To Lose You

Everyday it's like a battle in my head.
Things I wish I'd done or wish I'd said.
But I never could seem to break through.
I guess I'm stuck with you.
What a weight on my shoulders you have built
With this cold and heavy hardened shell.
Wish that I could be content as you.
What am I gonna do?

I don't want to run away.
But I can't bear to stay.
This shell is not my own and it is not my home!
What do I have to say...
To make you walk away?
What do I have to do to lose you?

To stand out alone, it testifies.
But to stand with you, I'm terrified.
Wish I had the gall to just push through.
Then I might not need you.
I can't spend the rest of my life
Duckin' out and always tryin' to hide.
It'll never get me to where I want it to.
Never get me somewhere new.

I don't want to run away.
But I can't bear to stay.
This shell is not my own and it is not my home!
What do I have to say...
To make you walk away?
What do I have to do to lose you?

All I...
Ever really wanted in my life.
Is just a chance for me to thrive.
And without you in my life I might survive.

I don't want to run away.
But I can't bear to stay.
This shell is not my own and it is not my home!
What do I have to say...
To make you walk away?
What do I have to do to lose you?