The waiting game

The beast within me cannot be tamed, I'm afraid of self destruction and a large amount of pain. It's been a year with some changes, but I'm not sure what has really changed? You still call and text me when clearly you're with another man. I'm in the same position steady wishing & hoping, to hear you say that you are done dating these jokers. How long do you wait for something like that? I'm afraid I won't care anymore the longer that this game last. My arms have been open since the day you walked away, I just jumped through a few bones to try & get you out of my head. More or less I could go through a thousand women, but they would never amount to the one that I envision. The waiting game can be dangerous, especially when our emotions get involved and they start to change us. I don't want to forget but I want for us to move on, we had a lot of good memory's and shared a lot of good songs. Sometimes the radio even gets me upset, because they always play our songs and it makes me reminisce.