My Rhymes

Tired but fighting my sleepy eyes

Obsessive words I ponder

I wonder what to write

So my mind will lay to rest...

maybe

Transformed by external stimuli and inner indulgence

Awake

Only to want to sleep again

To dream of the wants I do not have

And grace the presence of a more confident self

I wait for each lesson to be learned

Angels disguised as a strangers

Mistakes confused as lessons

Catch fate

Its flying towards you.

Updated on April 2, 2010

Goodnight

Sweet dreams

I wake to a nightmare

In the daylight of my life

I wake

Only to fall back to sleep

This cannot be

It's only a dream

Or is it

Back in my bed

Trapped in my head

Alone in my hell

Waiting for an escape from myself

From my pain

From my shame

Forgive me Lord for I have sinned

Shut my eyes

Let me rest again

And if you chose to wash away all the sorrow

I'll be happy to live

For a better tomorrow

Updated on March 3, 2010

I am who I am

To be who you see

Still looking for who I'll be...

Tomorrow

And the day after

When we meet

I will tell a different story

Discover a different taste

Always changing

Adapting...

To this human race

Photographing my memories

Questioning what is real

And what is make believe

My experiences I will share

And your stories I will read

I will ponder your life and your beliefs

To believe in knowing

And know well what you believe

Never stop searching

For who you can be

Spoken by the words

Of a girl named me

Updated on March 18, 2010

Soaking in the skeleton

Of my remains

Tearing open the shadows

Of my insecurities

Chances I've been given

Chances I've given up on

Selfish corruption of my sanity

Before I realized I was not sane

Just entertaining the pain

The pain I am so familiar with

I bite at it...

Like the nails of my fingertips

Forgive me for the mistakes I have made

The promises I've broken

And the misplaced and forgotten memories of

Who I am

Or

Who am I

Trying to remember where I am going

Or if I'm even going somewhere

To be on time

Not a concern of mine

I will get where I'm suppose to be

When the time is right

Where fate waits to greet endlessly

In time I'll see

Eventually I'll find me

Updated on April 2, 2010

Another night of sleepless wanderings

To tired to make me breastfast

To wired to go to bed

Scared of the life around me

Scared of the road ahead

Plenty of people around me

Not one I'd consider a friend

Here I am.... lost and lonely again

Here I am.... near the end

I move away

Stay awhile

Move again

I can't run away from this life I'm in

I run

Running closer to

The end

It waits for me

I wait for him