Sands Novel (Part Three)

This new world was refreshing in every way!

"Ah, I see things for my children are moving right along," said the Voice. His presence was easily felt. It was becoming more and more evident to me that existing/living in the Here and Now was indeed the basis/foundation of Heaven.

Intuitively and instantaneously I was drawn to the warm presence of God, I knew something of high importance would follow, and he was getting my full attention...the lobsters were easily forgotten. As he spoke my grandparents headed to the resting area of my beautiful kitchen where they made themselves comfortable..

"Nadine, it is very important that you know that we never forget our loved ones -- we can see them any time we desire. Painful memories are in the past and you must not question it for the past was a time to learn from all those experiences on earth. The Here and Now is upon us and actually you will never find a need to question or doubt anything ever again. Back on earth the "Here & Now" is the same term used by people describing Utopia. A perfect world where there is no longing,..A state of it is what it is, and I am who I am and these are the ingredients to be part of all the wonders of the world. In the "Here & Now," memories will occur but only good ones. Life's troubles were for that time only--we do carry with us the knowledge we gained. Do know that it was not for nothing your life back on earth instead remember it as a blessing however blistered it may have been."

While the Voice speaks, his Spirit and ways seem to flow through me --an inner calm felt from my head to my toes blossomed...I felt him inside my head and in my heart, and I was happy grinning from the inside out. The feeling of relief was with me and I knew it would be always. It was then I felt his presence leave and I turned to my grandparents, but they were no longer there either. I walked around the kitchen island and took the three steps down to the den area to find a piece of paper with my grandmother's handwriting on it.

It read, "Nadine honey, your grandfather and I had to be somewhere else. Take your time enjoying your new home, and when you want to see us again play your piano and we will come...for now, explore!

Welcome home,

Love Nanny & Poppy."

My stomach started growling again, and I then remembered the Lobster meal I had been preparing. Happily, I skipped/danced up the stairs to my kitchen and finished making the Newburg. After quieting my growling tummy with lobster and salad I started cleaning up, but as I picked up my plate and silverware they vanished. Behind me, I heard movement and as I turned around to see what it was nothing could have prepared me for the sight before my eyes. A very handsome man with a long, well-groomed beard and long hair, wearing a white toga and sandals holding a staff stood in front of my kitchen sink area. He was downright beautiful and I was in awe. I am certain my mouth was gaping for I was shocked upon seeing him and realizing Jesus Christ was in MY presence and in MY kitchen. I was on the verge of fainting till he turned and focused his dreamy crystal blue eyes on me His smooth tanned skin was like no other and combined with the brilliancy of his blues eyes I immediately summed up my feelings. I felt knocked-over-love -- I love this beautiful man. My knees and legs were feeling like jelly, I could have dropped at that moment but then I was drawn to his eyes. I was hypnotized by their color shift from blue to green and miraculously I became once again steady on my feet. Until he smiled. And then a world wind of emotions swept through my very core and being. I found myself helpless and drowning in a mess of positive, blissfully happy agony. I wanted to cry, scream out, laugh, and never let this feeling go.

I must have appeared downright silly and weakened for He hesitated before advancing to rescue me from the floor. His touch upon resting on my arm sent electrified tingles all over my body, and when He finally spoke and said my name, "Nadine," I knew I died and was in Heaven.

"I did not intend to render you this way. I do enjoy that my presence has had such a profound effect on you. I, too, find you beautiful and I am ecstatic that you feel so deeply. I have always known you are a passionate woman and that you cannot hide your feelings. And now, more than ever, you will feel alive and in tune/sync with your senses and emotions. You will never feel an urge to hide them anymore. You do not have to!" He pulled me in closer to him and held me like I have never been held. I wanted to be naked and feel his skin all over mine -- the sheer thought made me tremble with desire for this man...I wanted him so badly that it hurt and tears began to well in my eyes. He spoke soothingly while stroking my hair, saying, "Nadine honey, all in good time. All in good time. You will always want me for I am perfect. It is who I am. Even my voice will elicit these feelings you are having," and as he said the words I inhaled his scent too. I felt like I was on fire and this man holding me and saying my name in such a provocative manner was anyone but Jesus Christ. But as soon as the thought registered I felt sleepy and began to close my eyes, I felt him sweep me off my feet and into his arms being carried somewhere.

I must have been asleep for a long time, for upon waking my eyes had been visited by the sand man and I was having a difficult time opening them. Once I did and things came into focus I had no idea where I was. Everywhere I looked there was white. I was all alone but did'nt feel lonely instead, I felt warm and loved. I then realized I was laying on a mountain of cotton balls for each time I moved they moved and rolled with me. They were loose beneath me for I was able to pick up a few at a time. I began to remember how it was I got here and my memories of Jesus carrying me warmed me from head to toe. At that very moment I realized I was naked but knew I had been untouched by Jesus. He was pure and he had gently laid me in this bed of cotton balls. I remember him whispering to me, "sleep now my pretty lady, and when rested we will see each other again."

Into focus came yellow daffodils falling from above. i reached out and held one and the bed beneath me fell away from my body. Splashes of color meshed together forming once again reality. Dreamworld, sleep time consisted of everything being white and was the actual idea of sleeping on and in the clouds. As dreamworld faded out of vision it was replaced with tall green grass swaying towards a magnificent waterfall with only a massive dark rock wall as its backdrop-- nature's shower worth dying for! As I stood under the waterfall and let its water drench my body I closed my eyes and reflected on all that had transpired since my death. This Heaven of mine was never anything I thought it might be.

©2011 Maggie-May