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Once Redeemed By An Angel

Updated on February 24, 2017
By  empire mike
By empire mike


Republishing "Redeemed by an Angel: My Tribute To Nellieanna" (by her beloved stepson, Michael)

A messenger of God? A gift from God? I believe in angels. I know there are skeptics out there. They don't believe in angels; they don't believe in God. Some believe they are God. Others don't even believe in themselves. I personally tend to be skeptical about skeptics, even though that makes me one. So be it.

I first met Nellieanna a quarter of a century ago. My mother had recently died, and it was a family business meeting rather than a joyful gathering. Didn't have those in my family. I don't remember much about the occasion except its awkwardness and that it was the last time I ever saw my father. Two decades later was the next time I saw Nellieanna, at my dad's funeral. During that twenty years, he had learned to believe in angels.

I suppose God can send angels in any form He chooses: a stranger, a dream, a kitty. I don't think I believed in angels back then; probably didn't have an opinion. An angel can also assume the guise of what appeared to me as a frail, old woman. Of course first, or in this case, second impressions actually aren't always the best. Little did I know I was gazing upon a pillar of strength, health, and vitality. When she put her right arm around me and never let go, the scales fell from my eyes and I was able to behold an object of beauty to be treasured beyond all riches.
Saying you have been touched by an angel may certainly sound trite, but until it happens to you, the experience is incomprehensible. After it happens, you are never the same; you will become a better person as a result. It is one of those magical, mysterious things that happen all too rarely, but you never forget. It brings resurrection to the dead, seeing to the blind, hope to the despairing, joy to the depressed. In that moment, a miracle has taken place.

There was no logical reason why someone in her situation should welcome, accept, like, much less love me. Except that is Nellieanna's true nature. I had rejected her and her husband for the entire span of their marriage. I had gone as far as to tell her husband that i hated him. Yet after his passing, she still put her arm around me and never let go. She welcomed me as her own prodigal.
Nellieanna became my best friend, my mentor, my mother of choice. She helped me believe that my dad loved me; my hatred melted. In my darkest hours, she sheds light, she speaks of hope, she gives love without condition. She in turn teaches me how to receive that love and give it in return; I become able to accept and love myself. She generously shares from her vessels of wisdom and kindness. She has encouraged and helped me believe that I am special, as have all who have been graced by her presence.

She is my mom.

Messenger of God? Gift of God? Whatever. As for me, i believe in angels!

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      mckbirdbks 3 weeks ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      Very nice tribute, Mike. I think all those that find themselves here will agree with you. (How often dies that happen?) Nellieanna Hay, is an angel who walks among us.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Mike. Thank you. (blush) My purpose for republishing this was a specific one, and I didn't intend to leave it up for long. Michael is my George's younger son and is like my own son, and more so. He was active on HP a number of years ago, but then was not and none of his hubs are now available on HP. What a shame! He writes so well. I saved one other of his hub and this one because of its great dearness to me. Wish I'd saved more of them.

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      Eric Dierker 3 weeks ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Very touching. Love is awesome!

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Indeed it is Eric. Sometimes when one least realizes it, it can make an enormous different to someone, and its gives oneself enormous joy one hadn't expected.

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      John Hansen 3 weeks ago from Queensland Australia

      A beautiful and touching tribute to you from your stepson, Nellieanna. I do think I have read this before but it deserves to be read again and again. thank you for resharing it.

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      Genna East 3 weeks ago from Massachusetts, USA

      Dearest Nellieanna...

      I was delighted to see your name pop up in my HP mail. Michael's stunning tribute is remarkable and cherishing. That he found forgiveness, love, strength and hope in the most dire of circumstances -- the passing of his father, George, to whom he had not spoken in so long -- is one of life's miracles. Such miracles are bound to us by angels; I truly believe this. And I agree with Mike in that we have one in Nellieanna. There are angels of the earth and of heaven. Earth angels are souls like you…those who help us find our way. Thank you for sharing this with us. :-)

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      Eric Dierker 3 weeks ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Please be assured that your sharing it with us, is in fact sharing the love, thank you.

