Not at the wrong time

We were strolling to buy bread when we saw him that night and he told us about the school girls that came for virgil so we decided to follow him back to the church. The Pastor was surprised to see us so to be sure that we truly wanted to give our lives to Christ, he sent us home and asked us to come back the next day. I got angry because I see no reason why he should ask us to leave when we were ready to witness the virgil. Anyway we left but then I saw her among the girls.

We came back the next morning and the Pastor preached about working in the church and devoting ones life to the pursuit of salvation, he went on to talk about 2 Choritians 5:12 and truly I gave my life to Christ. My mission wasn't to become a born again Christian but I wanted to be close to her, I wanted to get to know her and I knew that surrendering my life would mean arresting her so genuinely, we became part of the formidable prayer warriors.

We attended different schools but because of our desire to serve him, we met every weekend in the church. Infact, the church became my second home and although I truly gave my life to the ordinance of the church, I still felt something for her but I was afraid not to annoy God so I nursed my feelings inside me. Truly, we were young and naive so I was even skeptical about her understanding if I say 'I love you' so I decided to once again keep that to me until we make it into the university.

I was like a spokesperson and leader and we were always together in the church even when it's time for chain prayer, I made sure that i was the one holding one of her hands. Then one night during our regular night virgils, something happened and what followed the event of that night was something I can't explain. I don't even know how to describe it but it's so unfortunate that truly, many shall come in his name and as youngstars, we didn't understand the Wolf in sheep clothing. However, we understood one other thing...

...our faith was strong but imagine what happens if your Pastor, a true man of God who you look upto, in whose presence you seemed closer to the heave gate betray that genuine trust you have in him, imagine the disappointment you will experience, imagine if you truly understand the ten commandment then took number seven to heart and someone you gave your allegiance to break one of the ten, imagine when you are working to truly believe and from no where you begin to question the value of bread and why he said man can't survive by bread alone. Imagine why it was a massive backsliding.

I saw her beauty the first night and I held what she told me about her future ambition to heart so the moment they stopped coming to the church compounded with the confusion of what to believe and what not to believe made my track slippery and all I wanted was her. You see, our Pastor used to say that it's better to make Heaven with less than ten fingers than going to hell with the whole fingers so if this finger, this tallest among the five would cause you to sin, simply cut it off. What will it profit a man to learn the skill of speaking in tongues then loose the love of his life? I questioned.

I battled for weeks before it dawned on me that I was the only one left around so looking at where and how it all began, I decided to follow my dream. She was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen, she was innocent, calm, obedient, polite, humble, inteligent and her command of English language was like that of those stars in American movie. I took my time to look at her but because i was with the holy spirit then, all I saw was her beautiful eyes but I couldn't tell her how beautiful her eyes were because I was afraid that God won't be pleased if I show my admiration.

Now in the world far from hurting the holy spirit and with the desire to express my feelings to her because I saw in her a queen, a true African Queen even before Tuface had his own inspiration, mine was totally hatched but the problem I had was that I didn't know much about her so tracking her became a very big problem until one fateful day, a day that brought me very close to my dream. I took ill and was admitted in the hospital then like an answer to my prayer, the patient admitted the next day was her younger sister. Who says that we weren't meant to be? Seeing her at the hospital was the only medication I needed to get better, she however didn't know what I felt for her and here we are in the world and all I needed to do was to tell her that I love her and that she has beautiful eyes...

...My life desire was to finish secondary school, major in a field, get married to my sweetheart and build a family with her and I was determined to make this dream come true but the truth is that sometimes we believe in something, chase after that thing but end up hitting a rocky end and I am a good example of people who took a different part in life because I never became none of the things I wanted to be and I never got the one thing I needed most in life. After my discharge from the hospital, I tried to keep track of her but somewhere the dot failed to connect, I slacked as far as I know, I didn't play well so we took different paths and I lost touch with her.

You see, there are moments that remains dear to us and there are people that come into our lives then go but remains in the deepest part of our hearts and we remember these people all the time. She was one person I held dear to my heart and as a young boy, believe me I grew up with the love I had for her because as I matured into a man, there was this lady in my heart and she matured into a woman right inside my heart. I traveled oversea to pursue a greener pasture after school and that exposed me to the world beyond my imagination.

