Prison Song

When I opened my eyes,

I was mad and frustrated.

I was curled up in a ball,

with my knees to my chest

and my wrists tightly cuffed behind me.

I couldn’t even bring my arms to the front.

I couldn’t hold myself for comfort.

I was unable to remove the hair from my face

and I couldn’t dry my tears.

I just had to watch the blood

as it left stains

on the dress you had

once told me,

I looked like a queen in.

You've taken my entire life away.

The way I used to dress up my dolls,

is the way I dress myself.

I just want to be pretty for you.

I do the things you like

so that you know

I am the only one to

get the job done

for you.

I look into the mirror

and in my eyes, I see your face.

“You are my heart and my soul.”

Why did it become dangerous

when you said those words to me?

No man has ever loved me.

I love how you want to keep me safe.

You want to keep me to yourself

and own my embrace.

The truth is as it is.

Either way I want to be happy.

Either way I need to feel loved.

I started hearing footsteps,

but I didn’t see a thing.

In shock from it all

my body stopped shivering.

Suddenly my eyes began to burn.

Then, tears dispersed.

The reason is cause you

turned the lights on.

I had been sitting in the dark all day.

When I saw you,

I quickly stood to my feet.

I had a smile on my face

just to greet.

No matter how much love I show you,

you still manage to hurt me.

As if I’m not already in cuffs,

you question me.

You're insecure.

I didn't do anything

to make you not trust me.

If you released me today,

you'd still have me.

That's how much

I love you.

I suppress the anger I have

from the depression you cause on me.

Why must my prison be your insecurity?

Through this relationship’s insanity

I see your humanity

and sensitivity.

I love you too much,

so I just try to give you what you need.

I'll always nurture you and make you feel strong.

Why do you take that strength and use it to fight me?

It isn't fair the

way you lock me up,

then say you’re going out

because you feel lonely.

It leaves me hurting

when you say it’s me you want,

but you don’t ever want to be with me.

You’re only around when

everything else fails.

When you’re at your most frail

is when you call because you know,

I will always be there

as your pretty little punching bag.

Tonight I sing a prison song.

If you have learned nothing,

I’ve learned something.

I've got to quit making the assumption

that just because I love you,

you’re gonna love me.

You will just take my all

until I have nothing left.

I've got to stop giving.

The way I used to dress up my dolls

is the way I dress up myself.

Not for you,

not for anyone else.

I just want to feel good

Because I am free.

My newly found freedom

is in the strongest

of my abilities.

A butterfly’s beauty is in my completeness

and there’s no story,

like the colors in my wings.