in my eyes, I see your face.


“You are my heart and my soul.”


Why did it become dangerous

when you said those words to me?


No man has ever loved me.

I love how you want to keep me safe.

You want to keep me to yourself

and own my embrace.


The truth is as it is.


Either way I want to be happy.

Either way I need to feel loved.


I started hearing footsteps,

but I didn’t see a thing.

In shock from it all

my body stopped shivering.

Suddenly my eyes began to burn.

Then, tears dispersed.

The reason is cause you

turned the lights on.


I had been sitting in the dark all day.


When I saw you,

I quickly stood to my feet.

I had a smile on my face

just to greet.

No matter how much love I show you,

you still manage to hurt me.


As if I’m not already in cuffs,

you question me.


You're insecure.


I didn't do anything

to make you not trust me.

If you released me today,

you'd still have me.

That's how much

I love you.


I suppress the anger I have

from the depression you cause on me.


Why must my prison be your insecurity?


Through this relationship’s insanity

I see your humanity

and sensitivity.

I love you too much,

so I just try to give you what you need.


I'll always nurture you and make you feel strong.

Why do you take that strength and use it to fight me?


It isn't fair the

way you lock me up,

then say you’re going out

because you feel lonely.

It leaves me hurting

when you say it’s me you want,

but you don’t ever want to be with me.

You’re only around when

everything else fails.


When you’re at your most frail

is when you call because you know,

I will always be there

as your pretty little punching bag.


Tonight I sing a prison song.

If you have learned nothing,

I’ve learned something.

I've got to quit making the assumption

that just because I love you,

you’re gonna love me.

You will just take my all

until I have nothing left.

I've got to stop giving.


The way I used to dress up my dolls

is the way I dress up myself.

Not for you,

not for anyone else.

I just want to feel good

Because I am free.

My newly found freedom

is in the strongest

of my abilities.


A butterfly’s beauty is in my completeness

and there’s no story,

like the colors in my wings.


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    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Aw, you're so sweet Spy. Thank you!

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      IAmForbidden 

      6 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

      hi ryem. your talent is blossoming more and more each day.

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      You are too, too kind. I love those words in your comment. Thanks so much!!

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      epigramman 

      6 years ago

      ...brooding, soulful, deep - obviously written by someone who has the true heart of a poet - and the literary talent to match - lake erie time ontario canada 1:49pm and sending you good thoughts and warm wishes

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Yes I had to make a happy ending. There is a brighter day after every dark night. Thanks for stopping by Philly!

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      Jose Velasquez 

      6 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      I was beginning to become outraged, but I like how you made the character see the light in the end.

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Thank you for stopping by and reading my poem! It's great that you like it enough to share it. I appreciate that.

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      K.A.E Grove 

      6 years ago from Australia

      a powerful read that at times gave me chills, I too loved the ending, finding freedom by loving yourself is so so true.

      voting up and sharing on

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      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Thank you tobusiness. It's always nice to see you : )

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 

      6 years ago from Lincolnshire, U.K

      Ryem, a lot of complex emotions beautifully expressed here, but love is full of complexities. I especially love the ending, only when we can begin to love ourselves will we find true love. Voting up.

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