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Wonderfully mundane.

Updated on September 26, 2009

Wonderfully mundane.

A poem written at a time when I was feeling very sorry for myself.

Wonderfully mundane.

The perception and expectation of my life is so wonderfully mundane.

That if it ran as most assume it does, it would not run at all.

It would be perfectly stagnant. I would not learn or grow.

If I would act as it seems as most would wish, I would not progress and I would not achieve.

I should not dare to hope to be more then I am.

To believe I am not deserved enough to build upon what I have.

To be unconsciously fed negative ideas.

To be taught not to aspire, not to think, not to feel.

Or at least not to feel comfortable enough to express how I feel

To struggle against inadequate praise and the unfair punishment, resonates vividly still

Subject to endure past recriminations that haunt me almost daily.

The struggle of hopes and fears fight on, conflict between deliberation and desire.

The ever painful longing for recognition and acceptance runs deep.

To find faith and discover assurance is imperative to me.


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      Mundane Blog 

      7 years ago

      It's nice to hear that you have finally found peace within yourself... uh, in a mundane fashion, of course. Cheers!

    • wrenfrost56 profile imageAUTHOR

      wrenfrost56 

      8 years ago from U.K.

      Thank-you peggy W, I have succeeded and am a happier person now. It's funny how things turn out.

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      Peggy Woods 

      8 years ago from Houston, Texas

      Your last sentence: "To find faith and discover assurance is imperative to me."

      Even when you were in that dark period, you obviously knew what was important to accomplish. Glad to hear you succeeded.

    • wrenfrost56 profile imageAUTHOR

      wrenfrost56 

      8 years ago from U.K.

      Thank-you for your comment anjalichugh, my thought proccess has changed so much since then, the world is a different place for me now, thankfully.

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      anjalichugh 

      8 years ago from New York

      It's amazing to see how 'fluid' thoughts can be. Nothing remains static in this world including our thought process. I can only pray that you never get engulfed with such dark thoughts (as portrayed in your poem) again in your life. Take care.

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      wrenfrost56 

      8 years ago from U.K.

      Thank-you PV, I have indeed found recognition and been validated.

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      Pacal Votan 

      8 years ago

      If it's a poem written at a time when you were feeling very sorry for yourself, then it's a poem read at a time when I don't have the intellectual capacity to follow it. :)

      It's beautiful, nonetheless. I hope you have found recognition. Thanks. :)

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