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      Shannon 3 weeks ago from Texas

      I'm going to comment a little more via email. But for now, know that this is a beautiful set of words, whatever your reason for publishing it are. Jonah is right in saying others relate. In fact, my hub "Angels of the Earthly Kind" was inspired as much by you as some others in my life. I remember clearly what I was thinking and feeling when I wrote it, who was on my mind at the time. And specific incidents associated with those people.

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      Tim Mitchell 3 weeks ago from Escondido, CA

      It is good to see you sharing this. I remember reading once before. Well received with nod of a humble head. An amazing tribute! I know once in my past here how you helped me too. I am always thankful Nelieanna.

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      mckbirdbks 3 weeks ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      Nellieanna, if I may; I'd like to pass to your son, that you inspired one of my The Carriage Driver stories. You know which one. You have inspired so many of us here.

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      Maria Jordan 3 weeks ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Dear Nellieanna,

      I could not agree with Michael more...your unconditional love and acceptance gave him the power to forgive his Father and himself. And that's truly the stuff that angels are made of.

      Michael was fun to virtually 'pal around' with after your kind introduction. Please let him know he is missed.

      Love you and thanks for sharing this again - like you, it's a keeper.

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      Ruby Jean Fuller 3 weeks ago from Southern Illinois

      I love hearing about your love and kindness to others. I believe in angels, and I really believe I've met a few. Thanks for sharing this. I can't remember ever reading it.

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      Martie Coetser 3 weeks ago from South Africa

      Dearest Nellieanna, 'touched by an angel' is exactly how I would describe your presence in my life since the day I arrived in Hubpages way back in 2010. Your advise and encouragement via comments and emails pulled me from the depths of acute depression and gave me a new perspective on my life, myself, others and on life in general. Since the beginning I call you my mother in cyberspace (CM), and you play this roll in my life just perfectly. So, I share Mike's admiration for you, and his gratefulness. I will always cherish our online relationship, and thank God because you have decided to reach out to me. You are most certainly an angel.

      How is Mike? I enjoyed his hubs, and I'm sad because they are no longer available.

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      Michael-Milec 3 weeks ago

      Dear Nellieanna Hay. Michael has revealed all 'secrets' of you I was suspicious of from the very moment we "met" on HP. Your true nature is known, felt in every word of communication and you are real instrument of the God in what you share encouraging and loving the way nature of God does. You are the blessing not only to your stepson Michael who knows you personally and have priviledge to love you as a God's gift called mom, but you are blessing in my life and a life of many as is well noticable in countless comments available on these pages.

      Give please my regards to your son Michael encouraging him to come back and publishe once again.

      Be blessed and continue to be a blessing.

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      Venkatachari M 3 weeks ago from Hyderabad, India

      A very beautiful and well-deserved tribute to you, Nellieanna, from your son, Michael. He is so nice to put all those feelings in such a clear-cut way and share it with all of us. I am very thankful to God for having such an angel among us.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Mike Friedman, once more! Thank you! I’d be most pleased for you to share that with Michael. Would need to discuss how, since he's inactive on HP. But I’ve gone on and have given him my copy of the book with a bit of explanation. I’ll replace mine right away. The timing just seemed so right to give him your book now.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear John H., Thank you! Yes, you probably did read it before, even if Michael was not active when you joined. I'm not sure of its timing but I referenced it on my profile and it was still on his hubpages, even if he had become inactive. I appreciate your revisiting and liking it now! There is something so awesome when someone feels touched by someone else deeply, it transcends the individuals involved. I showed him the re-publishing here, plus the comments and he was somewhat amazed. He remembered feeling what he expressed and enjoyed revisiting it, but didn’t quite remember writing the words.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Genna, yes, it is wonderful that he’s found his own true path and contentment. He truly is a cherished and cherishable person and I love him dearly.

      I’ve no doubt that each of us has been or can be an angel in the life of someone, even without realizing it! Timing and many other key factors somehow line up to contribute, but when and however it happens, it’s like a miracle. Thank you for your dear comments! Hugs!

