Tell: A Suicide Poem

Let my friends know I'm sorry

Tell my family I apologize for giving them the burden to tell my friends

Make them understand that I was afraid of what was inside of me

Scared of their judgment if I showed anything less than a tired smile

Show my demons that I wasn't bluffing

Contact the mother who abandoned me that I was searching for her but along the way I got lost in my own self hate

You know the thing that ate me alive

Tell her that this is my apology note for not being good enough to be held in her arms

Let my dad know that I won't be there to guard the gate

I know this isn't what they expected to be the last time they saw me

This was how I broke

Snapped in half by stress and a broken heart

Tell my best friend she was always my best friend

Wait

I'll be able to tell her myself

She never got the chance to write her own letter

Tell the person I loved I'm sorry he was the one who had to watch me die

Speak to my veins asking why they were dry

Their contents pooled on the floor

Tell my mom that my protruding hip bones were her idea

Find and tell the man who held my life in his hands that I beat him

I won

You took too long so I did it myself

Tell everyone

I’m gone