Remembered
She would sip red wine every now and then
She would drink slowly, and gradually drown the day’s pain
She would giggle when she had too much
She would stop laughing when she had a little more
She danced in order to feel alive
She moved as fast as she could
She could never move as fast as she wanted too
She would go home tired and spent
She would recite from memory scriptures which had never been written
She spoke words divinely inspired, if at times profane and sacrilege
She saw more than her eyes needed to see
She felt more than was healthy to feel
She tried hard to understand those around her
She felt the pain when others spoke
She sympathized, empathized and internalized
She took it all in... and it weighed her down
She would lay on the warm sand and let the shore’s breeze caress her
She would not sunbathe in the nude
She feared the sun would blush.
She would feel reborn in the heat
She hated the rain but didn’t mind the snow
She loved watching the leaves fall to the ground in the Autumn
She felt like a tree at times
She felt like a leaf often
She hummed notes as they randomly entered her mind
She loved old black and white movies and simpler times
She cared for children though she was never given any of her own
She hated God for that, and tried with all her heart to forgive Him
She made love like a bird seeking warmth in a nest
She made love and seldom had sex
She was vulnerable with or without her clothes on
She was bare each day of her life
She celebrated every birthday with great enthusiasm
She wondered deep down though “is this all there is”?
She wondered not so deeply down
She had questions that she did not want answered
She looked for inspiration in the oddest places
She lost all her muses early on in life
She was surrounded by people most of the time
She was all alone most of the time
She moved across country
She went there to find someone she never knew
She didn’t realize that person was inside her
She looked in vain
She curled her hair at times
She straightened her hair at other times
She had to lose all of her hair at one point
She tried hard to be brave for others
She cried just to let the sorrow out
She wondered how the sorrow always came back
She didn’t feel sad at all
She didn’t know it, but she was always sad
She made mistakes
She took the blame for each one
She was never faulted by anyone
She was forgivable, above all
She grew impatient as the years passed by
She heard each drop of sand fall in the hourglass
She felt time breathe more heavily on her shoulder
She was keenly aware
She never found that perfect lipstick
She had thousands of shoes
She was angry that nothing ever fit
She was the most beautiful woman in the world
