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Stillborn Still Love You Baby Please Cry

Updated on March 14, 2012

Baby I....

Baby, I want you please know I lied.

Baby oh baby, please won't you cry?

I said I didn't want you, but I do.

I just couldn't stand the pain as you were leaving my womb.

Baby, I love you.

Baby, I miss you.

Baby, I....

Baby, I think about about you and my heart breaks again.

Baby, I named you.

Baby, you don't know what I'd do.

Just to hold you in my arms again.

Baby, I gave you our family name.

Baby, there were no flowers upon your grave.

Baby I....

I stared for hours

As they died in the hospital room that fateful day.

Baby, I know you were too tiny to live.

Baby, my arms ache.

Oh what I'd give to fill them.

Or how much I'd be loving you if you lived.

Baby, it's cold outside.

Baby, I have a blanket they wrapped you in.

Baby I....

I have your footprints in ink.

Baby, the memories of that day.

The pain inside wants them to go away.

Baby I wonder what it would be like to kiss your cheek.

To hug you and love you and bathe you in the sink.

Baby, my stillborn, I still love you. Baby please cry!

Baby I....

Love, Mommy

In memory of my son Brandon Zachary McNabb 09-03-1992 to 09-03-1992.



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      James A Watkins 5 years ago from Chicago

      Wow! I am floored by this remembrance of your baby from over 19 years ago. What a lovely and heart rending poem you wrote for Brandon Zachary McNabb. He will be waiting for you in heaven.

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      James, thank you for your heartfelt comment. I wrote about him on my blog which is the link in the poem but I understand an infant death is hard to read about. I just hope it helps one person feel less alone. I look forward to seeing my Brandon again. Thanks again!

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      seanorjohn 5 years ago

      This is such a beautifully written account of your beloved Brandon. This will certainly resonate with many. I will get my wife to read this who still remembers the big brother she was so cruelly deprived of because of his stillbirth. Voted up and beautiful.

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      Thank you seanorjohn! I wrote it on a day when I couldn't get him off my mind. I have thought about deleting it because it doesn't feel as good as it could be but have left it because it means something to me. There is a link towards the bottom of my article about stillborn babies, miscarriage and ectopics that goes to the story on my site about what happened to my Brandon if you want to know the whole story behind it.

      Thanks for commenting it means the world. I'm sorry for your wife's losing her brother. These things stick with you.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Tams, this is raw and painful and beautiful. I am so happy I dropped by to find out what you are all about. I love a writer who is passionate and real and you are both of those things. I am sorry for your loss and I am stunned by your honesty...thank you for sharing this.

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      Tams R 5 years ago from Missouri

      Billybuc, Thank you for reading my poem. I am planning to post the whole story soon here on hubpages. I originally had it on my blog, but it doesn't fit there.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      So sad and touching.I have no words to express how deeply sorry I am to hear about your loss.I'm in shock to here this news. My prayers and thoughts are with you all the time .

      xoxoxoxoxox hugs hugs hugs xoxoxoxoxox

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      Jazz 3 years ago

      This poem and your articles helped.

      I have lost two baby boys and i still find myself grieving over it 7 months from their death.

      Your poem made the wound fresh again but its good to know that i am not alone.

      Beautifully written poem touched my heart

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