The Lingo of Loneliness Revisited.

The lingo of loneliness revisited.

I have seen that 

look before

reflected in the 

shattered pieces

of yesterday's smiles

your eyes were 

filled with a darkness

anger I could 

no longer deny

I deny my fear, 

your fears I deny

you made my bed

years ago with love

incredible love

but now alone I lie

an eternal love??

or so we thought

lasting through 

seasons of

growth and drought

now all fallen 

down around me

your scent still lingering

deeply rooted in 

the dungeons of my mind

now my left hand 

and not the hand that's left

is my best friend 

in times of need

chaining me endlessly

connecting me miserably

to a past that is now

someone else's present

broken hearts, chart 

dreams and sadness

I would give up 

all of my tomorrows

just to touch you again

deep in your soul

cause you were the only one

who felt me completely

but now I am helpless 

to change this unassisted

I listen but remain

unconnected

I talk to myself now

and get hollow answers

still I think...hope..that maybe

your spirit is still listening

but lost as I am

hope only lessens, lessons

as I breathe without you

your memories 

fill my emptiness

the present is there

just invisible

now that my joy 

has been taken away

the void seems incurable

regrets hold no healing

I speak the lingo

of loneliness revisted