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When the Pen and Pain Collide

Updated on January 5, 2015

What is more serene than an ode to nostalgia, scrawled and sculpted from the sleekest of pens on a pallid sheet of paper? It may be a mangle of words, a coalescence of inscripts, beautifully jumbled and arrayed to perfection.

We aptly play with words. Words that are construed by the eye, deciphered by the mind and felt by the heart. While at all those levels and senses of perception; does the chronicle of angst ever truly unfold…?

Here, is a reflection of the concourse of souls assembled on this platform. This is a symphony of our battles; both won and lost.

Yes we are different. We are unique. We are driven by mirth and melancholy in ways that are mildly maniac; for it weren’t for the tumult and tranquility of emotion that breed in symbiosis, our words would be inert. Our characters would be abject, and our stories base. We are precariously aware of pain, pain that accompanies each breath to summon life into our existence. Pain is the progenitor of our words, and the vessel of their ambition.

We grew up in an imperfect world questing for perfection. We were bohemians, striving to be conformists. Our minds were prisms that absorbed colorless raw emotion, while the world perceived spectral delineation among all feelings known. Our vision was in a kaleidoscopic conflict with our hearts, where our patterns were etched and dimensions were known.

Nature has been our ally since inception, our courter and our comforter. Our liaison is intimate yet poignant, as we have rummaged its facets not known to exist. We have found solace in its somberly confines, and lost lucidity to its mythical elements.

We have cradled the earth in our bare hands and sojourned in solitude midst of a storm. We have heard and followed the melisma of silence; we have counted the stars and conversed with the moon. We have withered and fallen from branches at the equinox, and been reborn with the first tendril of spring. We have drowned with each sunset into dark oblivion, to imbibe each hue into our porous souls. We have painted each dawn on a canvas so mottled and yet run short of hues for our mind’s depiction. We have frolicked with flames and danced with the waves, we have set many fires, and cried many oceans.

We have dwelled at the dichotomy between fact and fiction, often times hazing the intricate divide. We have turned real people into sterling characters, devoid of the flaws we chose not to see. We have searched endlessly for phantasmal perfection; in humans who err, and bodies that sin.

We have loved a love beyond our own fathom. We have endured a loss that consumed our souls. We have fought myriad battles with our own demons and live with scars we are too proud to show. We have walked away and never turned back for our will was too strong to falter; and even though we carried each fragment of our flesh… our hearts have never moved on. We never grew up from being the child whose endeavors remain unrewarded. Some tears still shed and some are parched, in reverie of our first nuances of defeat, and betrayal. We never understood the conditions of love; we are anomalies in ardor who are defiant to change. We have loathed none but our own existence, for it’s infinite flaws and perpetual failures.

We are writers, living with a beautiful curse. A curse that siphons gore, from our anguished hearts, to feed a sea of comely expression. A curse we lay out across the evenly spaced lines, with words that are conceived and birthed by our souls. We live in the verse; armor with prose, and contend with phrase. Our words are our legacy, our shield… and our weapon.

© 2015 Sara Sarwar Riaz


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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      Shanmarie- Thank you so much for stopping by and providing your valuable input. I certainly do intend to keep on writing at HP. I just need to be able to find more time to pursue this passion which is somewhat of a challenge with work and a busy toddler :) Your appreciation for my work is very much valued.

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      Shannon Henry 

      3 years ago from Texas

      I love.your style! I certainly hope that you keep coming back to write more and.I look forward to reading your other hubs.

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      Dip Mitra- Thank you for your kind words of appreciation.

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      Dip Mtra 

      3 years ago from World Citizen

      Awesome, as always with your hubs. Voted up.

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      Thank you very much cam8510 and Audrey Howitt for the kind and insightful comments. I am glad that this piece struck some familiar cords in the hearts of many writers.

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      Audrey Howitt 

      3 years ago from California

      Yup--beautiful writing! Pain and pen often meet I think!

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      Chris Mills 

      3 years ago from Flagstaff, AZ

      Here is a thought that could transform a writer if he/she could somehow learn to harness the truth of the statement: "We are precariously aware of pain, pain that accompanies each breath to summon life into our existence. Pain is the progenitor of our words, and the vessel of their ambition."

      Like every other person who has ever lived, like all writers, I have suffered pain, yet I don't feel that I write out of that pool of potential. It's a good thing to strive for, I think.

      Wonderful words here, and some deep truths as well.

