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What I Wanted, and What I Became. A Sonnet, Dedicated to Frank Atanacio For His Love of Poetry and Flash Fiction

Updated on December 21, 2015
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Manatita is an esteemed author living in London, UK. He writes spiritual books, flash fiction and esoteric poetry, his favourite genre.

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bouquet of flowers


I wanted to become a weaver of words,

But the Beloved made me an ant,

Slipping through His delicately woven tapestry of diction.

I wanted to have a way with speech,

But the eloquence of Rumi sealed my honeyed tongue;

Became a sweet-scented flower, to inebriate my Soul.

I wanted to become a Bard of Solace,

But Shakespeare whispered into my bouquet of lipped flowers.

I became a Lantern Carrier;

My Soul was pierced by the rays of the sun,

Burning my words with the Fire of Calligraphy.

I wanted to become a servant of His Majesty.

The Beloved entered the very portal of my Life’s breath,

And said: “Take me … for I am yours.”

-Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. ©Copyrighted 19th December, 2015.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Me too, my Dear. One of my really touching ones. So glad you appreciate it. I like the way that you never forget me; that you work through them systematically, but surely. Gratitude ...much

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      Deb Hirt 2 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      Eloquent, yet accurate with the rights of simplicity. I really like this one.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Thank you, Missy. A very nice man. Good to see you up and about. Extend my hugs to the children and your immediate family. Have a great weekend.

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Frank is one of my favorites here on Hubpages, and this is a great dedication to him. Bravo! It's Beautiful!

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Thank you, thank you. I appreciate your visit and kind words, my Friend. Much Love to love and all you hold dear this Christmas and beyond ... joy and Higher blessings.

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      Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

      Thank you manatita for recognizing my love of the written word.. bless you my virtual friend and Happy Christmas :)

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Thanks Ruby. Much Love.

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      Ruby Jean Richert 2 years ago from Southern Illinois

      A weaver of words, very beautiful! You are a lantern carrier my poet friend. Merry Christmas.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Yes, Bro. A very deep one, this. Hope that all's good. Much Love and have a wonderful season and blessings from our Lord. Peace.

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      Word 2 years ago from Chicago

      I love the depth in this sonnet to Frank. He deserve's the honor. He's an incredible writer and commenter. Frank? Come take your Grand Stand! Kudos...

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      My appreciations, Dee. Much Love.

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      Dora Weithers 2 years ago from The Caribbean

      Thanks, Manatita. You've been very helpful.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      True, your explanation is sound, and perhaps you and I are more inspired and elevated than some of them. It is my understanding, that some of us, will realize God before some of those in Habits. The Buddha teased them; Christ teased them and Sultan Bahu, Kabir and others teased them. All the more reason, perhaps, that we should be careful.

      The Vedic system is very precise and has a hierachy of Souls, if you like: Yogi's, Seers, Rishis ..the Satguru, which is really the one who lives in the infinite. Avatars, partial and full Avatars ...endless.

      One sometimes have to scrutinize them to see their importance. For example, ask the God-realised Soul his religion, and he will immediately give a wise answer. He knows the effect of words and their connotations. Religion is such a beautiful thing! yet we turn away from it, because what we hear is war, politics, blood, bigotry, fundamentalism ...

      If I say that I am a God-lover; a spiritual beginner or seeker of Truth, I may confuse some, but I do not get the same kind of vibe.

      Whew! A lot here! The word Guru or even Yoga and 'Sri' can sometimes be used loosely. But Sri is really Lord as in Lord Rama, Lord Krishna, Lord Christ ... and the Guru is a Dispeller of Darkness ...

      As the meditation deepens, it teaches us all these things. Hari Om!

      Note: There was a recent Swami Chinmayanada. Sri Chinmoy Kumar Ghose is different.

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      Venkatachari M 2 years ago from Hyderabad, India

      A great explanation. Thanks for the enlightenment.

      But, personally, I do not regard all saffron coloured monks or personalities as Swami. So, for me, a Swami is an enlightened soul who is an embodiment of God. Who has arrived on earth with a special purpose of showing light and righteous path to people to emancipate their lives. Jai Sri Ram!

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Thank you, my Dear brother. Sri Chinmoy is not a Swami.

      With your kind permission, let me explain a Swami briefly.

      With a few notable exceptions, Swami's are good and noble Souls pursuing the spiritual life. The Realized Master is radically different and embodies God ceaselessly 24-hrs a day. Sri Chinmoy himself told us that he is not a Swami.

      Asia and India are full of Swami's wearing ochre coloured clothes. They are essentially monks or good people who love God or Nibbana. The God-man lives in Infinity and is an embodiment of the Absolute. Hope this helps. Sai Ram!

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      Venkatachari M 2 years ago from Hyderabad, India

      You mean Swami Chinmoy. He has been a very great enlightened soul. You are lucky to have been with him for so many years.

      Wish you Merry Christmas. God bless you.

      Om namo narayana.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Venkatachari M, achaa. Sukriya.

      I have studied Vedic literature for many years at the feet of a Bengali Realised Soul. So I'm heavily influenced there. Again, when one enters the spiritual life proper, and depending on one's inner cry, many worlds open up before him/her.