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Eric, what a wonderful comment. I hoped that sharing the love Michael expressed in this would be the clear message of re-publishing it. Thank you for that reassurance!

      It was my pleasure to share his illustration from his original hub, too. He's a quite talented photographer with a artist's eye. Hugs.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Shanmarie, Thank you. I agree that these words express experiences which most of us have related to, either or both from the giving or the receiving ends. Perhaps it’s what humans are truly meant for.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Tim, thank you for sharing your experience on hubpages of feeling you were helped! It’s most gratifying and I appreciate knowing if I had any part in it! I've experienced on the receiving end, too.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Maria, I’ve conveyed your message to Michael and it pleased him!

      I’m smiling, too, both because of your kind words and from being able to convey them to him.

      I am so happy, knowing how much happier he is now than in the past.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Ruby, Thank you! I agree that angels are always nearby, even those who don't know that they are, for someone.

      I was rescued by one at age 7, and could never doubt their existence from then on; plus it was someone from another race in a place with none of his race living there, which permeated my views from then on, as well!

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      My dear Cyber Daughter, Martie, thank you. It’s humbling and gratifying to learn of having made a difference in someone’s life. I may not be an official or a very reliable angel, - knowing my own lacks, - but it’s encouraging to know there are good times! ;)

      Michael is doing so well and is much happier now. I mentioned to hm that he’s missed on here and that he’d be welcome any time on HP. He was surprised that his hubs are not displayed. I’ve no idea how that happened, other than perhaps it’s automatic after a period of inactivity, I wished I’d have copied and saved more of them!

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Michael Milec. Thank you my friend. Well, I’m very human and fallible, though ‘I’m blessed with an optimistic outlook in almost any situation. Thank you for seeing through the dross to a kernel of inner peace and joy in me.

      Michael has read these comments and has seen your words of regard to him. It would be great if he chose to come back and resumed writing and publishing here. Certainly the warm invitation pleases him. Meanwhile,, his life has taken other directions and he’s much happier. That’s what thrills my heart and soul.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Dear Venkatachari, Thank you! Michael writes so beautifully, though his present life-style is unconnected with writing and reading his own words almost surprises him. But I have no doubt that it’s “in there” in him. Everything he wrote on Hubpages was so well done and so authentic . His Dad always believed in his writing talent. Thank you for appreciating his tribute to me. I certainly do! If I need a ‘boost’, I can just read it! :)

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      manatita44 2 weeks ago from london

      What a beautiful and touching Hub. truly heartfelt. Thanks Michael.

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      Nellieanna Hay 2 weeks ago from TEXAS

      Thank you, Manatita.

      Michael is quite soft-spoken and gentle and this truly was heartfelt, as you perceived.

      He was just here last week and was delighted that I re-published this beautiful hub. I hope that he'll find time to be active in HP again. But his life is quite busy and has changed dramatically. I love him dearly and am always so pleased when he comes to see me!

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      manatita44 2 weeks ago from london

      So very sweet of him! Life has so many twists and turns! A bit like my Chinese Movies, sometimes. When finally it all works out, it's simply beautiful! Much Love.

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      DREAM ON 13 days ago

      To read the hub that your stepson Michael wrote makes me realize how words can heal. I think in some ways better than modern medicine. I am no doctor but I do think scientists will uncover a new connection between words and life as we know it. Far beyond what we think is possible. I know when I read your hubs I can not take in their whole essence. I enjoy and appreciate their continued beauty like a flower opening and closing. It takes time and ever so slowly it happens when I am not really sure. I do know I come back again and wait and wait. Then sometimes when I close my eyes for just a second I missed it. Then I learned through you I didn't miss anything. My eyes had to shut for that exact split second for another reason. Life is a constant work of art that we all participate. Someone had to have the vision. Other people carry out that vision even farther. Some people love to just watch and other people like to skip and walk right bye. All people all types makes the world a beautiful place. Your words heal and nurture. I have never seen an angel before but if I ever do I know exactly what one could look like. All I have to do is close my eyes and listen to your words. Even the words I don't understand now never leave. They just float around until I am ready. Your comments have been received graciously and with great enthusiasm. I am always searching for a balance. I am a lot like a bull in a china shop. My thoughts come at the wrong time and not as perfect as I would like. So as I release them to the world I let the world mold them into something more. I think I have known you for seven years. Time escapes me and a year ago seems like yesterday. I think my age is starting to show. (lol) I am so proud to have had the chance to meet you through HubPages and experience so many great times. May this comment find you in the best of health and reach you after lunch while your food is digesting. So no wasted time and effort. Thank you and have a sun filled lovely day. (shells)

