This Was a Dream.
It wasn't love at first sight, it was more of "damn ,if dreams were horses I'd make you mine". Soon afterwards you were my obsession, although I had to just watch you blow my mind from a distance, a long distance away.. And then I'd see you in my dreams with me saying the lot I could never say to you in person.
.. I won't lie, there's this pinch I felt whenever you walked passed me with someone else, there's this pain I felt before you even knew of my existence.. Watching you smile from a distance away felt like I was watching the sun rise, seeing you every once in a while felt like I got double bills of my favourite shows on telly. Smelling your perfume felt like I had been to heaven for a short while... But I have you now, heaven's here for good.
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... .i tried sleeping last night but I couldn't, the memories were just too heavy to let my brain sleep. I couldn't stop thinking bout the crazy things we've done; painting at the neighbors door to get in some trouble, sneaking out just to go star watching together.... I couldn't stop thinking bout you. I just couldn't.
..i never knew I'd be this possessed, I never though that I'd be like this ever in my life, I didnt know I'd care this much bout a stranger. .... My heart is never at rest if you not around, my head literally hurts when I don't see you. I hate it when you away. .
There's this glance you give me sometimes that's drives me powerless, there's this touch you run on me that makes me numb, there's this thing you do that paralysis my whole body. And having you feels like paradise..
Somewhat how a little kid feels when in its mothers hands, ...more like that feeling that I just feel safe that I can sleep when you rubbing my head.
.. At some point all this was nothing just but a dream back then, am more than happy that it all came true.
.. You complete me .
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