      Thank you so much. You're very kind.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Thanks Dee.

      I am heavily influenced by my Spiritual Teacher, and sat at his feet for 33 years. His words just come to me, as I have not only listened to his talks but read nearly all his 1600 books. The title just came to me, but it is also influenced by his poem. I am putting here and hope that you get to it before it is removed as there are quite a few words from him. It is much more powerful than my poem:

      “I wanted to become just a poet,

      But You have made me a Seer-Poet.

      I wanted to become a Yogi,

      But You have made me an Avatar.

      I wanted to become Your lamb,

      But You have made me Your lion-king.

      I desired the dust of Your Feet,

      But You gave me Your Victory-Garland,

      Your Crown and Your Throne.”2

      This song I wrote at eight o’clock last night on the way from Kuala Lumpur to Penang, Malaysia, on Malaysian Airlines Flight 2683. This song is immortal. It is extremely, extremely, extremely important to me. I would like everybody to sing it very, very soulfully.

      This song is about what I wanted and what the Supreme gave to me. I wanted oneness with God, but God not only made me one with Him, He also made me His representative. In your case also, if you pray to the Supreme for a drop of His Compassion, He will come to you with an Ocean of Compassion.

      If you want something divine from God and if you make a sincere effort, then God will give you much more than you ever asked for. But you have to go step by step. You need patience, and you must cheerfully wait for God’s choice Hour."- Sri Chinmoy.

      Thank you so much for asking. Much Love.

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      Venkatachari M 2 years ago from Hyderabad, India

      Beautiful poem as always dedicated to another great writer here.

      The video is incredible. A great message in it beautifully sung by Parveen Abida. I wonder how you know Hindi language to choose so much wonderful videos in all your hubs. It's great skill in you.

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      Dora Weithers 2 years ago from The Caribbean

      Not sure if you explained it and I missed it, but I'd like to question you about that title. I have my own ideas as to why it is appropriate, and I think you do justice to it, but I'd like to hear from you sometime.

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      Surabhi Kaura 2 years ago

      They say, laugh with others, but not at others. All in good faith :)

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Emge, this sentiment is like a blessing for me. I treasure this so much! Truly appreciated! Om Shanti!

      Funny Surabhi.

      My respects to her. I did take in the essentials on my second visit. Hehe. Good to see you. Much Love.

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      Surabhi Kaura 2 years ago

      Ha ha ha - Manatita, even I thought so! But then I noticed her nail-paint and the lipstick that she wore... and then I realized... Ohhh... so it's a woman who is singing. LOL!

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      Madan 2 years ago from Abu Dhabi

      Another lovely poem. You realy express so well that it overwhelms me.God will always be with you.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Thank you, thank you Reynold. Truly appreciated. Much Love this Christmas and the New Year!

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      Reynold Jay 2 years ago from Saginaw, Michigan

      Loved this one once again. Well done Manatita!!!

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Shauna, a truly sweet thing to say; a sentiment to treasure. Thank you, thank you ...


      Yes, Bro. A great writer, he is. Thank you so much for a fine contribution. Higher blessings.

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      John Hansen 2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Another masterful tribute poem, Manatita. Frank is a very worthy recipient.

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      Shauna L Bowling 2 years ago from Central Florida

      Another beauty. You truly are the Lantern Carrier, dedicating yourself to others and bringing out their inner Light.

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Well, hi Hello there, my Sweet. Somehow I thought that you had already been here. All's good. Great to have you grace my page again.

      Such a sweet thing to say! Your words touch me inside. I try, my Dear, I try. Nimmita matram bhava, savvyasachin. I am a mere instrument of the Supreme.

      Hope that all's good for you and have a great Christmas or seasonal time and much love to all your dear ones. Glory be!

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      Shaloo Walia 2 years ago from India

      "I wanted to become a servant of His Majesty."

      You are an incredible servant of your master...a true disciple! You are a masterpiece...Your master's piece!!!

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      My Sweet Surabhi,

      I had to look again. I thought that it was a man. Haha.

      You're mimicking me in your awesome stanza. he he. All good. Love you! Jai Lord indeed!

      Bill, I thank you much, as I know you have a lot to do. Thank you for gracing my page here so often as you do. Gratitude...much

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      As always, a fine dedication to a fine writer. You do choose some good ones to showcase, Manatita. Bravo!

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      Surabhi Kaura 2 years ago

      What an incredible poem, Manatita! Sheer power in your words, and that’s very important. A remarkable one indeed! Bang on! Bang on!

      I thought of it as a tear, but it came out as a pearl.

      I thought of it as a coal, but it came out as a diamond.

      I thought of it as a crimson petal, but it came out as a poetic Heart!

      Very nice musical video. Beautiful lyrics by Bulleh Shah The Great! She is reciting his song in classic Punjabi. That’s not from the Indian side though… perhaps from Pakistan. So her Punjabi was a bit difficult to understand, but the subtitles underneath helped in bringing a ray of Light. Awesome. Jai Lord!


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