Red as I
"I am I" is strict a fantasy poem. It's reading from both the man and the woman point of view. It's about a secret romance with a married man. No I have never did that myself but i wanted to do a poem from another point of view.
I am I
You are you and I am I
I gazed across the room admire perspiring while day dreaming
Of lick ice cream from your belly button
Now wouldn't that be something
Listening to your strong deep breaths as you become anxious yep it's the same us we have always been
You are you and I am I my friend
I mean I sit back legs cross
Eyes lost in just how far does that melanin go
My guess is from head to toe
But you know I wouldn't mind a peak
Or a little smackaroo
As pooh would do
Going up the tall tree that is you
I am I and you are you
I see her walking through the room not knowing my hands have smacked it all in my dreams
Lefted hand marks on tattoos and even a tiny bruise
From the candle whose wax was to hot
But she yelled "don't stop!"
As it dripped as I sucked the honey from her lips
I am I and you are you
As I lean back with my drink in my hand trying to constrict my little man
I see the club lights exposing your excitement as if they were point at me and only me to see
Slow tasting them with the warm from my mouth and the chill from the ice.
Them I place my ring on my finger and exit home to release my loyalty upon my forever at home
If only if only I was just I and you were just you.
You ask me if I have the capacity to do it
I wouldn't do it if it was the only choice with a gun to my head saying choose it.
If there was a million men beating me in my head with crowbars
I'll still wouldn't turn on you
Put my hand on the Bible
Go to hell with my rivals
Look the judge in his face and say never did it I was there
I don't care if I was sitting belted up in an electric chair
I would perm my curly locks if you asked me too
I would walk the desert sand without any shoes
Theirs just one thing I ask of you dont hurt me when you see what I would do for.
I would write a bad check at a bank let it bounce let my credit drop that's how serious I feel when you bring the subject up about us
And the fact that you could think differently
And you could leave without a trace
Let me go
Like you would try to replace me
Like some girl could even face me
The very fact that you would put my name in the same race with any female forget the retail
Like her soul could match mine
Like you would have the same vibe
Like you would feel the rhythmic air vibrate with your finger in her hair
But you would let me
You would let me....
Feel as inadequate as just some other female?
I guess when I fell I fell alone
I keep knocking and banging at your head but no ones home
I guess I'm bae
We together...but im alone.
The author responses
"Like a moon" is about taking the strong independent woman and making her stand by her man not in front of him. I battled with this in many of my relationships. I was raised to take charge as a woman and if the man follows then "GREAT". I was never taught to need a man so when I ran into a man that I needed. Ladies I don't mean financial or physical. I need him in a spiritual way. He just makes my soul happy. So I had to teach myself how to not over shadowed him and be a partner with him.
Like the moon
Sit still like the moon
And watch them gaze and be amazed
They'll admire you like the perfect book in that corner place in the library
They'll admire talk about your quiet storm lightly shooting sparks of lightning
My dear sit still like the moon
And you glow is loud enough
I'll dim the night sky so that your light can glow loud not your mouth
My love be like the moon
Teach the ocean its way to move
Lead the oceans
I'll be admired just as much as a star
I'll lead men and woman to home and dreams
Keep your dark night sky I'll be bright without it
I'll be in sight without it
And people will wait for me
I want to be wild like a star
They'll talk about the shooting and burn and disappearing and reappearing
I want to be wild like a star honey bun
They'll sit watching me like a lion from a far
They'll gaze at me like sun rays sweetheart
I'm better as a star.
The authors opinion
"It occurred to me" took about a month to write. It's about a parting that you had a rough time doing. Parting from anyone or anything is hard to do even harder when you love them. Parting is also necessary for everyday growth. Most relationships that have ended good and bad have taught us valuable lessons. These lessons aren't to be over looked but to be acknowledged and addressed. This poem is my battle with that.
It occurred to me
It occurred to me I'm gonna break your heart one day.
I'm gonna have to separate
I'm gonna have to leave standing in an empty home
Just wondering if I'm still gonna be there for you
And I will
I will do whatever come whenever
But I can't grow here
I can't flourish here
I can't stay here
It occur to me I'm going to break your heart
And it broke mine too
Because their is no one in the world I would want to hurt less than you
No one I would want to make cry less than you
But I don't have a voice here
I don't have a choice here
I just sit and I stress with an S on my chest
But no one applauds
No fan club
It occurred to me I'll break your heart someday
I just didnt know it would be today.