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The Victim of my Own Emptiness

Updated on May 6, 2017
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Manatita is an esteemed author living in London, UK. He writes spiritual books, flash fiction and esoteric poetry, his favourite genre.


A Sonnet

Now drowning in an ocean of dissent,

I ply amidst intractable trials.

Unyielding is this office wall’s lament;

My wave of discontent and in denial.

She dangles me, like puppets on a string;

Impedes my faint attempt to find new aims.

I break new grounds; feels new hope beaconing;

Yet rush, like moths, into a den of flames.

Alas! Architect of my own design,

Entwined to my own dark or shadowed mind.

O Love, enfold me in Thy golden Light,

To penetrate the cavern of my Soul.

A victim of my own unfolding plight;

Need the fire of Grace to make me whole.

_Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. ©Copyrighted, 5th may, 2017.

~ Awakening The Inner Light ~

Fire of Love


Quote from a Seer

If you make a mistake,

In spite of your best intentions.

Remember this mantra:

The past is dust." -Sri Chinmoy.

Quote from a Seer


Quote from a Seer

"The solution of the mind

Is an organised way

of not coming to any conclusion" -Sri Chinmoy.

Sri Chinmoy speaks

At the office

Do you meet with a wall at work?

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    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Indeed Rasma. Indeed!

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      17 months ago from Riga, Latvia

      Wonderfully expressive poetry.

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Thank you, Demas.Welcome here. Tell me about today's America and the world beyond.

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      Demas W Jasper 

      17 months ago from Today's America and The World Beyond

      Speaking out and sharing is a wonderful human resource. Well done.

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      17 months ago from london

      It is a slow process, Elijah.

      Be kind to yourself; be kind to others; do not find faults and treat every one as God Itself. When the community suffers, you suffer and when the individual progresses in good deeds, this feeds the community also.

      Have an unflinching Faith in God, but do not 'push' or 'pull.' We cannot move faster than Grace. Prayer both verbal and internal (silent) is necessary, as well as Meditation. Both selfless service which comes from the Heart and Gratitude are paramount.

      They expand the Heart, the psychic Heart and will prepare you for the descent of a higher Light.

      In my last Hub, in the video Kabir speaks of intensity. My Guruji did not use that word. Our favourite word is Aspiration. Aspiration is the beginning and the end of the journey. Put simply, nothing can be done without the Hearts hunger... the longing, yearning, earnestness ... that burning intensity for Light, more Light, abundant Light.

      You're asking and I'm happy to serve. I have not missed a day's prayer and meditation in 35 years. On retreat, I sometimes go up to 7 hrs of Silence with short breaks. But again, comparison is not good and each devotee is different. Find your dharma (here it simply implies calling) and do what the inner Pilot is asking you to do.

      Be as humble as a blade of grass and as courageous as the lion. Above all, serve, serve, serve.... humanity are your brothers and sisters. Do not be too harsh, even if you're right, humans cannot always take it. Never point fingers, but take it upon yourself as I sometimes do. A lot here, simply because you asked.

      My book, My Guru Sri Chinmoy: Life and Teachings, is a manual for spiritual living, especial Chapters 10 - 13. It's on Amazon, but let me know if you're poor. Much Love.

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      Elijah A Alexander Jr 

      17 months ago from Washington DC

      Well done!

      You continue to tell us how it our own desire for the tangible that binds us in a state of despair, our destiny has imposed upon us to make us man - "minds able to comprehend all things" - once again rather than, as it will be once we have morphed back into man for living eternally learning what existence has to teach us about itself. Do you have any answers as how to free ourselves from such grief?

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Shake the sheets and use incense, perhaps? Just fishing in the dark here. Perhaps it's gone. Thank you so much!!

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      Tamara Moore 

      17 months ago

      This is a magnificent poem, Manatita! It makes me wish to fall in-love. This is a much more splendid feeling than that of the fear that I had just a bit ago when a spider was crawling on me! I screamed, and then I did not see where it went to. It was in my bedroom! So now, I am sleeping out on the couch.



    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Ah, Dee,

      So kind of you! You're really getting deeper into my poetry. Glory be!

