What A Difference A Day Made

Today

I have no inspired words

To write.

I simply need

A confidante.

And here it is.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

In our dance of love,

Is this the overture

Or the finale?

Is our flower in bud

Or past its bloom?

You came into my life

So naturally,

Then vanished,

Leaving my heart in limbo,

Stretched too far out

To ever shrink you out,

Raw edges exposed to all the pain

Of absence and neglect,

Of profound bafflement.

I've seemed to have to

Die a lot

To ever live at all.

I wonder why.

Is it a sign I'm chosen

Or that I am forgotten?

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

I don't know why

I don't know what

Sustains me.

But you are

Ever near somehow -

But where?

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

How many joyous, painful journeys

In and out

Your tight, little,

Loose, big world,

I wonder, -

Will it take

To get me there to stay.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

You are love to me

Of course,

But more.

Oh, more.

You are strength.

You are courage.

You are imagination

Inspiration

Life.

Without you,

Nothing is.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

I shrank

And withered

Every time you disappeared.

I never was

prepared for it.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

I am free inside -

Fear, dissolved.

I'm open wide

To what my Life

Presents.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

If hope is

The Comforter,

Then

Faith is

The Discomforter

Or vice-versa.

I seem to live

In between

The peaks and plunges,

Descending from one high

To gain momentum

For another try.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

I'm not marked "crush-proof".

I am crushable.

And yet I've let you

Turn me on and off

And round and round

And down and down

And I have still believed in you.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

Asking why again

I cry again

And then

I try again

To live whatever

Life may be.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

Blue and blundering

I flounder without you.

Perhaps it is my life.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

I wanted to love you

Like this,

But God knows

It needed full expression,

Totally.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

Hope is my jailor

Faith's the deputy.

The only key

Is when reality

Catches up

And sets me free.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

Knowing ~

You'll return to me

Gives wings to time

And makes the sun shine

Brighter.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

Each seeks

A life-support system.

For some it's not the same.

Begrudge him not

Who needs what puzzles you.

Each has needs unlike all others,

Treasure differences!

______© Nellieanna H. Hay

There is no way

That it could be

That I can see.

But it is rare

And beautiful ~

And worth the faith.

______© Nellieanna H. Hay