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When I thought I was safe

Updated on May 10, 2014
"Cynzia II" by Fabian Perez
"Cynzia II" by Fabian Perez | Source

I should have said no, but deep inside my mind their was a voice crying out,

“It’s okay, it’s been a long time now, and you’ve done really well. These guys aren’t going to give you up. They understand the nature of the beast."

I usually stop at looking, knowing full well the power of visual stimulation. Even looking leads to day dreaming of forbidden acts, unclean excitement, law breaking pleasure. A glance too long is a trap I selfishly lay. Sometimes I can ignore that nagging feeling, on occasion there is no way around it. My wife God bless her heart, she knows that once I get a minute taste, I am like a ravenous demon whose lust cannot be satiated. I will not stop until I find the means to pursue and win this new desire in my heart. Like a desert traveler out of water, I have but only one thing on my mind. Together, we have already been down this road through the detritus this behavior leaves behind. I know how wrong it is, nothing good ever comes from even a little play. There are some things in life that once they happen, you cannot ever take it back.

Still…my coworker incessantly goaded me to check her out, after all she was attractive enough for my tastes. Sure she wasn’t as graceful when younger in years. Up close you could tell that there was a story or two or three behind the aged lines, but there was no mistaking the scent of “I can still take you around the block like a fresh set of legs.” My mind raced over the possibilities of what would happen if this got out of hand. Surely there would be other parties becoming involved and we couldn't risk that. This had to be covert. The last person I want involved would be who she belonged to.

In my heart I could already feel the anxiety of curiosity and possible disappointment. It isn’t often a breed like this becomes available. There are those thoughts of built up expectation in which you do not want to ruin what might never have to be. Is she really going to satisfy me, or am I tempting another world of critical pain, a fantasy better left to ruminate. Oh it had been such a long time though…

My senses were tingling, I even felt that teenage nervousness, I just had to play a part, I never claimed to be a professional. There was no need for drawn out familiarizing, I knew what she was capable of, and she knew I only wanted one thing. Upon first touch I knew it was already too late, we were together, moving quickly, no time for pleasant talks. I knew if I stayed within a familiar area I wouldn’t get caught. We turned down a quite street, a nice open strip just long enough, sure to draw no attention and mostly out of sight. It is here where that familiar deep feeling within me came out. It is here on this secluded street that I released bottled up feelings and much missed excitement. The power of taming such an experienced traveler was absolutely intoxicating. The pure build up of speed, the bumps, the sounds, oh my.

I would be remiss if I didn’t say this was over all too fast, cheap thrills like this seldom have staying power. But I know I got away with one more for my memory books. On this street I broke laws and cheated on my other V8…well what else would I have been doing? The worst part was handing the keys back to the owner.

Meet the other girl;

A 1998 police interceptor Camaro with a 320 hp LT1 engine, striped of weight, fresh off the auction block. Only 48K miles on the ticker. Boy could she move in a hurry, I was breaking double the posted limit in seconds…literally. God I love fast cars.

Porsche 928 Singing Glory


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    • Wesman Todd Shaw profile image

      Wesman Todd Shaw 6 years ago from Kaufman, Texas

      Nice piece of writing, Sir-instant gratification, huh? I'm no stranger to that street.

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      Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California

      Hi Todd,

      Thank you for being the first to comment. I certainly do not need a synthetic chemical in my bloodstream to feel the adrenalin of a howling V8 and mounting speed. As long as there are no citations given, the side effects are not as dangerous…

      Thank you for stopping by to read my little hub. Take care.

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      RevLady 6 years ago from Lantana, Florida

      Ah, the thrill of danger!!

      Beautiful hub JM. Voted up and beautiful!

      Forever His,

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      onegoodwoman 6 years ago from A small southern town


      I was encouraging you to turn away,

      to go back, don't do it.

      I was marveling at the price you

      were paying to tell such a revealing

      story to an audience of unknown faces.

      And I wondered, why is he referring

      to his wife as "V8", a nickname, perhaps?

      That was an awesome turn of events!

