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A Stillness

Updated on January 2, 2015
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ocfireflies is a retired teacher. She graduated from Appalachian State University with a B.S. in English/Secondary Education.

endlessness

eventually brought her to the place

she had been running from

running to all of her life

morn of a cool, leafless day

she raised up from her sleepless night

even before her feet hit the floor

tears fell down her face

she looked for her warmup pants

she had thrown off sometime during the night

found her socks

managed to put on her tennis shoes

Had they seen

How much she loved them

How much she had worried about them

How long she had held on just for them

Before

Letting go

Of their sweetest, most loving

arms any one mother could ever know

would they understand

she had become

lost

along the way

how each road

every path

landed her

in just another patch of thorns

all she had ever wanted

was a home: fireproof

how she had continued to yearn

for that little cottage in the clouds

rocking chair on a porch

with a view

where she could see

as far as the eye can see

where the wolves

leave her be

where the wildflowers

run free

a stillness:

forever holding their hands

she closed her eyes and watched

soft clouds float by


© 2014 ocfireflies

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    • ocfireflies profile imageAUTHOR

      ocfireflies 

      2 years ago from North Carolina

      Audrey,

      Thank you for not forgetting me and for your sweet words. I am in the middle of moving, so please forgive me if it is awhile before I make it to your page. And I hope others will be patient as well for I am way behind in my comments.

      Blessings Always,

      Kim

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      Audrey Hunt 

      2 years ago from Idyllwild Ca.

      Kim

      Oh, how I love your writing! This poetry has captured the 'stillness' permeating in every room of my home when my last child left for college.

      How beautifully you have expressed this feeling.

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      Diana,

      Thank You Dear Lady.

      Kevin,

      I so much appreciate the vsp.

      Blessings to you both,

      Kim

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      The Examiner-1 

      3 years ago

      That was beautiful Kim. I voted it up, shared and pinned it.

      Kevin

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      Dianna Mendez 

      3 years ago

      A cottage in the clouds and skies, what a beautiful reflection! I always find peace in reading your poems. Lovely, dear lady.

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      Thanks GRL! Appreciate the kind comments. Hope you are well.

      Smiles,

      Kim

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Hauntingly wonderful. So hard to let go of those little hands.

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      Genna and wordswithlove,

      I am glad to know I am not alone. And yes, it takes time to learn how to reform the relationship to reflect the adult nature of the connection. Yet, there are times now and then when one will call, and I can tell he just needed me-his mom. Okay, now I am tearing up so I better stop.

      Thank you for getting where I was coming from and for the vote/share.

      Blessings to all of us moms,

      Kim

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      Neetu M 

      3 years ago from USA

      Genna, I know exactly what you mean - I couldn't fathom the depth of that emptiness until it hit me, too, when my daughter left for college 5 years ago. It took a lot of soul-searching to figure out how to deal with it, how to let her know I loved her without suffocating her from a distance. It took 2 years to successfully form the new alliance with her, without making her feel guilty about "neglecting" her "poor mother". I learned to let go with love always loosely wrapped around her so it wouldn't choke her, yet always be there for her.

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      Genna East 

      3 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

      Beautiful! As a mother, I could relate to this in a few ways, Kim. When my son first left home for college years ago, that emptiness hit harder than I imagined it would. We ask questions, we wonder, and we move forward when this happens…sometimes watching those clouds roll by with closed eyes. Voted up and shared.

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      A sundial of memories--love that--

      Hope you and yours are well...

      Wishing a wonderful weekend, also.

      Smiles,

      Kim

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      Romeos Quill 

      3 years ago from Lincolnshire, England

      The empty nest..... and the sweet sorrow that brings I can only understand from such heartfelt words you've laid out here dear Kim.I'm sure that if they are intelligent enough to be a success at university then they are certainly bright enough to absorb the feelings and sensibilities of the light from the passage of an open heart, even as the horologe jars leaving such fine memories in their wake. Very lovely.

      A fine weekend to you and your family.

      R.Q.

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      Dear Frances,

      Thank you and Dear One,

      I know you know.

      Love ya,

      Kim

      CriSp,

      Sometimes, we just want to go back to that time when our children were still babies and just rock them one more time. sing them one more song... Hugs and love to you, too.

      Blessings,

      Kim

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      CrisSp 

      3 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      I can feel the subtle facet of emotions that you have poured in here...the emptiness and the longing.

      So poignant Kim!