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      Dora Weithers 

      17 months ago from The Caribbean

      Another empowering image of light penetrating the cavern of the soul. Beautiful!

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Lol. Then you are really keen; an ardent fan, Audrey. Great! I love this. Thank you so much and have a blessed Sunday. -Manatita

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      Audrey Hunt 

      17 months ago from Idyllwild Ca.

      ...beautiful, enchanting, another life leaning lesson touching the \soul in depthness. I've READ This 3 times, bless you for CREATING SUCH BEAUTY.

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Thank you, Venkatachari Ji,

      You're sincere, so God will meet you half-way. Hari Om!!

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      Venkatachari M 

      17 months ago from Hyderabad, India

      Nice thoughts. This feeling is often felt even by me. We certainly need grace of God, though you inspire me much more.

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Thank you, Linda. Appreciated.

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      Linda Rogers 

      17 months ago from Minnesota

      Beautiful sonnet my friend. Your poetry is silky smooth as always.

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Thanks Ruby.

      Not empty, no. I have prayed and meditated for 35 years. I'm reflecting the moods and needs of different Souls. I had a supreme teacher. Thank you so much!

      Hi Ann,

      Thank you. Yes, you understand. Yet the poem asks us to rise above it. Thank you so much!!

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      Ann Carr 

      17 months ago from SW England

      I did once work in an office and was lucky enough to enjoy it immensely. However, I have had bad office jobs too - nothing like an empty environment, empty of inspiration and soul that is!

      Your words and your quotes lift us to better things!


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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      17 months ago from Southern Illinois

      Beautiful. I can't imagine you ever feeling empty. I love your poetry!

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Thank you, Debangee. Appreciated.

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      17 months ago from India

      Very beautiful poem expressing strong emotions.

      Have a good day!

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london


      I've now also altered the poem somewhat. Sometimes I do this for Open Mic, which is basically reading or reciting in public places, usually Cafes. Hari Om!!

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      I know, my Sweet.

      There are different types of Sonnets, as you will appreciate. I am aware of forms and structures, but I'm essentially a mystic writer and as such uses a lot of creativity and newness in my work.

      Although Shakespeare was a master of Sonnets, he is attributed to creating over a thousand new words and Dickinson was very similar with her capital letters and dashes.

      I'm saying that they were far from conventional and very creative. Esoteric writers pull from the ether, from Consciousness and carry a different message. You could easily have said that they tended to write on Love, and again, the Petrarchan style (Italian) is very different.

      Some sonnets have 4,4, 6, summing up in the last six. Some have 4. 6, 4 with ten syllables, like mine. This is why I write: To serve, to inspire, to awaken; to motivate, to reach the Heart ... ninety nine percent of my over 400 poems do this.

      They express the varying moods of the Soul: Longing (my favourite), despair, ecstasy, isolation, passing ...

      So good to see you. I have a friend on Niume who is a scholar and a supremely talented poet. She is a Disciple of a Guru, like me, but she uses the mind a great deal. The poetry of the Seer is the language of the Heart. Apart from a few of my poems, most are related to Love Divine.

      I'm happy with you, of course. Just sharing. I'll visit you soon. Loving thoughts.

      P.S. I do have Sonnets such as you describe.

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      17 months ago from UK

      Your sentiments are nicely expressed. (I don't think they are written in sonnet form though - you have the requisite 14 lines but not the rhyme scheme usually associated with a sonnet or three quatrains and a couplet).

    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Lori, I thank you so much!! Have a great weekend.

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      Lori Colbo 

      17 months ago from Pacific Northwest


    • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


      17 months ago from london

      Thank you.

      I generally reflect the mood of the Soul, a habit taken from my Guruji. But I like to take it upon myself. I rarely say 'you' or 'they.'

      Purely because I wish to serve, not laud it over others. Still, I'm an eternal beginner with Zen mind, beginners mind.

      So I seemed to have inspired a flame here? Nice! Thank you so much!

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      Eric Dierker 

      17 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I needed this to apply to my writing. You are a great encourager.


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