The Diary of a Broken Hearted Woman

A feeling that binds two people from different world, phenomena and attributes. A strong connection that makes people happy and contented with what they feels. A feeling that most desires. A feeling that either give happiness or sadness to anyone.

Yes, you are right! Definitely right from the word L-O-V-E. When do people fall in love and when do people fall out of love? It's an occuring question that only people who suffered and gone through it could actually define.

Well, first let me give you an insight on what an inlove feels. You may not be new to what you will read but you can actually add a suggestion whether you agree or not. Nevertheless, people live by fulfilling their physiological needs, it's a basic but some people can't live without their fulfilling love and belongingness. They actually feel sad without a love one from their side but on the contrary, some are happy being single.

Well, when you are inlove, you actually feels like you're floating above the clouds. You're happy and smile has been plastered on your lips. You feels like a marshmallow or a jelly that anytime will melt because of the extreme feeling you have. Hours passing by everytime you're together seems like a glimpse of the eye, fast and unnoticed. You feels lonely without him or her by your side and every single thought counts, whether it's a big nor small. Some people say, it's like there are butterflies on their stomach. Corny as you think but a person inlove doesn't have that word on their dictionary.

People fall in love in sometimes unexpected moment, but that very moment matters most. But what will happen if one of them fall out of love. What will happen if one became unfaithful until discovered. Ouch! It's really a mindblowing thought. He or she fall out of love and he or she that find another love while you're still together? That's a reality that no one can actually control. You might did your best but what if he or she doesn't deserve you at your best?

She was inlove, very inlove and happy. No one can break the wall, it's made up of steel, that's what she thinks. But one day, she burst out. She's crying loud and everyone was confused. It's the first time, she never cries for she's a strong woman, that's what people thinks. But what happened really shattered her. Her first love deceive her unknowingly. She got confused with the sudden change of her love, so she decided to investigate secretly what's going on. Until what she discovered, trembled her world, breaking her into pieces and living a very deep scar.

Her first love is cheating. She never expected it but isn't the love and sacrifices wasn't enough? Is it flesh that were talking about, a question that kept recurring in her mind. She believes in sex after marriage, purity must preserve prior to marriage but it seems like her first love isn't believing in it. It's what he wants that definitely she cannot give. So, here's what happened, she confronted the man but the man keep on insisting that he loves her and doesn't want to lose her. No, she doesn't believe. Loving someone means respect, trust, honesty and understanding. Without these, relationship will like an avocado without a seed. A deep hole that might become a hive of parasites. Parasites that will rapidly destroy it until it will decay.

So here's the lesson to be learn when loving someone. Leave a 75% for yourself so that getting hurt has lesser chance. It's not necessary that loving a 100% will make him or her stay. It's like a survival game. Everyday is a different story and memories to make. The only thing that is constant is change. Just bear in mind of the current trend and atmosphere. It's up to you how will you handle your relationship and make it a lasting love. Falling out of love and Falling in love is a choice;it's not the destiny that molds your path. You're the builder of your own destiny and only you can make yourself happy or not.