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The Impossible Dream

Updated on October 21, 2015

There are times, I want to give up.

To quit and to wail.

And I'm done.

I smiled at you not because I'm fake.

I‘m super ambitious really.

But I like my Philippines than here in Wales.

It’s boring. Snow is disgusting.

Now and then, climate is changing.

I shivered with colds. I wore a hot flush.

Scarf on my neck. Blue winter hat on top of my head.

I want to go home. I don’t like it here.

But I have no choice really.

I only have one Scottish friend.

Kenny. Tall and thin.

White. And always wearing jeans.

I wish there’s a Catholic church here.

And have a chat with Him.

Though I'm here, I couldn't concentrate.

Me. The only Asian in class.

Big and small.Always on white, but dark.

And I’m always lost.

Easy I thought. It is tiring!

Though you see me smiling.

I 'm hiding my true feelings.

I just want to remain positive.

I know it’s hard. Alone.

No family. No relatives.

No friends.

Me myself and I.

Learning things in hard ways.

An hour and a half of travelling. College to home.

I forgot to eat breakfast. No lunch. Rice at night.

Reading books on the bus.

Do assignments every night.

Hit the sack late all nights.

I woke up early in a blue morning.

Spreading both hands and a big yawn.

And I ate crakes with milk.

At first I thought everything was a dream.

I realised I wasn’t. I am living on my dreams.

Copyright @2011. Lanzskie. All rights reserved.


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    • Lanzskie profile imageAUTHOR

      Roland Adala 

      5 years ago from Wales, United Kingdom

      Hello CriSsp,

      First of all, thanks a lot for reading my poems! I appreciate it really. Yeah, I've been living here virtually 2 years now and living my dreams. Thanks for sharing!

      I will read yours as well!


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      5 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      I'd say enjoy it to the fullest in the UK and live your dream(s).

      Good one, nicely penned and I'm sharing it.

      You stay warm now.

    • Lanzskie profile imageAUTHOR

      Roland Adala 

      6 years ago from Wales, United Kingdom

      Thank you mate! Please read my other poems here. Cheers! :)

    • Lanzskie profile imageAUTHOR

      Roland Adala 

      6 years ago from Wales, United Kingdom

      Thank you Healthy Fat Guy :) Happy New Year to you too!

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      Healthy Fat Guy 

      6 years ago from Cincinnati, OH

      Very beautiful writing.

      Cheers to you an happy New Year!


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