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Updated on October 4, 2010

LOOKING BACK.... by b. Malin

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TIMES IN MY LIFE by b. Malin

Times in my life. Many to remember, and a few to forget.....Like my first day at a new school, the uncertainties, the fears....the wanting to be liked and accepted....and finally, the acceptance.

My school years....some happy memories....many pains, a difficult time in my life. Feeling lost, and not knowing why. No one to turn to. A child of divorce, a mother not there, a father not knowing how to care. My clothes not right, I felt like a fright. Not the best of times in my life.

The "Bloomingdale's crowd" had left me behind, a child of those times. But I held my head high and tried to get by. I must have succeeded for in my hand, my diploma was placed, and friends wished me well, as I did the same to remain in the game of my life. A questionable time in my life.

My first love, the romantic love letters, the phone calls, the worlds "I love you"...said over and over again. The promises, the few times together, the hurts and the tears...and finally the breakup... But never regretting that time in my life.

My first job, taken only because the money looked good, and I was so young and inexperienced, and hopeful, and trusting, until disillusionment set in....then I set out to find more. As the women of my generation were starting to roar!  An interesting time in my life.

My marriage bore two sons....but eventually came undone. Good years, some laughs, some tears...cuts that ran deep...wounds that would not heel from hurtful words and acts. We lasted many regrets, for that time in my life.

Out into the world, such a different world, my children grown, on their own....with a "Dating Mother" making her way, making her mistakes...But waking up Laughing at herself. A very good time in my life.

My "crazy times",,,,Having Lovers, making new friends, living in a new location. Meeting a man, "a special Man" knowing he would be "the one" when my sanity returned. Oh we had our fights and afternoon delights...but commitment was scary for me. But patience and love was on his side. A "growing time" for me, in my life.

I married the man, "that special man" three years later, with both sons at my side. All our friends came, and we drank champaigne, and the sparkle was in our eyes. Life seemed good as well it should, and a good time was had by all. I'd gone full circle, to reach, "Happy Times" in my life for me.

We had a boat with a cabin below and many a starlit sky....I 'd like to say we sailed off into the sunset and lived happily ever after. But that's not life, and we had a few fights...and weathered a few good storms. But after so many years....we're both still here, Enjoying the times of our life, forever, together!


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      b. Malin 5 years ago

      Thank You so much for all your Wonderful Comments James. Life is what we make, while we are here...I don't ever want to have Regrets. True, somethings (like a crazy Family) is NOT something that we have control over. But how we handle it is!

      A Special Thanks for your Votes!

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      Olde Cashmere 5 years ago

      Sounds like you have had a rich experience in this life. You put it into words beautifully and it was a great read b. Malin. Wonderful writing and I enjoy your personal style. Voted up, beautiful, awesome, and interesting!

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      b. Malin 6 years ago

      Thank you so much for your Thoughtful Comments Attemptedhumour. I've always felt "Life" is what we choose to make it...So glad you Enjoyed the Read. I'll be by to look at your Hubs as well.

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      attemptedhumour 6 years ago from Australia

      Yes the ups and downs of life seem to be the norm. You played them out in an honest way and still had the good grace to see their positive side. A good idea, well executed. Cheers

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      b. Malin 6 years ago

      You are so Right Sweetie...And we as Women learn to live through each Phase...and hopefully grown from them.

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      sweetie1 6 years ago from India

      Hi B malin everyone has his or her share of heart beats and problems in life but life goes on to find more love and heart breaks.

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      b. Malin 7 years ago

      Thank you bluestar for coming by and understanding the meaning of this piece...Life is made up of so many times...good and bad...and us in between.

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      Annette Donaldson 7 years ago from Northern Ireland

      just goes to show that despite skeletons in the cupboard, life goes on and happy times are for ever. Love this hub, very well written

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      b. Malin 7 years ago

      Thanks Denise for the compliments and for coming by.

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      Denise Handlon 7 years ago from North Carolina

      B-what a clever and creative way to write about milestones in your life. Awesome. Rated it up again. Thanks.

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      b. Malin 7 years ago

      richtwf, Thank you for sharing your thoughts on my HUb. Your words are so true!

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      richtwf 7 years ago

      Thanks for sharing these personal memories. Time passes by quickly especially as we become older so we have more memories to reflect upon - beautiful as well as ones which bring back times of sadness and pain. Life is full of up and downs and twists and turns and never truly knowing what will happen next - oh how great life is if we have a great attitude and enjoy the ride as we journey through life. May you have more beautiful times and memories ahead!

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      b. Malin 7 years ago

      Hey Kristen Grace, Thank you for your comments. Yes, life is good!

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      b. Malin 7 years ago

      Ayelet, thank you for your beautiful insights to life. You my friend, have learned to handle it well, and so you have been blessed. I am so proud of you for the woman you have grown to become and will continue to be, and your husband is a very fortunate man. The children are lucky to have two such wonderful parents!

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      KristenGrace 7 years ago from Philadelphia, PA

      What a nice collection of thoughts... You're absolutely right about the many to remember, and few to forget. Great idea for a hub, and glad to see you enjoying your life at the present time!

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      Ayelet 7 years ago

      I think the bumps in life make us appreciate the good times that much better. There was a time when my husband should have died. One week in ICU, sitting by his bed, praying for a miracle. Our children where young, 14, 12 and 9. It was so hard for them to understand. God granted us the miracle we prayed for. It was a long hard year to get him back on his feet but he is back on his feet. Two years latter we took the kids to Israel. As the five of us stood looking at the Western Wall I said "This time we did not come to The Wall to ask something of God, we are here to say Thank you"

      Every time something special happens, our 25th Anniversary in Italy, children becoming Bar and Bat Mitzvah, graduating high school, starting college I know it is a miracle, it could have gone the other way so easily.

      And I think, because we know how fragile life really is we try to appreciate even more. Even the fights are sweeter.

      Thank you Barbara for your thoughts on life, they make me think about my own life.