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      Nellieanna Hay 13 days ago from TEXAS

      Oh, yes, Manatita, it was so sweet of him. And certainly Life has many twists and turns, as I think is the essence of being a-live, or else it would be a-not-live. Its movement and change, its insecurity naturally produce ups and downs, twists and turns, ins and outs and all the constant contrasts and features of being alive. Accepting that is so freeing! When it works out smoothly, it’s over as life as we know it. That is when it’s run its course here and is ready for whatever may be next.

      It is incredibly beautiful and its simplicity is surely its greatest secret and lesson. Its mystery is its simplicity and its simplicity is its mystery. People making it complicated takes them off on wild-goose chases and overlooks what explains itself. I appreciate your responses! Love.

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      Nellieanna Hay 13 days ago from TEXAS

      Dear Dream On! What a treat to see you here writing your responses to this very special hub! Yes! Words - and the meanings they convey - can heal. . . or else they can hurt. Words are symbols, mere scratches and marks on a screen or paper or sound waves hanging in the air. But they can be felt like caresses or attacks, like balm or poison. It depends both on the hearts of the one saying them and the one receiving them.

      A profound thought you mention, that “. . .scientists will uncover a new connection between words and life as we know it. . . ” That connection to our very life gives an even greater importance to our words and places more responsibility on us in using them, though they must not be burdensome if they are to come alive.

      The scriptures give power to the role of words. “In the beginning was The Word. . . .”

      I’ve loved words all my life, I think, both reading and writing them, also singing them. Even as a small kid, I sought and collected words, in books and on paper, and with my playmate as we I created lives for our dolls and had them act them out. We were like script-writers for movies for those dolls!

      You are so right that they come alive when we close our eyes and ponder and visualize what the words MEAN to us. Without their ability to convey meanings, they’re just marks on a paper or screen or empty sounds in the air.

      When their meaning is both given and received in concert, they do have the power of healing, because they communicate faith that healing is not only possible but it already ‘in there’ awaiting to be stirred and faith to be given power to heal.

      The experience of letting them ‘just float around’as you say, till you are ready to receive their meanings to you is exactly what that is! It is not only the sending out of healing or understanding but is culminated with the receiving of it when the time is right for you so that your understanding is awakened and responds. That is profound, Michael! Then you let your messages out to allow others to receive and mold them to fit, and perhaps, to pass them along to yet others.

      If only everyone were able to perceive that and grow with it! You possess a very deep heart and soul!

      I agree that we probably met here on Hubpages about 7 years ago. That’s a long time in cyberspace! LOL Who knows. Maybe we've met in another life!

      The last few days have been sun-filled and mild here. But I've been busy and didn’t check comments till now when it has become evening-approaching-bedtime. Still have supper dishes to wash and evening ablutions to do. (brushing teeth, cleaning face and changing into pajamas) Have been going to bed late and getting up early for a couple of nights and I find myself dozing off sitting here, sometimes with my laptop on my lap!

      Hope your weather is not too cold and that it feels good. SHELLS.

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      BODYLEVIVE 13 days ago from Alabama, USA

      This is so beautiful and how wonderful of you to republish it. May you be blessed in all that you do. I do believe in angels!

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      Nellieanna Hay 13 days ago from TEXAS

      Dear Bodylevive. I appreciate your kind comment and am pleased to meet you. Seems we’ve both been around Hubpages for 7 years, so finally we meet!

      I took a quick look at your Hubpage, which I like to do when first meeting a fellow Hubber. I see some interesting hubs I’d like to explore!

      May angels watch over you!

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