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September 11, 2001 - A Memory

Updated on September 12, 2012
Photo credit: Lisa Young/EclecticFusion
Photo credit: Lisa Young/EclecticFusion

Note: I lost my mother the same year of the 9/11 attacks. I was still numb when it all happened and I was so scared and fragile, that all I wanted to do was shut myself up in my house and never leave again. I hope this poem expresses that, but it's hard to go back to a time when I didn't believe in the future and I honestly didn't see myself being alive and well 11 years later! I'm so glad I'm still here!


My foundation was already shaky

A motherless child just six months before

The attacks caused terror and sorrow

The ledge cracked underneath me a bit more.


With tear-filled eyes I watched it all

My fuzzy brain just couldn't comprehend

The hatred of others sent this way

No chance to even defend.


My heart cried out for innocence lost

as the cowardly menace flew through

I searched for a hole to bury myself

The dark nothingness in me grew.


A zombie for weeks, I became

Automatic pilot, I was not there

The God I once knew, I had left months before

I did not believe and no longer cared.


Years have passed and my wounds have healed

The dead live on in our memories

God held my hand until I was whole

Like others, I just needed to grieve.


This is for my mother and 9/11 victims

Death is constant and very real

We fall, we cry, we wallow for a bit

but forget, we never will!


©LMY 9.11.2012


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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      Gypsy, that's sad about your friend. To make it through something so traumatic and then later die from cancer, that's just tragic.

      Thanks so much for stopping by. It's great to see you again and I plan on staying around for awhile!

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 5 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Voted up and beautiful. No one could ever forget. Had friends in all that too. One survived only to succumb to cancer several years later. Great tribute. So sorry you had to lose your mom the same year too. Glad to hear you're OK now. God bless.

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      Faith Reaper 5 years ago from southern USA

      Thanks so much for your honest comment here, and bless your heart. We all feel unworthy sometimes and it is understandable to say the least, but the best thing of all is God does not look at us in that way at all. He loves everything thing about you, even when we are brats! Nothing can separate us from His love, nothing. He has great plans for you, as there is no one like you, and believe me that is no mistake. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      ImKarn23, yes many horrible events have occurred recently, but that just means we have to keep on writing! Our words have the ability to move others and maybe make them forget for awhile. That's why I'm off to right another short story today! I hope it ends up being something totally weird and off the wall!

      Thanks for the comment, for sharing, and the votes!

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      Karen Silverman 5 years ago

      Eclectic Fusion: your poetry sends shivers down my spine! Such a horrible day - and yesterday (9,11,12) was not much improved! The world is an ugly place that needs to kill in the name of god! It's beyond me totally! sharing, tweeting, voting..

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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      Faith Reaper, that was a tough time in my life and I am so glad that God never gave up on me like I gave up on Him. I felt so unworthy after being such a brat, but He never left me alone!

      Thank you for the comment and vote!

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      Faith Reaper 5 years ago from southern USA

      You have vividly painted the picture of that deep dark hole, which is hard to climb out of, but He never stopped pursuing you, and I am so glad. This is a beautiful write as to how all felt so numb in disbelief as to the horror before our eyes on that terrible day. Voted Way Up In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      carol7777, I believe we all felt it, some more than others, but we all can relate to loss and sorrow. Thanks for the comment!

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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      Jackie Lynnley, thanks! If I wasn't able to express myself through writing, I think I would be so lost and my brain would be very crowded and sad.

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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      kj force, we definitely are not invincible, but we can learn to be more wary and strong. Thank you for reading my words!

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      carol stanley 5 years ago from Arizona

      Thanks for sharing this tribute and the memories that many people carry even those of us not directly affected.

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      Jackie Lynnley 5 years ago from The Beautiful South

      So glad you rebounded...and ended up here! My mother is what brought me here and my sorrow is what got me into poetry. Great share, thank you.

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      Jim Higgins 5 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

      A great tribute to the fallen and the time and place!

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      kjforce 5 years ago from Florida

      EclecticFusion...a beautiful tribute to a day which should have made us realize we are not invincible ...although I am amazed many people in America live in denial...

      great job..glad you survived..thank you for sharing your poem....

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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      Victoria Lynn, thank you! I'm glad I made it too! I appreciate the votes!

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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      Michael, thank you!

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      Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

      Yes, you definitely expressed the hole you were in. This is a very powerful poem. I am glad you survived it. Many votes. Well done.

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      cleaner3 5 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      Awesomme and beautiful.