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When Trying Isn't Good Enough

Updated on January 12, 2012

When Was The Last Time You Tried Something New

I hate new things

They make my skin crawl

I get a nervous itch and I constantly say silently to myself do I have to

I look for any way I can to avoid doing something new

I am like a little kid who plays with his food when he doesn't want to eat

I squirm in my seat

If I can remember that far back I thnk I did it once and my father didn't put up with that

Now I am older and my father isn't here to tell me Stop that !

I have to face my hardest challanges head on

I can not procrastinate any longer

What good will it do?

I only have to do it again anyway

It will take me longer and I could be done by now

But I know the truth but my brain still doesn't comprehend

I am alright doing something new on my own

But there is that but again

When someone else makes me change and I have a choice

Then I have a little room for slack and slacking is what I will do

I will find anything under the sun to fill up my time so I don't have to do what I was told to do

Well it is a working progress and this is the first time I put it on paper

So I am admitting my mistakes and now have to follow through with my own advice

I knew I should of hit delete when I had the chance

Another mistake in the new year I will have to deal with

That is all for now and soon I will curse each word I typed

Because this is the way I struggle day and night

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    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      6 years ago

      Dim Flaxenwick You could laugh a little louder.So I can hear your laugh again.Sometimes that is all I need for instant inpiration.Like instant coffee with the caffeine.I need the energy boost.Thanx and have a good night.

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      Dim Flaxenwick 

      6 years ago from Great Britain

      Funny funny funny. You make my day !!!!!

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      6 years ago

      Deborah Brooks The sooner we admit our challanges we can take steps to deal with them.In time they might not be as hard as we think.daisyflowrs You have had years of practice and I can change too in just six years.Good luck on your date.I am sure it will go great.Eiddwen If I don't find an answer I can a least laugh at myself and find the courage to try again.raciniwa I will read and listen to your words.They are so wonderful and true.Thanx everyone so much.

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      raciniwa 

      6 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

      the greatest thing to do is walk the extra mile to change, and growth...you have to show courage and determination of facing the inevitable...

    • Eiddwen profile image

      Eiddwen 

      6 years ago from Wales

      Brilliant,funny and clever.

      This one has to be awarded that up up and away.

      Take care

      Eddy.

    • daisyflowrs profile image

      daisyflowrs 

      6 years ago from Richmond, VA

      Don't let my ex-husband see this. He would say, "see?!? I'm not the only procrastinator!" I use to not like change at all. It make me very cautious and pissed that I had to learn something new. Well, when I joined the Army and later became a special education teacher, I stopped the resistance (I was losing each battle and would have lost the war in the end). I learned to just accept change and become flexible. By the end of my 6th year teaching, I was more flexible than a gymnast. It wasn't so bad. I learned some great skills to-boot! I like the premise to this piece. There are things I still get hesitant and scared. For example, I just starting dating again. I haven't "dated" since 2002 (and that was my now ex-husband!).Well, tomorrow I am going on a second date with what seems to be a nice guy, but he is not a NY Yankees fan and he is a Republican. I figure all of that is ok as long as he doesn't like the Red Socks and he never votes again. See? I can be flexible.:)

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 

      6 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      Everyone struggles so...the mistakes we make...tears us apart....for years to come..awesome hub..I voted way up.....debbie

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