The Darker Days

If you can't tell from this poetry

That I do not like my family

I hope that you aren't a poet

Because these rhymes really show it

My parents, they are divorced

And good grades my dad forced

I was always everyone's angel

But my life was really hell

I kept all this hurt locked up inside

And from my family I would hide

Cause I was afraid if they knew

I would lose all the good things too

One day I finally let it all out

And I began to scream and shout

Mow my friends say I'm hard on myself

But I'd feel weird not on a shelf

I guess in ways this hardship began

To make me into the lady I am

I'm nice to all and have many friends

And that is how my life story ends

I'm afraid of what might happen

If I go and tell my dad

Will he yell at me again

I know that he'll be very mad

I'm tired of all the hurt he caused

I remember and it makes me sad

Sometimes I don't think I can be happy

I'm used to everything being so bad

I know that sounds strange

But I am used to that kind of dad

I want to ask what you think

But I'm afraid of what you'll say

And I don't know how long

I can keep it all inside

Sometimes it gets better when I drink

Then my problems go away

I'm not at all strong

I don't know if I can still hide

My friends say I need a shrink

To help me get through the day

All I want is to belong

At times I wish that I had died

I have more problems than you think

And for them I have to pay

The way I act is wrong

I should have spoke before I cried

I can't take this anymore

That is why I left

I hate when he gets like this

That is when I cry

None of this is necessary

I wish he would die

Why can't he just understand and stay out of my life

I don't want him to tell me what to do

Or who I can talk to

He can't keep me from anyone or anything

When will he realize

Noone cares to stop until Andrea cries

They don't care how I really feel

Or how what they say hurts so much

It's not fair to say those things

Will you ever care

My life is my business - stay out

It wasn't until recently that I realized

Just how thin the line was between love and hate

And I walk this line like a tightrope

Never knowing which way I might fall

Or if there will be a net to catch me

The balance I once had is gone

And at any time I could drop to my doom

As I think of myself falling rapidly down

I wonder why I ever tried to walk the line

What good is coming of it all

Who is waiting on the other side

Cold wind blows the rain in your face

The world is damp, dark, and scary

Sometimes I think I might be afraid of the dark

I hate to be alone and cold without a friend

This lonely place is like my own living hell

I wonder why I stay around like this

Driving myself crazy with each ad every second

I want to get far from this place and time

To lose my memory and start a happy life

Find my one true love and happiness

Never look back on the bad times

Forget the people and memories that hurt me

To feel a happiness so great would be heaven

But I know that it could never happen