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Searching For My Lost World

Updated on February 6, 2011

I Am In My Own Prison

I look as far as my eyes can see

I want to be there

I want to feel the joy of everything I ever dreamed of

I search high and low for all the answers

When all the time the answers were right in front of me

They just were not clear

I had to listen and hear them over and over again

Told to me a different way

I had to see them come to life and talk to me

How could I make this happen ?

Who could I ask for advice ?

Everyone is so busy

Nobody has the time for me

Don't they see my ambition ?

Don't they see my drive ?

I have direction all I need is someone else to help me on my course

No matter what I do I never go far enough

I dream the dream but somehow someway my dreams fade away

I didn't want my dreams to leave and disappear

I want to bring them to life

I want to help others with my dreams so they can prosper too

Don't they see I am trying to help them also ?

Nobody cares?

Why do I continue if no one else does ?

It is my passion that I cannot hide

I cannot forget no matter how hard I try

I try to be like everyone else and soon I am back where I started

Looking for ways to make my life so much better

What do I have to show for it ?

Not as much as  I would have expected after all this time

I am silly I don't feel the greatest

Maybe I am just a little under the weather

But that is not going to stop me now or ever

I will rise with my inner power in hand and feel the energy vibrate through my every thought

I will not spend any more time on what I have lost to get this far

But now I can see what I have and always have had

I just didn't see it and couldn't believe it

I had to find it for myself and be not willing for others to tell me it was something else

I have to build up my own confidence and concentrate on my own abilities.

Many years I have been defeated over and over again

By others who have nothing more than me but I have listened as they have boasted what they can do

In time I have seen them one by one fall victim to their own short comings

Now I break away from the norm

I put myself in a class all of my own

I turn to my writings to start my progress

Then I follow with my actions to seek my direction

I feel so much love and potential in my thoughts

As I move forward to spread my new ideas and deep six all my fears

Life is for the living and  Thank God I am still here

Now I share them with those who search for their own true self

To a journey that we can share and be so blessed that we explain to others

How we feel and how to accomplish our dreams that have aluded us in the past

Now we can rejoice and celebrate with the new excitement

The place where we have reached so far and be proud that we can now find our way

 

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    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      7 years ago

      Darlene Sabella You make it sound so simple.There must be an easier way.Until that day I will push on and give you all the support for you to do the same.Together it is always easier.See we found the solution right under our nose.Brown-eyed-girl I will back you 120% Even though nothing has changed on the outside changes are always happening from within.I feel better already.I know we are all in this together.I am convinced we will all make it together!!!!!We just have to be patient and in time it will come.By the way no gloom and doom or depression.I don't have time for that and neither should you.Where there is a will there is a way.I am not sure who said it but they couldn't be more right.Eiddwen If we keep putting our best foot forward.That is a lot of feet in the right direction.Keep going we have a lot of work to do.Joy56 All we have to do is keep helping each other.When one of us falls down.The others will dust them off and up up and away.Poetvix I love your energy and enthusiasm.You are a born leader.Lead the way and I am following you.I love to see people with all that spirit.That can only mean one thing SUCCESS!Truckstop Sally It is hard when your confidence level is next to zero from years of self defeating attitudes from others.I am not going to listen no more.Dim Flaxenwick You have the same inner strength we just have to use it now and all the time.Practice makes perfect.Schoolmarm If you don't know what inner strength is no one does.I push for others to succeed.So we can all be happy.Thanks everyone with my true love and repect for all of you.Lets make it happen.

    • schoolmarm profile image

      schoolmarm 

      7 years ago from Florida

      Wonderful poem - I really enjoyed it - thanks!

    • Dim Flaxenwick profile image

      Dim Flaxenwick 

      7 years ago from Great Britain

      Beautiful. You have a powerful inner strength and love for others.

    • Truckstop Sally profile image

      Truckstop Sally 

      7 years ago

      I so agree with your statement: I have to build up my own confidence and concentrate on my own abilities.

      Personal strength can overcome all.

    • poetvix profile image

      poetvix 

      7 years ago from Gone from Texas but still in the south. Surrounded by God's country.

      This is a most empowering piece. The determined energy, the refusal to bow down, give up or give in... AWESOME!

    • Joy56 profile image

      Joy56 

      7 years ago

      we will all get there in the end..... enjoyed reading your thoughts....

    • Eiddwen profile image

      Eiddwen 

      7 years ago from Wales

      A great poem and yes my sentiments exactly, don't ever give up , carry on going, stay in the same for a little while maybe but never go back and you will find what you have always been looking for.

      Thank you so much for sharing this great and sensitive hub.

      Beautiful and awesome here.

      Take care

      Eiddwen

    • Brown-eyed-girl profile image

      Brown-eyed-girl 

      7 years ago

      A beautiful poem. I love the thought about just pushing through whatever is keeping you from moving forward. I have face a lot of difficult time, but I know I just have to keep moving forward. It just has to get better. I have to believe it will get better because I don't want to be sucked into a depression that could overwhelm me.

    • Darlene Sabella profile image

      Darlene Sabella 

      7 years ago from Hello, my name is Toast and Jam, I live in the forest with my dog named Sam ...

      Yes I hear you my dear friend, sometimes we just need to push forward and ignore the challanges we had to over come getting this far...then there are even more mountains to climb and deserts to cross, I am thursty and tired and not getting any younger...I have this inside me to drive forward, keep trying, keep moving, make a difference in this world. rate up up love this hub great job my friend...love & peace darski

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