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Those Wondrous New Dawns.

Updated on August 26, 2013
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A Brand new dawn

A time of new beginnings

I would say that my first new beginning (even though I didn't realise this at the time) would have been back to when I was 12 years old and I disclosed the abuse at home.

My next new beginnings would have been when I met my ex at the age of 17 years old and he was 34 years old. He was a known abusive alcoholic who had a history of beating up his first wife.

What attracted me was probably the 'father figure' and his reputation of being the 'tough guy' around town!! Oh how no one would ever abuse me again and no one did either, except for him !!!

There was also another attracting factor :-

I was so quiet and shy and my self confidence at a very low ebb. I found it so difficult to talk to boys on a one to one basis. I would desperately will the words to come out but they wouldn't; no matter how hard I tried !!!

When I met my ex whose conversation skills were worse than mine ; he actually made me relax and to feel good about myself !!

A part of me said this wasn't right but another part said "Oh yes it is !!"and this is the part which won.

I will now take a massive leap from 1976 to 2002 when I found the strength and courage to leave him after a 26 year abusive marriage !!!



Oh how I believe

Things happen for a reason

Like changing seasons.

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At this point I went to work for the Youth Offending Team and within six months I was running my own Bail Hostel.

My self confidence raised its head slowly but surely. Then I met Dai and over time we got to know one another but my mental barriers still there like a Yo- Yo!!

Up, Down!! Up Down!!

Then came the day when he asked me out !!!!

"OUT FOR A MEAL!!!"

My only experience of this was being thrown a packet of Cheese and Onion Crisps when I was sat in the corner of a pub !!!

I had made myself a promise that I would never go into a relationship again!!From now on it would be me, my children and grandchildren.

However 'NEVER' is a very long time and while a part of me was negative, slithers of bright positives slipped through and these slithers grew and grew until the time came when my heart told me to take a chance and to let those barriers down.

How I remember the initial paranoia but realised slowly that Dai was also unsure; so this was not just not my own fears.

As time went by I felt my self confidence soaring and today we have been together for 8 years and our love has grown as has also our faith, belief and trust.

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Around three years ago; six months after the tragic passing of my beautiful daughter Erin I joined you all on here.

I had once so scornfully said that it was impossible to make friends over the web but how wrong was I ?? !!!Oh yes so very very wrong!!!!!

Writing can be so therapeutic and mine allowed positive energies to flow through and on here I found peace and solace.

Initially I had only published stories or Rhyming verse but slowly I began to experiment and practice with 'Rictameter, Haiku , Acrostic and Freeverse".

I also grew as a writer and person; the greatest gift of all is that I found 'ME'!!!

I thank you all ;my treasured friends on here!!My gratitude comes from the bottom of my heart .I am not going to name anyone as I don't want to leave anyone out .

When I contemplate my life has certainly not been all doom and gloom!!

How I loved the years of bringing up my children ;teaching them all I knew about the magic of Nature and I love them all dearly!!

Today there are my treasured grandchildren too ;Sue and Ian are expecting their fifth child any day now and this will the bring the number of our grandchildren up to 13 in all.!!!

At the end of the day it is my past which has made me into who I am today!!!

Someone who has come to terms with her yesterdays ; is happy with her todays and excited about her tomorrows!!



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A Brand New Dawn

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Beautiful skies

Richer than royalty

Amazement and wonder

Never ever to fade

Darkness diminished by light

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Nourish our own true beings

Eternal our love

Wallow in blessed wonder

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Darkness pierced by slithers of light

All around love stories so true

Where love raises its head in triumph

Ne'er again will darkness reign.

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Such bright days ahead

Raise your heads in self belief

Fill your being with joy.


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Laughter and magic

Fill today and tomorrow

Sharing is caring.

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Simply look around

A helping hand so caring

Beating hearts so true.

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I now wish you all

Yes the best weekend ever

All the way from Wales.




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How we need someone

Someone we can call our own

For each heart so true.

This sunflower started off life on waste growud but today stands 10 feet tall and today boasts 104 flower heads. Need I say more??!!.

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Find that faith so true

Your auras golden sunshine

Tomorrows so clear.





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Lots of love to you all from my little corner of Wales.