      Hugs and love from the sky. ~

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      frances fuller 

      3 years ago

      So beautiful and heart wrenching

      I can see you on that porch

      taking in the view

      and yes

      they do know.

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      lisa van vorst,

      Greetings! What a wonderful thing to say for there is nothing better than peace and tranquility. Thank You. Thank You.

      Kim

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      Lisa VanVorst 

      3 years ago from New Jersey

      So beautiful. Reading this gave me a sense of peace and tranquility. Great hub!

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      wordswithlove,

      Greetings! Thank you for your kind words. Wishing you a beautiful day.

      Kim

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      Neetu M 

      3 years ago from USA

      Very beautiful poem, Kim. Thank you for sharing your poetic talent.

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      Suzette,

      I am glad to have some sort of forte. Smiles. Poetry has been such a huge part of my life for as long as I can remember. Thank you for cheering me on. That support means everything.

      CatherineGiordano,

      Receiving compliments from such a prolific writer is priceless.

      Fiddleman,

      Greetings from a fellow North Carolinian. Thank you for your kind words.

      sweetpikez,

      Greetings. Thank you for the vote.

      Jackie,

      I think one of the reasons poetry is so special is that it can lend itself to multiple interpretations. Your continued support means so much to me. Thank you for the v+!

      Faith,

      Thank you for being you. You have been from day one so kind and supportive of me. Thank you for the v/t/p/g/s. You are the beautiful one.

      Frank,

      So good to see you. A "wow" from you means so much to me.

      Many Blessings to all of you for your support, votes, shares and kind words. I am truly blessed to be a member of such a wonderful community of writers.

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      Frank Atanacio 

      3 years ago from Shelton

      this was simply amazing.. wow

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      Faith Reaper 

      3 years ago from southern USA

      Beautiful and haunting, dear Kim. Your words stir the heart. Your work is like no other, as John stated, so unique and that is why we love to read your words. They are you ... one of a kind, beautiful.

      Voted up ++++ tweeting, pinning, G+ and sharing

      Hugs and peace

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      Jackie Lynnley 

      3 years ago from The Beautiful South

      Beautiful Kim; made me think of children too; but also wistfulness of dreams unfulfilled.

      ^+ as always

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      Pinky de Garcia 

      3 years ago

      Thanks for sharing this beautiful poem. It carves my emotion today. Thumbs up!

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      Fiddleman 

      3 years ago

      Enjoyed reading and easy to visualize. Good job.

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      Catherine Giordano 

      3 years ago from Orlando Florida

      It is very haunting. Simple rhythms that reinforce the theme of stillness,emptiness, and loss. It almost made me cry.

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      Suzette Walker 

      3 years ago from Taos, NM

      My goodness, Kim. Again, this is beautiful and I can feel the hurt and pain. This flows so softly yet has such a powerful message. Aren't we all yearning for the cottage in the clouds? I just love this poem and I am bookmarking it - I have to come back to read this again and again. Just lovely. Keep writing poetry - this is really your forte. I always look forward to a new poem from you. This just takes my breath away. Vote up+ and shared.

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      ocfireflies 

      3 years ago from North Carolina

      John,

      Thank you for your kind words an ongoing support.

      janshares,

      So good to see you. The vote is much appreciated.

      Bill,

      I really appreciate you saying that for I always read back over and think the poem would have been better if I had added this or left out that.

      Jamie,

      I think you picked up on what I was feeling when I wrote this poem: emptiness syndrome. My kids are grown, and while I could not be anymore proud of the adults they have become, I still have days when I so miss holding their tiny hands in mine, picking them up and kissing those soft, sweet cheeks over and over again.

      Blessings to all,

      Kim

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      Jamie Lee Hamann 

      3 years ago from Reno NV

      Your poetry always fills me joy and then I want to gather up all your words and hold them close. This poem brought to my mind the doubt I feel as a parent and the hope that I am doing all I can. If I survive their childhood will they know how I gave them my all. Thank you Kim, your poetry brings out the best of me. Jamie

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      Bill Holland 

      3 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Kim, you always deliver. This reads so effortlessly, like taking that first sip of coffee in the morning, a joyous affair each and every time you write.

      bill

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      Janis Leslie Evans 

      3 years ago from Washington, DC

      This was a very special read. Stillness is something we need more of, to stop and just be. Love the visuals this poem produced. Voted up and beautiful.

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      John Hansen 

      3 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Beautiful words Kim. You are a truly unique writer and poet. Always a pleasure to read and enjoy your work.

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