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      Jeremey 6 years ago from Arizona

      boy do you know how to get the emotions revved up! Nice write my friend.

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      Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California

      Hi Pastor, hope you are feeling better. I know what you are thinking, boys and their toys! Yes, I had a moment of childish glee. Thank you for reading.

      Hey Y,

      I knew I would have you doing a couple double takes…I was giggling just writing this episode, I knew I could turn the descriptions into something entirely deviant. Yes, just what kind of guy would I be to post what your original thoughts were? I call this fun X2, the event itself and writing about it afterwards. Thanks for sticking by me in the end.

      Hi Jeremey,

      Thank you for the compliments. Nice pun! All things being equal, nobody got hurt and my wife knows exactly what I did…

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      Neverletitgo 6 years ago from Minneapolis, MN

      That is nice writing,I voted up and awesome.

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      Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California


      Thank you for the kind accolades friend. I had great fun writing this piece. I appreciate your time.

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      Micky Dee 6 years ago

      That is one hot BABY!

    • Jason R. Manning profile image

      Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California

      Hi Mickey, thanks for stopping by. Which one are you referring to? I am confused ;-)

    • Wesman Todd Shaw profile image

      Wesman Todd Shaw 6 years ago from Kaufman, Texas

      .. . . she was probably talking about me, Jason. . .

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      prasetio30 6 years ago from malang-indonesia

      Good work, my friend. I really enjoy read your hub. Very well written. Thanks for share with us.

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      Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California

      Thank you Prasetio, I am glad you liked it so much.

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      DeBorrah K Ogans 6 years ago

      Jason R. Manning, Wonderful work! What a creative writer you are! I have a son who loves his sporty camaro as well... Enjoy! Drive carefully and stay safe! No speeding tickets...

      God Bless! In HIS Love, Grace, Joy, Peace & Blessings!

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      jtcarr1164 6 years ago from Tueplo, Mississippi

      Voted up and an awesome! Great piece of writing. You display some real eloquence in your style. I am jealous!

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      Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California


      Thank you for the kind comments. I figured I would write a racy piece for a racy car. Even the meek love a good shot of adrenaline. Thanks again Deborrah, I appreciate your time. God Bless.

      Hi Mr. JT,

      Thank you for coming by to read my work. I am grateful to have you as a follower. I read your bio, which has to be some tough love, an English major wife…good luck friend. Thank you for such a wonder compliment, we can only influence and learn from one another as we hone our crafts. God Bless you and your service to this troubled nation.

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      James J Mills 6 years ago from Northern California

      Jason, What a great story! Very creatively crafted, with an ending that still leaves you wondering "Was it really a car?" Your nuance and subtlty were superb. JM

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      Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California

      Hello James,

      Thank you for the great compliment, I had fun with writing this, and you can rest assured that this story is of the aforementioned Police Interceptor pictured. Cheers.

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      quicklysilver 6 years ago from wexford, ireland

      I'd like to see you write a piece on picking up another woman, talking about gears and engine running and turning at bends, ha ha, good piece mate

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      youmeget 6 years ago

      Nice writing.

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      schoolgirlforreal 6 years ago from USA

      Cleverly written and a *nice* description of the chase!

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      Jason R. Manning 6 years ago from Sacramento, California

      Hi SGFR, yes, those who personally know me well, understand that I can get away with building a hub like this, knowing full well how bad I have it for cars. We each have funny and or destructive desires, I do not understand why I fawn for nice cars, but there it is. I do not smoke, I do not drink, and I have never done drugs, but I know without a doubt I have spent more money on cars that could have fed the habits of many others. Thanks for reading.

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      Laura Irwin 5 years ago from The Great Northwest

      You definitely had me going!!! What a wonderfully written piece of trickery- lol. Cars do it for me too!

    • Jason R. Manning profile image

      Jason R. Manning 5 years ago from Sacramento, California

      Hi Izetti,

      Thank you for the great compliment. Its a good thing my wife really know's me, or she might think otherwise...I can't drive 55! Take care.

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