There was no day I didn't think about her. Believe me, that period of my life when I became a born again is a period I cannot forget and everyone that associated with me during that period remains permanent in my life so there is no way in this world I would ever forget the one woman in whose eyes I saw the power of love. Life has its way of changing our plans but as fate may have it, I got a decent life oversea and began building a family with an Angel but despite who I became, I still think about would I say my first love? Truly she was my first crush. Anyone who has ever fallen in love then somehow lost touch with his pair would understand what happened to me because there was no where I went that I didn't talk about her.

One day, while coming back from work, a police officer pulled me over for a minor traffic offense, he was kind and simply corrected me but there was something about the officer and I remarked it immediately. 'Officer you smile like a lady I loved in my life' I told him. And he was eager to know why the lady was loved and not love as in the present. No not my ex I told him when he asked if she was my ex. I told him about my love story in my small town far away in Africa and he asked me if I think that I would still see my African Queen again and my response was in the affirmative because chances are that we might still cross part in life. But who knows when. Well, the officer was right when he said that fate brings people back together...

...Twenty six years was just like yesterday, I woke up that morning with her name on my lips because I had a dream about her so I picked my my cell phone and logged into my Facebook account, you see there have been so many stories of people reconnecting on Facebook and this is one of those stories but why did it took me this long? Why didn't I search for her all these years? Well the truth is that I did once but didn't find her or maybe I didn't paid attention or never cared to search through the multiple accounts that popped up but this morning, Oh my God, there she is I shouted; there she is! there she is! I pulsed for a while then took a closer glance of her and immediately soaked the screen of my cell phone with tears. She hadn't change a bit, she still have those beautiful eyes, I said to myself.

Like every excited person that found someone he truly adore, I sent her a friend request and quickly typed a short mail to accompany the request. And what followed afterwards was days of anxiety because she didn't respond, I went through her profile and realised that she was on Facebook not quite long then got worried why she hadn't reply me. Alot of things started processing in my heart and my heart skipped beating whenever I logged into my account then that night came. We all always pray for our time and that night was my time, our time because my waiting for her reply came to an end. I can't explain how I felt when my phone biped and it was a Facebook message from my African Queen.

We were both excited to find each other but in different ways and I will explain. She was excited that we reconnected because she grew up with memories of the church activities and everyone she met in the church then remained in her heart and I was excited because finally I could tell her how beautiful her eyes are and how much I love her. I now understand why some people abandon what they have for what they wanted, I never knew that my love for her was this strong until our reconnection. She didn't believe what I told her about us, she was speechless but managed to ask me why I didn't come forward then but how would I come forward when I was afraid that I will annoy God. Nobody with his right senses will try such a thing, not a naive 16years old would try it besides that part of the ten commandment not to ever put him on test scares me.

A lot has happened all these years, I mean twenty six years is not twenty six hours. However it is not at the wrong time and my happiness is that I actually wrote her a letter which I never delivered but I had that letter in my heart so I reconstructed the letter and sent to her at least It was a relief for me.

Ditomatic.

Dearest,
I hope that you are well? If so, dexology. I am writing this letter to you to express my undiluted love for you and to let you know that life without you is meaningless. Baby, you have beautiful eyes, your lips is like chocolate and your legs are like the work of a craft man, you are beautiful and I love you. I see the power of love in your eyes and if I am offered all the crude in this world to stop loving you, I will not accept it because you mean the world to me and I want to share the rest of my life with you.

I wanted to tell you this the other day but I didn’t know if you will understand so I decided to write you this letter, I am knocking at your door of love, please open the door and let me in because you and I are meant for each other, I want to be the tea and you the sugar. You are a very sweet person and you are endowed with all the virtues and qualities I need in a woman so give me the chance to show you the magnitude of the love which I have for you. You will never regret if you do so I am waiting for your reply as I seal this letter with a million kisses.

Yours Lover.