Underneath The Mask

The silence is deafening
Like still water of the sea
Life buzzes by all around
Everywhere, but within me

Gossiping mouths a plenty
And fearful of judging eyes
A new day, a new smile
I paint on my disguise

On the outside I fit in
But inside I'm left out
Smiles and belly laughter
Masks pain and self doubt

Too afraid to speak up
Or do I not know how
Secrets held for so long
Too long to share now

So many people and faces
Yet no one is really there
What good are relationships
If no one knows to care

The battle within the mind
Is the hardest battle of all
When the world feels so big
And suddenly I seem so small

Suffocating under the fear
Heartbreak sets the tone
Amongst all these people
I've never felt so alone.