The LIFE of my LIFE is gone: A POEM
The LIFE of my LIFE is gone: A POEM
This is a real life story. My heart is broken today December 22nd, 2012 when my Mom (Mrs Chinyere Ubani) passed on. I am still feeling the shock and hurt because my Mama died of a painful breast cancer disease.
Sequel †Φ her death, we tried all forms of treatment and for the fact that she suffered painfully before her death lives my heart bleeding. She was the closest person †Φ me even in our differences and I loved her without compare. She made me. Now I remember all the promises I made †Φ her when I become somebody in life and I just feel weak.
My once plump and agile mama was so devastated by the illness that she grew old overnight, her face wrinkled and her voice became silent echoes (she could barely utter a word). She was a shadow of herself. My eyes peppered in tears each time I looked at her and she would beg me not †Φ cry and be strong for her. She fought seen and unseen forces of evil for four painful years before the hands of death gripped her. ( I am here typing away my emotions and my sister is some meters away in tears like a baby) Mama was a strong woman who believed she would scale through the trial that later choked her life.
Mama, I will fight your fight and be rest assured that you will forever be dear †Φ my heart. My heart bleeds and I am worried that you will not be around †Φ reap the fruit of your labor.
(In her honor, I will write my first novel detailing my experiences, the trials and controversies surrounding her death)
The LIFE of my LIFE is gone: A POEM
†Φ the woman who gave me life
The one who nursed my tender body
The woman who gave me love
The one whose breast I sucked
On your laps I played
You watched my every move
Kissed my every chuckle
Smiled at my first speech
Taught me †Φ walk
Woke in the middle of the night
Lull me †Φ sleep
Through months of agony carried me
Your womb was a safe haven
My dearest angel
My love and everlasting mother
My champion
I see you, beautiful
I salute your courage
I worship your guts
You are my everything
My memory is the store of your affection
Like flashes your goodness keep storming
The joyful moments
Those days of tears and pain
Years of bitter struggle, suffering and sorrow
Together we matched on in hope
Mama I am sad
My face painted with colors of hate
My body smells of bitterness
My heart cries for revenge
My heart bleeds of pure charcoal
Please let this be a dream
Tell me it is not true
Pinch me and tell me it is a hallucination
Somebody talk †Φ me
My eyes shed blood
Face rumpled with anger amid unfulfilled promises
Bitterness unmatched
Even Kokura's luck I couldn't will
Like a withered leaf, you are no more
Gone like the shadows of time
Knees cut by an alien ailment
Breast cut open by a wicked disease
~BREAST CANCER~
Your voice is gone
Your once radiating body
Old, thin and wrinkled
Your pain obvious even in death
I can't believe you are gone
Please come back
Shake off those pains
Stay with me, for in you I have faith
But like the Mayan prophecy
Doom have eclipsed my future
I am devastated and lonely
Angry and dejected
Restless and conquered
Life is now meaningless.
All RIGHTS RESERVED!
Reading from the heart of a sober man!
COPYRIGHT - Alexander Thandi Ubani
