The Falling : A Poem

I’m getting angry; I even don’t understand

I’m getting angry but do not have will to shout it out loud or pick the side to stand

Seeing him; look so lost, sick and weak, like victim of abusing life

My love to him causing me becoming angry more; want to go far away from his side

I know she is not a perfect wife

But she was always followed his words

Almost all of her life only wished him to hold

Being love, that every wife ever want to told

I warned him once to behaved on his acts and became more warm

I hate the way he always belittle my mom

I asked him to be nicer and always calm

But somehow I only dive in the disguising swamp

These words I said caused me got his cursed

He wished I will always be alone

I know he said that under his vengeance

But can you think about something lamer to shoot? Just pushed!

All of our life he always act like he is top

Never made mistake, maybe he think he is a God

I hate him but somehow I adored him

Like all stupid kid, only want him to love me back but I never got

Now for him life is falling apart

The dignity he so proud of gone away only in one night

Respect and honor only part of yesterday

And all he want now just to hide away

Is it wrong if I feel that he deserves to feel all that pain?