What I Ought To Be
Finally decided to take it seriously.
After a not-so eventful life.
It was necessary .
Though my work had to plan.
In my life I had no plan.
I was not necessary.
Reality had set in
Idealism started crumbling.
A docile entity I became
Constantly transformed
As the circumstances allowed.
It was safer that way
Than circumstances would allow.
Transitions were hard to bear.
Unprepared most of the time.
Incoherent
No self improvement.
Finally decided to take it seriously.
When dumbstruck with a question in a party
Young professionals in a foreign country.
“What type of books are you reading?”.
“Pretty much, anything anybody lends me”.
That was the truth, irrevocably.
As subtle as it may seem,
Life was summarized
Outlook defined.
I let circumstances drive
Anticipating a phenomenal force.
Yet layer by layer, encrusted the robe
Anticipating. Waiting.
No, it was not outstanding.
Female, Working, Single
Not looking
Not in a relationship
Live with friends? Live alone?
It is like an equation.
Likes dogs? Love books?
The variables identified
A? Vegetarian?
The relationships determined
Liberal? Conservative?
It works. Cause and effects are established.
Just myself.
Unable to describe myself.