Thoughts- Part 1
I know I haven't really been on here much.. Things in my life right now are pretty rocky.
My Pagan Family: In the last couple of weeks I haven't really seen much of them. Most of the family has been sick and been dealing with some drama in the circle. Other than the drama, things with the circle have been awesome. We had a circle meeting not too long ago and we talked about festivals that are coming up, conflicts within the circle, and about our sabbats for the next year. This year for our sabbats we're going outside our own Celtic tradition and doing other cultures. Our first Festival is 12th Night which we're doing on the 10th of December. The tradition we picked was Nors. I happen to be the team leader. My teacher who is the High Priestess and one of the Elders of the circle told me that she wants to buy some land and have all the circle members live there. I told her that my husband and I want to go along with them. I'm excited cause it could happen as soon as next year. I also got to finally pick my dedicated guide for the next year. That person (who got to be anyone in the class) gets to help me study for my upcoming test and help me on any questions I have. I chose Morganna. She is Linda's daughter who is around my age. Her and I are like really close. She is like a younger sister I never had.
My Family Life: Well this is the down part to my thoughts. In the past 2 months, my grandma (who is like a 2nd mother to me) has ended up in the hospital 3 times. The 3rd time was this past Thanksgiving break. She went into the hospital late Thursday night and was there till yesterday late afternoon. She is now in a place called Eskaton. I'm hoping there she can get stronger and learn how to walk again. These past 2 months have been super hard on my mom and I. I've been really stressed out and its basically been taking over my life. This is the worst its ever been. Whatever I do I can't seem to get rid of it. I try to mediate, I try to relax, but there is always something that has to disrupt my life and make me all paranoid. Its very tiring.
My Married Life: My husband Jason has really been there for me these past 2 months. I'm sure he is sick of me talking about my grandma and seeing me cry, but he is so good to me. Our marriage is so strong and I just hope its this strong in like 20 years from now. I am truly blessed to have him in my life.. Him and I are really excited about finally moving from our crappy apartment to a really nice big house with my circle family. He has also been really helping me with studying for my Pagan test which is coming up in March.
My Dance Group (Lunar Shadows) : Its been put on a hold for now b/c the 3rd member has left the group. Things went down in the circle for awhile and she was part of it.I heard recently that she is moving to Nevada. Who knows. Morganna and I have been really talking about it just being her and I. I'm totally okay with that. Her and I have been looking up songs to do dances too. We started a new dance routine to Rihanna's new song "We Found Love". Its looks awesome so far. We aren't done yet. We're also thinking about dancing to the song "Sail" by AWOLNATION. We're not sure though.