On the Other Side
Times ain't how they used to be.
I was used to seeing bluer skies, now all I see a big blue canvas up high above my head.
The winds used to blow gently leaving me feeling cool, now they just blow as if they want me dead.
The sunrise used to be the one thing I'd never miss, holding you tightly so the first rays shine and make your eyes glow. Now all I do is sleep and sleep missing out on all that magic.
The peace I used to get listening to your favorite songs has left, I can have my headphones in and still not hear a single word throughout the entire playlist.
Even my favorite won't taste as sweet like it used to.
My head won't just take it easy on me, anymore.
The world ain't that place it used to be.
I don't know how to expect tommorow for I have nothing to look forward to.
Even the bed feels cold without you.
The house is just as lonely as my heart....
And to be perfectly honest, am not that person I used to.
Am still trying hard to watch you pass by and act like we don't even know each other, although my heart still sobs whenever you walk hurriedly past me.
Am still trying to recover, trying to force myself to wake up from this nightmare.
Still trying to accept that I wasn't the one for you..
I hate to watch you hold hands with someone else.
I hate trying to move on.
I hate having to see you that different.
I hate watching you from this side of the glass...
But I hope, you are much happier on the other side.
© 2019 Amani Utembu