What's my destiny.

I often wonder ,what eventually I will see
Comfortable with money,or as poor as can be
No one knows what the future may hold
With the passing of time,the story will be told
I didn't ask to be rich,I don't want a flash car
Just to treat my family,and make my money go far
The history of my family,it's not blessed with wealth
Enough to get by,and generally good health
Everyday is a struggle,with money and bills
One course for dinner,no puddings,no frills
Always getting by,it been my way of life
When it's hard to get by,it can cut like a knife
I don't worry about money,I never have enough
To pay all the bills,I don't give a stuff
They can't possibly take,what I haven't got
If you did have money,they'd whip the lot
I don't worry about debt,I pay it when I can
The debt companies I don't class as their biggest fan
One things for sure,all throughout my life
I'll always have my kids,and my perfect wife
That's all I need,and the future is clear
You don't approach it,with a sense of fear
I look forward now,whether rich or poor
Will I ever have money,can't say for sure
I'll take each day,as sure as it comes
Earning laughable wages,and doing my sums
As long as I provide,for my wife and kids
The futures no problem,wont end up on the skids.

i often wondered and pondered about my future as a boy.i would fret about it quite often at the uncertainty of my life.as I grew up and raised a family,these notions of my life became less important.i still occassionally fret about the future,but I try to do so in a controlled fashion.i don't get butterflies in my stomach now like when I was young.i try to think logically about what's possible to achieve,and what's definitely not possible to achieve.i find this system ,so to speak ,keeps me on the right track.

you can't go through life wondering what if? What would have happened if I took that path?what would have happened if I chose this person? If you have too many doubts,it would inevitably drive you insane.if you keep a level head,then you are less proned to doubt your every decision in life.it has to be taken at the right pace,not the fast race.i was a nervy kid growing up,I was very shy.i very rarely spoke to people,for fear of putting my foot in it,or saying the wrong thing.now,I just think what I'm going to say in my head,if it's sounding ok,then when I say it hopefully people won't be upset or insulted by my speech.it may seem over cautious ,but it has served me well up till now.

uncertainty,not sure

what if I did?,

is there a cure?

can I change,

or undo what I did,

all emotions come back,

like when I was a kid.

will i be liked

will i unsettle the mass?

do the uncertain feelings

will they ever pass?

uncertain of my future

not knowing is hell

will life pan out

only time will tell.

when I see the media images ,the television shows.no wonder our kids feel so much pressure to look good,or wear the best clothes,or drive the best cars.they are constantly bombarded with what they should and shouldn't wear,what they should and shouldnt buy.life is a lot tougher for kids today,I feel very sorry for them.life when I grew up as a boy had its pressures,but not a patch on what kids face today.its a wonder they cope as well as they do.its to be admired in a way.and feared in another way.life will only get more complicated as they grow older,the mass exposure in the media and television pretty much ensures they can never escape what's new for them,and what's best to wear for them.good luck kids,I think you will need it.

kids struggle to communicate in today's world.i blame a lot of this on modern technology,dont get me wrong.some innovations have been mesmerising and amazing,but at what cost.i have five girls with all the modern conveniences going,they text between rooms to each other.they wont walk ten feet to talk to each other.i said one day that if they wished,they could use the landline to call a friend,and speak to them.the way my kid looked at me,I felt as if I had grew another head.they informed me that it's old fashioned now,no one speaks on the phone anymore,we all text each other she said.that explains so much.or they email each other,I don't think I've ever felt so old as I did at that moment.

whats in the future for our kids.will the future ever get to a point when verbal communication is no longer used.will every human instinct and function be controlled by a piece of technology,or some new fangled gadget to replace every aspect of normal life.i worry slightly,as I feel we are not far from this stage already.ive witnessed over the years,my kids communications become smaller in volume and continues to do so.they hardly speak to each other as it is,if we need to communicate as a family,I sometimes feel I need to make appointments with them all to have a conversation.our dinner meetings as a family have very definitely lessened over the years.i think this is true of society as a whole.all family quality time suffers to a certain extent due to modern life.

what else can I do? I think I need to take things one day at a time.if technology seems to be replacing the art of conversation,I will fight it head on.nothing in life is nicer or more comforting than solving a family issue,or a family problem face to face.family members can give you a hug or a reassuring smile when needs be.technology can't.there will always be a need for conversation I hope.the day technology replaces all the good parts of talking,or family get togethers,then I fear we are in trouble.