Sleep- A poem about living for others sake

I can’t remember the last time

I looked into a mirror without a cringe

Each time I see myself

I find myself on a new binge

On a path to crush all thought

It was the time you told me to never worry

That you would never hurt me or run astray

Yet in the end you brought a nightmare

A portrait to the end of days

I saw my heart inside a dream

Barb wire trailed it; seam by seam

A knife impaled it, with hate redeemed

Cause it was that moment you walked away

That I lost all care for myself

It was that time I wasn’t good enough

That I chose you were right, and gave myself away

Every Night I go to sleep

The tears I don’t even notice anymore

They’ve just become a part of waking up

A pillow soaked with empty dreams

Because I’ve lost all true inspiration

If I didn’t have people looking up to me

I’d have no choice but to let go

Cause I can’t handle this anymore

©Sean Monaghan 1/28/2013