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When tomorrow starts without me I'll be in Eternity

Updated on July 21, 2015

Granny's Funeral

Young Granny Sheila

Granny
Granny
Granny and I in March 2015
Granny and I in March 2015

Time is slipping away....

Today is fourteen days since you died

It feels like yesterday.

The tears are real and they fill my eyes.

I feel like my life has ended and there’s,

no meaning to go on still…..NOTHING

matters anymore not even living.


I knew someday this day would come but

I always dreaded that it would never.

I prayed to the Father to take me before you

because I knew it would be much to bear,

when you had to go.

But yet I thought He’d let you live a few years

longer.

Granny and I

Photo with my loving granny "1996"
Photo with my loving granny "1996"
Granny Sheila
Granny Sheila
Flowers for Gran Gran
Flowers for Gran Gran

You were a fighter

I knew you were in a lot of pain and the strength

to go on you no longer contained. You were a great

fighter and I thought this time you would have fought

one more fight as you always did. But I guess you were

weary and just had to let go and let death embrace you.


Now you’re no longer here with me and I feel like the

Earth stands still.

You left me without saying goodbye

my heart is so filled with sorrows and pain.

They say time is a healer but if only they knew

how heartbroken I am and how much I really

Love you…. they won't tell me that lie!

Gran's Coffin

Buried July 13th 2015
Buried July 13th 2015

R.I.P. Always Granny

More flowers
More flowers
My nephew
My nephew

You were weary!

I saw you getting tired, your eyes and body was getting

so weary but yet you took life's stride.

Even though I loved you dearly I couldn’t make you stay.

God wanted you more than me so He sent His angel for you

to come on home way up high.

If I only knew that those were my last few hours with

you, granny I would have never left your side.

When you were leaving this earth i heard you called

my name. I jumped out of my sleep but you wasn't

there at my side.


You couldn't speak or tell me you were going to die,

that morning i left you in the hospital,

yet I had this odd feeling deep down inside

I had plans to come visit you later that day but instead

I got a call to say that you just passed away.

I was so sadden at the news the nurse broke to me.

I wept and still did not believe you had died, how could you

leave me without biding me good bye?


I wonder why O’ why and what would my life be without?

Now the tears keep falling and it rips my heart apart.

In life I love you dearly in death I love you still.

I would have given my life for you to live,

If only I could have saved you I would have….. I’d do anything to

see you again, no mountain will be too high

to climb to see your face, to hear your voice

and see your smile.

The Lord is My Shepherd

Our last goodbye

Roses are red my love
Roses are red my love

The Pain is no EASIER

The pain doesn't get any easier since the day you've passed.

Every day that passes I so wish you were here.

When I found out what happened my

heart were broken in two. All I could do

Is just ask why? If only I can just let you know

how much I cared.


I wish I can have one more

day to tell you the things I did

not say. If only God grant me a wish I’d ask him to see you.

I know you see me and you whisper don’t you cry,

I can’t be with you, but always you’d live in my heart

doesn't matter if we are apart.

When my heart feels so heavy at night,

I pray that God will give me the

courage to fight.


You left laughter and cheer for us to remember you

long after you’re gone. Your voice can always be heard,

the sun will rise every morning and new days will keep dawning.

We'll miss you

I won’t forget you ever and every now

and then I will write you a letter

and ask God to send it to you.

You name will always be spoken,

please remember me always as

you’re in heaven above.


I will remember you every day and

think of you always, since

You’re gone the sun doesn’t even seem

to shine, no matter who

come or go they’ll never take that

special place only a grandma can.


Granny please tell my brother hi and

wait for me for soon too I will

come on home to abide.

May Jesus keep you safe forever


Written by : Joanna Chandler

21/7/2015

Why didn't you stay longer?

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    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi quildon thanks for your kind comment. God bless U also

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      Angela Joseph 

      3 years ago from Florida

      My condolences to you and your family, my dear. Your grandmother was a beautiful woman and I can see she has left you some beautiful memories. Cherish them until the day you meet again face to face. God bless you.

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi Genna dear , thank you so much!

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      Genna East 

      3 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

      Oh, Jo...I"m so sorry to learn of this wonderful woman's passing. What a profoundly moving tribute. Hugs and good wishes to you and your family.

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Good day Audrey thank you for your warm comment and for taking the time to read my hub. I appreciate it :)

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      Audrey Hunt 

      3 years ago from Idyllwild Ca.

      I'm so very sorry about the loss of your dear Grandma. You love her very much. You have created a beautiful tribute to this grand lady. The photos blend sweetly with your heart-felt words. You've poured out your heart here and I know it's breaking. I know she will always be with you, loving you, hugging you and watching over you.

      Hub Hugs to you dear one,

      Audrey

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi BlossomSB darling thanks for such a sweet comment!

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi Dana thanks for coming by. Yeah I know she's in a better place but the separation process is very hard.

      Sorry to hear about you losing all your grandparents :( This life is really sad and if God doesn't come soon we'll all have to go one day.

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      Bronwen Scott-Branagan 

      3 years ago from Victoria, Australia

      We miss our loved ones so much when they go and leave such a space in our lives. Yet we know where they have gone and there is no more pain. What joy it will be in Heaven when we meet again! God bless you for writing so beautifully about the loss of your Grandma.

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      Dana Tate 

      3 years ago from LOS ANGELES

      My heart understands your pain. I have lost all of my grandparents both maternal and paternal as well, as my mother. I understand loss well, I rest assure that they are in the loving presence of the Lord, free from this world until we shall be together again. God bless u and your family. This was a beautiful tribute.

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Good day Frank i like the bridge idea, I am listening to a lot of Stephen Meara- Blount poems about the deceased it brings some form of comfort.

      Thank You

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      Frank Atanacio 

      3 years ago from Shelton

      my heart goes out to your family.. and may her memories create a bridge from heaven to earth... bless you and your family

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi Tirelesstraveler good day to you and thanks very much for coming by and commenting.

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      Judy Specht 

      3 years ago from California

      Your love and respect for your beloved Granny shows what a lovely legacy she left. She will live on in you.

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi mother by nature that's what most people say ;) lol thanks for coming by

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      Motherbynature 

      3 years ago from Los Angeles, CA

      This is a beautiful tribute. You look so much like your Granny's old photo.

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Thanks much whonunuwho

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hello Jackie good to see thanks for your kind comment.

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi Nell thanks for coming by :)

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Good morning thank you Faith :)

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      Faith Reaper 

      3 years ago from southern USA

      Oh, Jo, I am so sorry for your great loss of your beloved granny. You have written beautifully here and your love shines through.

      Hugs and much love to you and your family

      I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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      whonunuwho 

      3 years ago from United States

      This was such a fine tribute to your granny and was so full of the love you had for her. Thank you for sharing this wonderful tribute.whonu

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      Jackie Lynnley 

      3 years ago from The Beautiful South

      Most of us know your pain Jo; but you are so young to have to face this on your own. I hope you have friends or family to talk with but writing is a very good thing to make you feel better. Maybe you could write us some stories about your granny and you, I know you have lots to tell and we would love to read them.

      God will look after you and get you through. The pain never goes away but it will get much better. It just takes time.

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      Nell Rose 

      3 years ago from England

      Oh Jo I am so sorry. I know you loved her very much, if you want to chat, just email me like always, okay? you take care, nell

    • LadyFiddler profile imageAUTHOR

      Joanna Chandler 

      3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Thank you Kiss & Tales

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      Kiss andTales 

      3 years ago

      My condolences to you and your family

      With God's help you will be able to get through all the pain. Take care.

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