Eddy.

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      I'm first Eddy and what an honor ! You are no doubt the most conscientious person on Hubs , and I am proud to know you ! You are an awesome woman , friend , writer , and commenter ! You have lifted many a writers heart ......Hey I think I luv U !............wishing A smile forever my friend !

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      Shauna L Bowling 3 years ago from Central Florida

      Eddy, you have really spilled your heart here. I don't feel sadness in your words, yet joy in the discovery of your beautiful self. Yes, your past has everything to do with who you are today. You have overcome the ugliness in your life and are here to share the beautiful gift that is Eddy. You touch so many souls. My soul is one you touch every day.

      God bless you, Eddy. Lots of love from across the pond -

      Shauna

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      Janine Huldie 3 years ago from New York, New York

      Beautiful as always Eddy and love reading your work right before I begin my weekend now. Gives me such a peace of mind and makes me really feel good all over! Thanks for sharing and wishing you too a wonderful weekend.

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      Mary Craig 3 years ago from New York

      I know you didn't write this for the kudos because you're not like that, but anyone reading this certainly has to praise and admire you. You certainly took the saying, "if life gives you lemons make lemonade" to a whole new level! Bless you for turning your life around...13 grandchildren, how marvelous.

      Your poetry here, as always, is beautiful and filled with joy.

      Voted all the way across except funny. Shared too so others may know the beautiful lady you are. Hope your weekend is marvelous.

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Eddy, this is another beautiful one. Thanks for sharing your story with us, your poems, that inspirational quote video, and your positivity about life. I'm so glad that after all you went through years ago you were able to find someone who treats you well.

      Have a wonderful weekend!

      ~ Kathryn

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Oh Ed what can I say???Thank you so very much 'your words mean the world and here's to amny more for us both to share on here.

      Lots of love from my little corner of Wales.

      Eddy.

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Shauna how appreciated your words they are always oh so kind and caring. I think on this wonderful community we share and we inspire each other. I wish you my dear friend a wonderful weekend. Lots of love.

      Eddy.

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Janine you words also are so sincere an di can assure you oh so appreciated. Here's to many more hubs for us both to share on here.

      Have a great weekend and love from Wales.

      Eddy.

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      Jamie Lee Hamann 3 years ago from Reno NV

      What a wonderful hub on self discovery! I loved this Eddy, I think this is my new favorite. Your writing in the beginning of this hub was very well written! Thank you Eddy for this hub and your friendship, you inspire me. Jamie

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Thank you so much Mary and as always your wonderful words and support are so treasured.

      Have a wonderful weekend.

      Eddy.

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Thank you from the bottom of my heart and here's to so many more hubs for us both to share on ere.

      Eddy.

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      You are so very welcome Jamie and thank you also for inspiring me ;here's to so many more to share. Have a great weekend.

      Eddy.

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      Dana Tate 3 years ago from LOS ANGELES

      Eddy, This is a very beautiful and thoughtful hub. You have been through so much and have become a very strong woman because of it. First let me offer you condolences for your daughter. Second let me say through your journey of trials I am so glad that you found your strength in yourself. Thank you for sharing.

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      Janet Giessl 3 years ago from Georgia country

      This is a very beautiful and encouraging hub. It's so admirable how you have coped with all the bad that happened in the past. Thank you for sharing.

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      Jackie Lynnley 3 years ago from The Beautiful South

      You have such strength to not only come through all that you have but putting yourself out there for all to see and judge and of course no one but a devil could ever not love you!

      ^

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      Ruby Jean Fuller 3 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Isn't it remarkable when we can look back and see some goodness when in the past it was all darkness? You are and always have been an inspiration to me. We share so many actions in our past childhood, yet today, we see much beauty all around us..Bless you my dear friend...

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      Linda Crampton 3 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      I am so very glad that you have come to terms with your past and are so happy in the present, Eddy!

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Thank you so very much

      DANA

      JANETWRITES

      JACKIERUBY

      ALICIA

      for your great comments and each one so greatly appreciated. Enjoy your days.

      Eddy.

