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Setting Me Free

Updated on March 29, 2015

Set me free from my turmoil.

I don’t want to be spoiled.

I just want to prove

that I am not a fool

for being hopeful.


Tears taunt my face by making my eyes water.

Once they follow through with their threat

and roll down my cheeks

they are scared away

by two thumbs that don’t belong to me.


I almost feel free.


I look into his eyes

Just to find that he’s a stranger,

but this isn’t awkward.

I’m still a little hurt

and his comforting embrace

released me of my anger.

I guess the pain eventually will subside too.


I almost feel free.


What if I told you my days are dark?

I mean the kind of dark

where there is no moon, stars

or headlights from cars.

Devils chase me

up and down the streets

and follow me home.

I invite company over

because they don’t crash my parties,

but when my friends leave

they punish me for smiling.


What if I said my days are miserable?

I scream and I scream,

but I cannot hear my voice.


Hmm…I wonder if they do?

It would be exactly like a nightmare

if I didn’t have cuts and scars on my body.

I’ve felt each of them get placed.

I’ve felt my skin get broken, cut and scraped.

It’s not pretty.


And still…

I almost feel free.


I don’t sleep at night

just because of how my days go.


Now let’s get back to this man

running his hands up and down my spine

in the day light.

I feel the sun on my hair,

my face is in his chest

and his scent is incredible, intoxicating, addictive.


I almost feel free.


You wouldn’t believe the promises he made me.

I agreed with my heart not to give them a second thought.

I’m not letting this man pull me apart.

And I won’t pull away from him either

because I feel at ease.


I feel safe,

but I can’t help but wonder how long this will last?


He gives me roses.

I pull the petals

and save the petals

like golden medals.

Every piece of the open bud

resonates the hope of peace in my heart.


He brought the sun out for me.

I just realized

I’ve felt the sun today

for the first time,

in long while.


I almost feel free.


He said it can shine on me forever if I want it to

cause he has that kind of power.


“You don’t have that kind of power!”


He said, “I do and I’ll prove it,

whether you want me to or not.”


Don’t you know I laughed right on the spot?


He says, if I don’t give my heart to him

he will suffer alone

but he won’t take away the beauty he gave me

cause I don’t deserve to be punished anymore.


I’ve got nothing to lose,

I agreed to marry him.

He hands me another rose.

This time it’s a dead one

just like those beautiful, bronze medals I’ve kept.


Do you know why I love dead roses?


I didn’t think you would.


But it shouldn’t matter anymore, Love

because now I am free.


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    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Oh wow, that's really cool.

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      Bobby Isenhower 

      6 years ago from Crothersville, IN

      :) Casting Crowns is one of my favorites, I am asked to sing their music for a lot of different churches and functions :)

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Hey, isenhower thank you for stopping by! I actually looked that song up. It is crazy, beautiful. I love those lyrics and strong vocals. It's amazing to find music that has such a personal meaning and message. I am glad you introduced it to me!! : )

    • isenhower33 profile image

      Bobby Isenhower 

      6 years ago from Crothersville, IN

      Great job :) you would like the song "set me free" by Casting Crowns :)

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Exactly...There's a lot of pain and negativity in this life and it can overwhelm a person and make them forget about beauty and joy. That's where the inspiration for this poem came from. It's about finding that joy all over again.

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      Jose Velasquez 

      6 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

      It's hard to imagine someone in this much pain. The self torment, the inability to see the beautiful light within. Death isn't the only freedom, there is freedom in knowing you deserve more,, and that you will be happy for a few brief moments before death.

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      Thanks a million, Snow!

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      snowdrops 

      6 years ago from The Second Star to the Right

      You have a great talent Ryem.. Lovely.

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      You've assured me that I've gotten my point across. Thank you for the beautiful compliment!

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      Jon 

      6 years ago from UK

      This is a very good piece of work, you are absorbed totally into the fear of the character and swept along through the tale with the desperate hope for salvation and longing for love.

      Truly wonderful

      Simba

    • Ryem profile imageAUTHOR

      Ryem 

      6 years ago from Maryland

      @ tobusiness Thank you so much. It's nice to know someone finds beauty in my words!

      @ loveofnight I appreciate your comment.Thanks for reading!!

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      loveofnight 

      6 years ago from Baltimore, Maryland

      I like the way that you put pen to paper.....Thanks for share

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 

      6 years ago from Lincolnshire, U.K

      This was so amazing, you write beautifully, a very powerful piece, just keep writing. voting up all the way.

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