REFLECTIONS IN THOUGHTS

Times in my life. Many to remember, and a few to forget.....Like my first day at a new school, the uncertainties, the fears....the wanting to be liked and accepted....and finally, the acceptance.

My school years....some happy memories....many pains, a difficult time in my life. Feeling lost, and not knowing why. No one to turn to. A child of divorce, a mother not there, a father not knowing how to care. My clothes not right, I felt like a fright. Not the best of times in my life.

The "Bloomingdale's crowd" had left me behind, a child of those times. But I held my head high and tried to get by. I must have succeeded for in my hand, my diploma was placed, and friends wished me well, as I did the same to remain in the game of my life. A questionable time in my life.

My first love, the romantic love letters, the phone calls, the worlds "I love you"...said over and over again. The promises, the few times together, the hurts and the tears...and finally the breakup... But never regretting that time in my life.

My first job, taken only because the money looked good, and I was so young and inexperienced, and hopeful, and trusting, until disillusionment set in....then I set out to find more. As the women of my generation were starting to roar!  An interesting time in my life.

My marriage bore two sons....but eventually came undone. Good years, some laughs, some tears...cuts that ran deep...wounds that would not heel from hurtful words and acts. We lasted many years....no regrets, for that time in my life.

Out into the world, such a different world, my children grown, on their own....with a "Dating Mother" making her way, making her mistakes...But waking up Laughing at herself. A very good time in my life.

My "crazy times",,,,Having Lovers, making new friends, living in a new location. Meeting a man, "a special Man" knowing he would be "the one" when my sanity returned. Oh we had our fights and afternoon delights...but commitment was scary for me. But patience and love was on his side. A "growing time" for me, in my life.

I married the man, "that special man" three years later, with both sons at my side. All our friends came, and we drank champaigne, and the sparkle was in our eyes. Life seemed good as well it should, and a good time was had by all. I'd gone full circle, to reach, "Happy Times" in my life for me.

We had a boat with a cabin below and many a starlit sky....I 'd like to say we sailed off into the sunset and lived happily ever after. But that's not life, and we had a few fights...and weathered a few good storms. But after so many years....we're both still here, Enjoying the times of our life, forever, together!