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The Tumultous, yet Healing Face of Despair. Saturday's Inspiration 19

Updated on May 24, 2019
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Manatita is an esteemed author living in London, UK. He writes spiritual books, flash fiction and esoteric poetry, his favourite genre.

Wisdom from the Master

"World-despair is at once bad and good, undivine and divine. It is bad and undivine because it lives in the darkness-palace of the ignorance-kingdom. It is good and divine because it cries for Light, more Light, abundant Light and infinite Light; Love, more Love, abundant Love and infinite Love; Delight, more Delight, abundant Delight and infinite Delight." -Sri Chinmoy

There is always a light in the darkness
There is always a light in the darkness | Source

Despair can be as lonely and painful as bereavement. Different kinds of intensity, perhaps, but both can be agonising, immensely painful, even as they are ultimately healing.

I have had my fair share and these poems are for once, expressing my own feelings of many, many moons ago. My Heart and soul cried both days and nights for a very long time in such a way that cannot be put into words.

I heard a friend try once, and even though his mates were listening and shaking their heads, I felt that they did not understand. One has to have that kind of experience to comprehend.The great spiritual Seeress, in talking of her longing and ecstasy for God, says that only the wounded, understands the plight of the wounded ... the fire burning in the Heart.

Mira's state was a God-intoxicated one, quite different from our mundane problems. It was ethereal, esoteric, mystical ... yet the human experience, for us at least, also has its own intensity and is incredibly real!

Guruji teaches that the Universe is not Maya (Illusion) in the true sense, as the universe is God's body and nothing comes from an empty void. So our joys and sorrows; our desires and their consequences … our ignorance, weaknesses, limitations and bondage, are ultimately all a part of the cosmic plan.

So while I'm not asking anyone to go and look for pain or suffering, it is nevertheless real, too real, for most of us in this earthly sojourn. We carry on, like the camel, eating the thorns, until one day it dawns on us, that it is making our mouths bleed.

All is not gloom though. My case was resolved but I was growing stronger in and through the experience, as so many of us are. I'm by no means unique in this human experience, which ultimately humbles us, helping each soul to recognise its own vulnerability … weaknesses, the need for Grace and guidance. Without this, we die daily, even if we claim to be alive.

I trust you read my work with the light of prudence and wisdom, that is embedded in the soul.

Rumi's beautiful piece
Rumi's beautiful piece | Source

Paradise Lost

You asked me to leave;

My soul became a wounded moon,

Pulling at the lighthouse of the sun.

From the Palace of Temptation, my demons came,

Crushing Your beautiful and vulnerable angel;

Leaving a trail of turbulence and sorrow.

Yet I still hoped to cling to the beauty that was -

The white Light of my tomorrow’s sunrise -

Not the abysmal abyss, of my current state.

Long and lonely are these months of emptiness.

My tears flow - like rain - from any place but heaven;

The mind dines in turmoil, at the entrance of Hades gate.

The usually scented jasmines, have lost their fragrance,

Unable to sacrifice,

For a Heart wrapped in searing pain.

The nightingale watched in sadness,

As I spurned that fateful dice, and lost the

Mellifluous sweetness, of Love’s eloquent golden voice.

Manatita, the Lantern Carrier. 23rd May, 2019


Weeping Pain; Dancing Gain. A Sonnet

Crying and weeping, long days and long nights,

Intense was the pain; with little respite.

I thought the mundane was full of its frights,

My Soul’s lamenting, its dearth of Delight.

I knew that desires, did come with a price,

By shirking the Light, I showed my disdain.

I entered the lair and spun the dice thrice,

Covered in darkness and shadows profane.

Immense was the pain, of a struggling soul,

Called on the Beloved, to strengthen my Heart.

Love answered my cries; removed the hot coal,

My Spirit stopped burning; desires were caught.

Gone are the cobwebs, but paid a great price,

To now hear the sound, of my Master’s voice.

-Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. 30th January, 2019.

One of Rumi's immortal pieces

"The answer to world-despair is Light. The answer to world-despair is Love. The answer to world-despair is Delight. We need Light to see the Creator within and the creation without. We need Love to feel the Beloved within and the Lover without. We need Delight to sail God’s Boat within and to reach God’s Shore without." -Sri Chinmoy

Despair and its intensity

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Wisdom of the Master

"World-despair exists because the world desperately needs the life-illumining Light. Why is there world-despair? World-despair exists because the world constantly needs the life-energising Love. Why is there world-despair? World-despair exists because the world immediately needs the life-immortalising Delight." - Sri Chinmoy

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  • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


    5 months ago from london

    Yes, it is a very painful one, losing near and dear ones. You have caused me to remember Mary, but of course there's Ruby, Audrey ... actually why name any?

    The Buddha was once asked to save a dead child and he asked the mother to bring him some mustard seeds. She felt it was an easy task but the Buddha told her, that she had to take it from a house where there was no illness or death.