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      drbj and sherry 3 years ago from south Florida

      You are a remarkable woman, Eddy, and I hereby pay you your deserved homage for your determination and strength in overcoming earlier severe obstacles. Your children and grandchildren are fortunate to be your descendants. God bless you all.

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      Patricia Scott 3 years ago from sunny Florida

      You are a gift to HubPages, Eddy. I am so glad I found your pages. There is always something uplifting to carry away as I read the last word. The way you share your journey is so open and that is of benefit to many, for sure.

      Know that many Angels are on the way. ps

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      kidscrafts 3 years ago from Ottawa, Canada

      What a beautiful hub, Eddy! You went through a lot and it shows that we should never lose hope! You are the proof of that! I went through abuse in my youth as well but I was lucky enough to have met my husband who is very kind!

      I am happy for you that you found someone kind and respectful and with whom you can spend time without any fear!

      Have a great week!

      Joelle

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      Wow.. thank you for sharing .. Eddy.. this is beautiful and uplifting ..!

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      Deb Hirt 3 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      Eddy, may your courage continue to soar, and your writing to show your true self. I see and hear your confidence. Keep on going.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Really enjoyed this Eddy. Wonderful pics and great poetry as always. Hugs.

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      DJ Anderson 3 years ago

      Somehow, I seemed to have missed this wonderful Hub. It is such a joy

      to see your smiling face on HP. You really have stepped out of the shadows and into the light. You share your wonders of life; whether they be you grand children, your flower garden, or your walk through your beautiful country of Wales.

      Thank you for sharing so much of yourself.

      You bring much joy to these Hub pages.

      DJ.

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      Anna Haven 3 years ago from Scotland

      An exceptionally beautiful one. Your strength, courage and the beauty you brings to this site resound from it.

      Your hubs are from the heart, filled with love and that warmth spreads on reading them.

      Anna

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      Elizabeth Parker 3 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

      Eddy- First I have to say, good for you for leaving. I love your poetry and it is nice to know where it stems from. Great job!

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      Aga 3 years ago

      Wonderful work. Beautiful words, and fantastic photos...

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Thank you so very much to

      DRBJ

      PS

      JOELLE

      MICHAEL

      DEB

      RASMA

      DJ

      ANNA

      EPBOOKS

      MONIS MAS.

      for each and ever wonderful comment as always so greatly appreciated.

      here's to so many more for us all to share on here. I wish you a wonderful ahead.

      Eddy.

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      Dave 3 years ago from Lancashire north west England

      Eddy,

      Your little corner of Wales deserves you and you deserve all the accolades above. It was a brave piece of writing, which will touch the heart of any reader. Thank fully you finely have the life you deserve, being loved and cared for. As for friends you have and will continue to have many here. I for one always look forward to your work, as so it seems do hundreds of others. Best wishes to you and yours.

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      dreamseeker2 3 years ago

      Thanks for sharing from your corner of the world. Sounds like you are a survivor, for sure! : ) Great hub! Interesting read and full of life and compassion. Voted it up and awesome, Eddy! Have a great day!

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Oh D.A.L tis comment is so very touching and means so very much. Here's to so many more hubs for us both to share on here.

      Lots of love from Wales.

      Eddy.

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Thank you also dreamseeker2 and here's to wishing you a wonderful day..

      Eddy.

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      Vinaya Ghimire 3 years ago from Nepal

      Eddy,

      thanks for sharing the beauty of your heart.

      Have a great weekend.

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Thank you so very much Vinaya and here's wishing you a great weekend too.

      Eddy.

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      Jatinder Joshi 3 years ago from Whitby, Ontario, Canada

      What a masterpiece straight from the heart. In between, my eyes went blurred for a second - thank you for touching my heart.

      I loved the end - about smiles being contagious - yes, I agree. Life teaches us many lessons - its up to us how we react to them - to make our lives and the lives of others around us fulfilling or just waste them away.

      Your hub teaches us a very positive way to live life by your personal example when you say that, "Someone who has come to terms with her yesterdays ; is happy with her todays and excited about her tomorrows!!" No more words, just 'WOW'

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Hi Jatinder and thank you so very much for taking the time to read and leave such a wonderful comment .It is greatly appreciated I can assure you. I now look forward to reading yours also.

      Eddy.

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