What i wish ~ A poem to my deceased Grandma
Joyce & Sheila
I wish that you were still here granny
I wish the pain that I am enduring
wasn't so much.
I try to be normal but only God and I
knows how much the heart is aching
and breaking inside.
I wish we never had bad times, that we never
quarreled or had differences. I wish you could
come back and be at my side...You're not here
anymore, the house is empty without you and
so is my heart. My life has lost it's meaning
I wish I could see your face instead of
I wished that you did not have to suffer
the way you did , dying in agony! I wish
life was different and we had the power
to make you stay, but not even love
could have kept you on that day.
I wish I would not be lonely but it
feels so different without you, something
is missing and it's your vibrant spicy spirit.
I wish I knew you was going to die , we would
have done so many more things together.
I was so accustomed to you getting ill and
coming back home... but the last time I saw you,
I had a feeling that soon you will have to go.
I was not ready and who could be for death?
It comes to pinch life and love away from
someone you dearly love!
Granny you left me all alone!
I wish you could have talked before you died,
maybe you would have been able to tell us.
you were leaving this earth. You did try to
but I did not understand what you meant, about
when they were coming to take you up and you kept staring at the light.
I wished we had stayed at the hospital instead
of leaving you, but only God knows. I wish I wish
that you were here and that life wasn't so
unfair and unkind but what is ?
But.. I am Happy you came and called my name the day you died.
I also wished that you suffered
no more and God saw it fit to send His angels
to call you from this sinful world.
To a place so sweet ,serene and beautiful I know
you would never leave there to come back here.
I wish I was with you, but someday they will come
and call me too and all that I wished for will come through.
I will see you again someday granny