Why Don't I Write Anymore?
More than a case of "writers block."
Hello followers and readers of my blog! I hope you are all doing well!
I recently realized that I haven't written a damn thing that remotely matters in over a year...not on here...not even on a piece of paper. Trying to figure out WHY was the hardest part. Easily, I could chalk it up to a bad case of writers block. But that's not quite it. It goes beyond not having a good idea or even being lazy. The reason is pure fear.
Since I was able to write, I've been a writer... making up stories at first, then graduating to teen-angst poetry and finally I began writing short stories, plays, childrens books, blogs, etc... Two years ago, I started writing less and less, my creativity dwindling. About a year ago, I just stopped.
Writing was an escape for me and I chose to stop escaping. I started to be afraid of the feelings I felt and the things I wanted to write about. I didn't want to cause controversy or make any one's life (including mine) any more complicated. I decided to live in reality full time. And guess what? It's not working out so well. My creative writing is like a boyfriend that I broke up with 2 years ago... but now I want him back... the question is... does he want me back? PROBABLY NOT would be my guess. Maybe I can woo my creativity back, work hard to earn his love and trust again... and maybe, just MAYBE we can live happily ever after. Only time will tell.
Thanks for reading and hopefully I will post something AMAZING soon!
Oh where, Oh where could Shannon have gone?
Topics To Come
- Chinese Food
- Benjamin Franklin
- Door Knobs
Okay, maybe not ALL of the above. :)