    Everywhere she went, someone was either ill or had left this mortal coil. The story goes that discrimination finally dawned on her and she became a disciple of the Buddha. Thank you so much!

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    Peggy Woods 

    5 months ago from Houston, Texas

    I think that anyone who lives long enough experiences pain, and for some, possibly despair at some point in their life. It can be debilitating for a time, but usually, we prevail and learn to live beyond whatever was the cause. In my case, it has been the death of family and friends.

  • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


    15 months ago from london

    Hi Mary.

    Good to see you and your sweet smile. All my Love and gratitude to you in these difficult times.

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    Mary Norton 

    15 months ago from Ontario, Canada

    Searing pain. I can say this from experience only now but we know that when we open our wound to the Great Healer, He fills it with love.

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    16 months ago from london

    Hi Dee,

    What about this then: "My soul became a wounded moon,

    Pulling at the lighthouse of the sun."

    "The white Light of my tomorrow’s sunrise -"

    "My tears flow - like rain - from any place but heaven."

    "a Heart wrapped in searing pain."

    I found 'melliferous sweetness' straightforward as the other which is a little subtler, true.

    Thank you on this wonderful holiday and much love.

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    Dora Weithers 

    16 months ago from The Caribbean

    I usually look for some unique phrases in your poetry. "Mellifluous sweetness" and "dearth of delight" stand out this time. You know how to report on a volume of emotions in so few words.

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    16 months ago from london

    Thank you, Nithya. Appreciated.

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    Nithya Venkat 

    16 months ago from Dubai

    Overcoming despair is tough, needs absolute faith in the healing power of the divine. Your poems portrays despair in its true form.

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    16 months ago from london

    Glad I made you think and so I got your beautiful story. You will help others too, in our processes of inner healing and with a deeper insightfulnes of this warfaring sojourn. Gratitude, my sweet Dana. Drop me a line.

    Thank you my Brother Sean. More peace to you this Sunday. Higher blessings.

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    Dana Tate 

    16 months ago from LOS ANGELES

    I'm grateful for His Loving grace. I liked what you said in your comments:

    "We know we do wrong in this life. We also did wrong in past lives. Destiny is really the process of the past being worked out. That includes Karma."

    In my writing class many moons ago I wrote a short-story and named it -- Unfinished Business.--

    The basic moral of the story was about humans who died with business unfinished so they were reborn over and over as the universes was giving them a chance to get it right. No judgement, it was just the cycle of life evolving into perfection.

    I copywritten the story but its been dormant because it scared me.

    I think it came into fruition by a little girl (me) sitting on her floor and playing with her dolls and suddenly just looking at the ceiling and saying " I don't want to come here anymore." That kind of perception, from someone so young scared me.

    It opened up a different porthole that caused me to think different than what I've been taught. Okay, I'm stopping here I told myself I wouldn't think too deeply today.


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    Ioannis Arvanitis 

    16 months ago from Greece, Almyros

    Love always answers the cries; the Light always finds a way to illuminate our lives. Though in this relative world, that we choose to live, polarity is the source of energy! Thank you for another piece of your Heart, my Brother.

    When "I" becomes "We" even "Illness" becomes "Wellness"!


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    Elijah A Alexander Jr 

    16 months ago from Washington DC

    Mamatita, I recognize Karma and Grace as the same thing coming from different schools of thoughts. Grace's nor Karma's retribution is recognized in the same lifetime because the atrocities can't be accomplished and repaid in one body [see my "Jesus' Karma" hub]. That is why we are told by all masters to not be judgmental called favoring one thing over its opposite. Otherwise I agree.

  • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


    16 months ago from london

    I know. Even in Greece! That is why Sean asked me in the interview and I gave a long answer. Maybe no 2.

    We know we do wrong in this life. We also did wrong in past lives. Destiny is really the process of the past being worked out. That includes Karma.

    Unless Grace Itself intervenes, Karma will always be precise. Life balances itself like goods on scales.

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    Eric Dierker 

    16 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

    Best article as a whole. Read it again. This is a deep deep issue. So many none spiritual people and even believers question if God is so great and loving why does he let bad stuff happen.

  • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


    16 months ago from london

    Thank you, Audrey.

    Never give up! Never give up!

    You are definitely loved and even by puny me too.

    In appreciation for your kind sentiments and wishing you ever-increasing fortitude. Peace.

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    Audrey Hunt 

    16 months ago from Idyllwild Ca.

    I have had my share of despair and at times I've almost given up. But something deep inside my soul has carried me on. My faith in God gives me the strength I need. I know I am loved in spite of the pain I live with.

    Thank you for this beautiful article and full of wisdom and light.

    May you walk in peace knowing that you are loved.

  • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


    16 months ago from london

    Too true, my dear. Too true. So much pain and suffering experiences. The Buddha was right. Everyone has to deal with something.

    A great Saturday to you, my Sweet.

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    Linda Lum 

    16 months ago from Washington State, USA

    Manatita, this is not more beautiful than your other writings, but perhaps it is something that more of your readers can grasp.

    The feeling of isolation, of being misunderstood by man and shut off from God is the most painful pain.

    This phrase " the need for Grace and guidance, without this, we die daily, even if we claim to be alive" is very telling. Our God understands our pain and is ready to embrace and comfort us. We need not articulate and deliver a flowery prayer. "The Spirit Himself intercedes for us in groans that words cannot express."

  • manatita44 profile imageAUTHOR


    16 months ago from london

    Ah Ruby,

    Belated Commiserations. I know a few more here just like you and for this reason I know it's never easy … never easy at all. God has answered and is answering you and I, I'm sure. Persevere. Peace.

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    16 months ago from london

    Best line or best poem.

    I have 700. I know many who seem to like the sad ones but most like those of hope. I'm happy that it is helping you. Peace Bro. That short video of Rumi is touching! Only 2 mins, I think. Check it out.

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    Ruby Jean Richert 

    16 months ago from Southern Illinois

    I think possibly we all have been down with despair. When I lost my son Jackie I was in a state of shock mixed with disbelief and anger. I called on God to lift my sorrow, in return he calmed my soul. It took some time and many tears. This is a most valuable writing and very beautiful. Thank you my poet friend.

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    Eric Dierker 

    16 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

    This is your best ever. So difficult a love of this.

    'immense was the pain, of a struggling soul"

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    16 months ago from london

    Bill, (Chuckle) Definitely not! Thank you.


    Yes. Your work is good and your Heart mature, but yes, it seemed to me and from other comments elsewhere, that the mind was marginally distracted. You are showing much insight and seem to be improving well. Glory be!

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    Elijah A Alexander Jr 

    16 months ago from Washington DC

    I hadn't thought of it in that way, Manatita, but I totally agree. Thanks.

    When I rush because of having a lots online want to do, especially when I was going to the library for internet use, I don't give myself time to proof read correctly, thus, many unnecessary words although I still don't always proof before posting. The same is true with my articles but there it includes my attempting to say too much because of seeing many associated things so if I post them before letting my mind go away from the subject my proofing isn't as it should be.

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    Bill Holland 

    16 months ago from Olympia, WA

    I have visited despair in the past. It is not a place I would recommend for a permanent vacation. :) Pax vobiscum, my friend!

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    16 months ago from london

    Actually, you have covered Sri Chinmoy's teaching in a nutshell. In the West we speak of Body and Soul. There are many different styles of semantics, of course. But Guruji's speak of:

    The Body

    The Vital

    The Mind

    The Heart

    The Soul

    When all five blend together, we have a new man or a whole man or whatever. Usually the mind says to the body: "Get up!" The body responds: "Another five minutes." The members of the human psyche finds it difficult to unite. So how can we find Peace with Kim or Iran or whoever? Lovely comments!

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    Elijah A Alexander Jr 

    16 months ago from Washington DC

    There are five of us in this body, me, myself, Elijah, NatureBoy and I, and sometimes I post before we all read it, when I give them time to read over it it flows as it should. LOLAL (AL = And Long)

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    16 months ago from london


    A most definite improvement in your writing Bro. So lucid these days!! What happened? (Chuckle) .

    Actually, you explain it very well. Normally my friend Li-Jen does this. Thanks a mighty!

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    16 months ago from london

    Yes … some silence needed. Om Shanti! Salaam! Shalom! Peace! La Paz! Amani! Asante! (The last word is 'Thank you.')

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    Elijah A Alexander Jr 

    16 months ago from Washington DC

    Brother Manatita, it is true, as your title suggests, there can not be healing unless one recognizes something is amiss.

    "Paradise Lost" suggests a misplaced devotion someones incarnation "intended" to cause them to stop seeking outwardly and turn inward for the relief. Their life has made it necessary for turning them to seeking inward for the eternal thing missing out from their own being. It seem to be saying man-en-mass seek outward for finding healing to something missing within ourselves.

    "Weeping Pain; Dancing Gain"('s) ending I'm changing to "Gone are the cobwebs, but paid a great price, (To now hear my Master’s sound) advice" is telling us as the pain diminishes we must stop looking outwards and seek the voice of their true master located within themselves for the complete healing desired.

    Together they are most needed piece of advice for those of us who has lost, by any means, a loved one. Thanks for sharing it.

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    Eric Dierker 

    16 months ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

    OK the first and last quotes of the Master are enough for right now. I will be back. But I so agree that I must meditate on those. How beautifully said. I was thinking I feel kind of "guilty" (probably too strong of word) about my light with other's darkness. Like I said - meditate.


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