What i wish ~ A poem to my deceased Grandma

I wish that you were still here granny

I wish the pain that I am enduring

wasn't so much.

I try to be normal but only God and I

knows how much the heart is aching

and breaking inside.

I wish we never had bad times, that we never

quarreled or had differences. I wish you could

come back and be at my side...You're not here

anymore, the house is empty without you and

so is my heart. My life has lost it's meaning

I wish I could see your face instead of

your picture!

I wished that you did not have to suffer

the way you did , dying in agony! I wish

life was different and we had the power

to make you stay, but not even love

could have kept you on that day.

I wish I would not be lonely but it

feels so different without you, something

is missing and it's your vibrant spicy spirit.

I wish I knew you was going to die , we would

have done so many more things together.

I was so accustomed to you getting ill and

coming back home... but the last time I saw you,

I had a feeling that soon you will have to go.

I was not ready and who could be for death?

It comes to pinch life and love away from

someone you dearly love!

I wish you could have talked before you died,

maybe you would have been able to tell us.

you were leaving this earth. You did try to

but I did not understand what you meant, about

when they were coming to take you up and you kept staring at the light.

I wished we had stayed at the hospital instead

of leaving you, but only God knows. I wish I wish

that you were here and that life wasn't so

unfair and unkind but what is ?

But.. I am Happy you came and called my name the day you died.

I also wished that you suffered

no more and God saw it fit to send His angels

to call you from this sinful world.

To a place so sweet ,serene and beautiful I know

you would never leave there to come back here.

I wish I was with you, but someday they will come

and call me too and all that I wished for will come through.