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      billybuc- Thank you very much for your kind words, and appreciation for my writing endeavor.

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      Bill Holland 

      3 years ago from Olympia, WA

      This is my introduction to your writing talents, and I must say I am quite impressed. I love your writing voice. Many people have an impressive vocabulary, but you have the ability to make words sing, and it is a pleasure to read.

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      Yohewriter- Thank you for delving into my content. I am honored if it was able to bring some inspiration to you.

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      Timothy Yohe 

      3 years ago from St. Louis

      Nice work Sara! It is very true that we do not come across this depth of prose in our hubs. You write a lot like I used to in my years years, playing with words and teasing their meanings. I admit you have inspired me to return to the roots as I feel my vocabulary has lost a lot of texture over the years. Welcome to HubPages and I definitely want to read more of your work! Awesome thumbs up!

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      Iris Draak- Thank you for your kind words. I am glad to be here and connecting with talented hubbers like yourself.

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      Cristen Iris 

      3 years ago from Boise, Idaho

      Welcome to HubPages. I'm glad to see that so many of the neighbors have come over to introduce themselves and to meet you.

      You said it well, what writers are.

      I look forward to reading more of your musings.

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      Molly Layton- Thank you for stopping by and providing your input. It is much appreciated.

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      Molly Layton 

      3 years ago from Alberta

      I came here from your forum post. This is absolutely beautiful. I love your content and your style. There are a few grammatical errors involving semicolons and apostrophes, but I barely noticed them. I envy your literary skill.

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      peachpurple- Thank you for your kind words.

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      3 years ago from Home Sweet Home

      awesome writing, you gotta be good at publishing books, you know

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      3 years ago from london

      Totally awesome writing and very different style. Excellent! Interesting way of telling this story. More soon? Peace.

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      Thank you so much for the words of appreciation.

      Jodah- Coming from a worthy and accomplished poet like yourself, it means a lot.

      Frank Atanacio- Every word written here has more weight than you would know, since I am returning to the world of writing after a while and am very appreciative of all the feedback I have received from the experienced hubbers.

      Janshares- Thank you for your kind words of appreciation and encouragement.

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      Janis Leslie Evans 

      3 years ago from Washington, DC

      Beautifully written piece, very poetic. What a tribute to writers as your first hub. I look forward to more of your work. Excellent job, Sara! Voted up, beautiful, and interesting.

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      Frank Atanacio 

      3 years ago from Shelton

      a very well written piece here.. same as Jodah my comment wont have weight but smilealot and Jodah are probably the best poets on hub so Ill follow their line and say poetic and eloquent too...:)

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      John Hansen 

      3 years ago from Queensland Australia

      The perfect words to describe this have already been used so my comment won't mean a lot...but eloquent and perfectly. Welcome to Hub Pages. You made quite an impact with your first piece of writing here. Voted up.

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      Peg Cole 

      3 years ago from Dallas, Texas

      Very eloquently written and poetic. I like the phrase "conceived and birthed by our souls".

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      Sara Sarwar Riaz 

      3 years ago from Michigan, USA

      Thank you all very much for the kind comments and words of appreciation. This is my first endeavor at Hubpages, and I am overwhelmed by the response. I truly appreciate your stopping by to read and commend my content.

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      3 years ago


      Is this piece a part of a novel you are writing ? It is too good to be a standalone.

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      Sally Gulbrandsen 

      3 years ago from Norfolk

      Welcome to Hubpages, a beautiful piece of writing, writing so eloquently written and thoughts expressed. I predict that it will not be long before your writing is discovered and enjoyed.

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      John M 

      3 years ago from Chicago

      Well written and impressive!

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      Nathan Bernardo 

      3 years ago from California, United States of America

      Beautifully written, reaching to the heart and revelatory.

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      3 years ago

      You have an innovative gift for writing! I was drawn in by your impression surrounding the exertion that can transform within writers due to the peculiar depth of expression-which is a mystery within itself. Voted up useful!

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      3 years ago from the short journey

      Poetic and thought-provoking, which always makes me smile.

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      3 years ago

      This is beautifully and eloquently written content, one of the best pieces of writing I've seen on this site so far, written with soul, rather than for the Internet. I welcome more of the same. Welcome.

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      3 years ago

      A very eloquent piece of writing that is both fluent and stylish. It convinces me that to write is to be human. Voted up and awesome, welcome to hubpages:-))


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