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The Voices in My Head Told Me To

Updated on January 14, 2014
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I just want to sleep, but
I didn't know other people
were in here.
I turn the lights on,
I look all around
and I can't see
anyone else in here.

I shrug it off,
go back to bed,
and pray it's not all in my head.

What? I didn't hear what you said.
Who is that?

I can't think up an explanation.
My heart's racin'.

I can't calm them.
I can't ignore them.
I can't see them.
I can't find them.

I'm hearing constant chatter.
It's getting louder and louder.
I'm not sure what they're saying.
They're screaming over each other.

Someone sounds pissed,
another was dismissed.
I'm feeling anxious.
Another voice sounds frustrated,
the other sounds jaded.
I've got a seat with no ticket.
Should I try to listen?

I scream but they don't hear it.
Am I fucking losing it?
I'm not losing it,
it's gone.
I'm calm.
My mind, is what's gone.
The voices are
carrying on.

I just want to grab
a few hours of sleep.
If I fall weak,
what will they do to me?

I scream again.
They don't react.
I start crying.
They keep arguing.
I turn the TV on,
they speak over it.
I leave the house
and they follow me out of it.
I have a drink,
they seem to thrive from it.
I try to think,
and it's too hard for me.
I can't shake the craziness
out of me.

Then, there's a whisper.
There's a message.
It's an instruction.
I'm being tested.
He tells me what'll happen
if I fail. I'm feeling threatened
I'm feeling frail.

The jaded one kicked things up a notch.
Oh yes, I know who the boss is.
I close my eyes, wishing it all will stop.
Then I see a face.
I'm afraid.
I open my eyes
and see the same face.

The next day...

I'm awakened by water tapping my face.
It's raining.

I'm lying next to what looks like a shallow grave.

What happened?

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 3 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

      Ryem, this poem, the images... Very powerful, sad and so well done. I find myself hoping this is simply incredible writing and not personal experience. I hope all is well with you, you're a very talented lady.

      Take care and my best to you.

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      John Hansen 3 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Ryem your story telling is so amazing it makes the reader always wonder if you are writing about yourself and your personal experiences. This is the sign of a good writer. I enjoy your poetry, it is definitely not wishy washy..always packs a punch. Love those amazing images too.

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      Linda Rogers 3 years ago from Minnesota

      This gave me a chill. What incredible writing with images that come right at you. Love that last line.

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      Ryem 3 years ago from Maryland

      Hi Jo! This poem is definitely fiction, it was my way of exaggerating my feelings on a sleepless night. I'm glad you liked it. Thank you for stopping by!

      It's nice to see you again, Jodah! Thank you, you're words are priceless : )

      Linda, you are really kind thanks so much!!

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Well, that certainly grabs attention! It's a thrill to read, but even so, it has an ending I wasn't quite expecting. Well done!

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      Ryem 3 years ago from Maryland

      Thank you, Shanmarie!

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