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To Lose You

Updated on November 25, 2019
(Photo by Crystal Langley)      Why I Wrote It.  This is a song about my struggle with the part of me that is perfectly content to hide who I am and never take chances.  It's about my insecurities and trying to find the strength to conquer them.
(Photo by Crystal Langley) Why I Wrote It. This is a song about my struggle with the part of me that is perfectly content to hide who I am and never take chances. It's about my insecurities and trying to find the strength to conquer them.

Everyday it's like a battle in my head.
Things I wish I'd done or wish I'd said.
But I never could seem to break through.
I guess I'm stuck with you.
What a weight on my shoulders you have built
With this cold and heavy hardened shell.
Wish that I could be content as you.
What am I gonna do?

I don't want to run away.
But I can't bear to stay.
This shell is not my own and it is not my home!
What do I have to say...
To make you walk away?
What do I have to do to lose you?

To stand out alone, it testifies.
But to stand with you, I'm terrified.
Wish I had the gall to just push through.
Then I might not need you.
I can't spend the rest of my life
Duckin' out and always tryin' to hide.
It'll never get me to where I want it to.
Never get me somewhere new.

I don't want to run away.
But I can't bear to stay.
This shell is not my own and it is not my home!
What do I have to say...
To make you walk away?
What do I have to do to lose you?

All I...
Ever really wanted in my life.
Is just a chance for me to thrive.
And without you in my life I might survive.

I don't want to run away.
But I can't bear to stay.
This shell is not my own and it is not my home!
What do I have to say...
To make you walk away?
What do I have to do to lose you?

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    • Shlamoof profile imageAUTHOR

      Shlamoof 

      11 years ago

      Thanks! I wonder what sick person thought of that picture anyways. It is kind of gross, huh? I hope he got out in time.

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      Crystal 

      11 years ago

      very nice!!! That is a disgusting picture!

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