The Mommy Diary
December 6th, 2014 (The Mental Madness)
Where do I start? Hell I haven't kept one since I was like ten year old and the only real writing I did at that time was my list of haters and my epic plan to take over the world ( yes Pinky and the Brain was my heroes all those years ago). Oh how I long to be so carefree once again, but of course adulthood had to appear sometime. Right? I often wonder if we can actually go on strike from it and just go make mud pies with the neighborhood kids. Hmmm what a thought. Any who...
Today is day 6 of my husband being gone on his business trip ( Lucky ass) Granted he doesn't feel the same way considering he is in the cold winter weather of Missouri and Tennessee and freezing his balls off. Can't help but giggle a little at the thought. Hey don't judge me. He's the one that volunteered to go play convoy with my goofy cousin and their other coworker. Yea yea I know I'm just upset because I'm lonely. Well do you blame me? Of ten years of marriage we have only been apart a total of 3 times. I'M FREAKING OUT MAN!!!
However at the Looney bin that we call home. The Christmas holiday is upon us and while I am trying to get into the Christmas spirit, my children have found their own ways to keep themselves entertained. My son is in the stage of pre-teen dramatics. OMG!! Can't help but love him but there are days I would love to duct tape him to a wall in his bedroom and sit there for an hour repeating OMG!! ( hahaha I should have been Super Nanny. I totally could have pulled it off.) Diary you're judging again. You are supposed to be on my side. Back to my day. My daughter (who my husband says is just like me. I personally think he is wrong.) She talks twenty-four hours a day, plays with barbies ( I distinctly remember ripping barbies head off and burying it in the orange grove. Now GI Joe on the other hand, he was the coolest.) I will admit she loves to draw like me and she doesn't mind playing outside in the dirt. I just don't know how to be girlie especially when she ask me to play tea party or something to that effect. I wasn't raised girlie. I was raised by a bunch of roughneck mechanics and cattlemen.
My Job as a Writer
I have actually been slacking off in my writing since getting moved into our new home about a month ago. I just can't seem to get my brain or emotions where they need to be. I think I have only managed a couple of chapters and to me they were not even close to my best. Oh thanks now you want to agree with me. When I started writing I found so many things that inspired me but now it seems like nothing but a BIG, FAT ROAD BLOCK standing in front of my eyes. There is so many projects that sit in front of me and yet I have no idea where to start. My husband tells me to pick one that I want to see done the most and put the rest away. Problem with that idea is I want to see them all done NOW. Maybe that's why I'm sitting here talking to you; to sort out all the madness and craziness. That was ritorical Diary.
I will admit that homeschooling does have it's rewards, however there are days when I simply ask myself "WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING?" I have no doubts about my ability of teaching my children everything they will need to survive in this world. It's just the fact of will I survive teaching them. For the last five years I have homeschooled my children granted the first three were with only ONE kid and now that my daughter is school age things have changed a LOT. My son and daughter are total opposites. She loves math and he loves reading. I have tried everything to find a happy medium and yet have failed miserably. I even went to the extent of putting them into Virtual school even that was unsuccessful. So now I am trying a different approach. After much research and trial and error I am trying the "FUN" way to teaching. I have had to be strict on them during the last year of virtual school and they were absolutely miserable. Therefore I am going to test a theory in hopes that what I have read holds some value.
They will continue to have a schedule yet not as strict. There will be more hands on involvement than what the other schools had to offer. For example; Science will have an experiment everyday to help keep their focus on the actual lesson. Art and Music will also become a daily part of their lives. Reading, math, writing and history will be required by the state for testing purposes. P.E. is a MUST to run their energy out so they don't drive me completely insane. Then the final piece of the puzzle what would education be if you didn't learn something you may actually may need to know in the real world; SEWING, COOKING, and FIRST AID.
Diary, I'm not sure how this relationship is going to work if you continue to be sarcastic. Look at me. I look like a total wack job talking to a computer screen. Sometimes I think I would get more support out of a physco in a meat suit. Oh so now you want to apologize. Well I'm not buying it. Good night Diary. Kiss Kiss...