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Conflicted

Updated on July 26, 2020
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Crystal Is a 36-year-old mother of 3, She loves to inspire others and she has been writing for over 18 years. She loves all and judges None.

Alyssa Then

Conflicted

On this night could make so many want to fight.

Could you imagine what is going through my head?

I'm sure you're asking what this is all about.

But to tell you the truth I can't even figure that out.

I'm happy and sad all at the same time isn't that bad?

Is this just another door do I push do I pull?

I'm so confused, do I let it out or hold it in?

How can they tell me my daughter's life is coming to an end?

My daughter's life can't end it has not even begun.

So say just remember you have a friend, but can they really comprehend what is going through my head.

I've had three for so very long.

You can't take one away I won't have enough to hold.

I'm not being selfish, I do believe with God's help we can get through anything. I just don't understand Why my little girl she's my angel I need her hand.

©2003CLAP

Alyssa now a grown beautiful young lady

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      Mano 

      5 months ago

      Wonderful

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      Tee 

      8 months ago

      Very touching

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      Kim 

      20 months ago

      You are blessed♥️

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      Kim 

      20 months ago

      You are blessed, a beautiful poem

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      Secret admire 

      2 years ago

      Your amazing

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      Stewart 

      2 years ago

      That is beautiful and heartwrenching

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      Ashly 

      2 years ago

      The best one

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      emma gray 

      6 years ago

      This is really beautiful and I'm glad allyssa has you as a mom. I'm lucky to know her I'm SOOOOOO happy she made it because I wouldn't have met her today

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      chantelle 

      6 years ago

      I love this poem shows emotions that we all have for are children you have a beautiful daughter

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      kesha 

      6 years ago

      Truly gifted. Thank you for this heart felt poem it really got to me. Beautiful and I'm glad to see your daughter is in good health

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      Jennifer 

      6 years ago

      So in touch with your feelings a wonderful piece of emotions tied in I enjoyed every second.

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      Hailey moor 

      6 years ago

      Crystal what a lovely poem I cried when I read this poem keep writing poetry because I think your poems are amazing and I think you can take your poems to the next level

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      kasha 

      6 years ago

      Beautiful..Very much so I would love to meet such a beautiful soul filled person as yourself keep them coming

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      Ashley 

      6 years ago

      Crystal what a beautiful poem I would love to read more about your daughter how she is now to this day

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      shaman lynn 

      6 years ago

      Very useful poem this poem could save the thousands of women out there that have premium babies that could have went or going through the same as you did. Very beautiful I absolutely love it.And to Amanda lover...more like Amanda HATER lol. Get a life loser

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      Crystal Hubbard 

      6 years ago from Jacksonville, Florida

      I truly apperciate your feedback

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      Dianna Mendez 

      6 years ago

      This is a truly beautiful expression of a mother's love for a child. We would do anything to make their world better and to keep them safe from harm. I love your writing style and how you help readers to feel the emotion through words. Blessings!

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      Stephanie ELizabeth 

      6 years ago

      Brought tears to my eyes.

      I felt your turmoil. I felt your pain.

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      Greg Knight 

      6 years ago

      I loved it leaves me wanting more

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      Justice 

      6 years ago

      Your great

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      Alyssa Peery 

      6 years ago

      Hey mom I wanted to say I'm absolutely in love with the poem you wrote for me. I see now how much you loved me before I could remember. Your a great writer and a wonderful mother love you.

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      Crystal Hubbard 

      6 years ago from Jacksonville, Florida

      That's awesome I believe in everyone and you probably do better.

      But only God can cast judgement I will post comments positive and negative. I believe in being real.

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      Amanda lover 

      6 years ago

      Wow GREAT WORK I CAN DO BETTER LOL.

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      Thomas Peery 

      6 years ago

      Very beautiful thanx for sharing. This is nice to have more great poetry from you

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      deborahshannon 

      6 years ago

      Crystal, You have a gift from God. Simply, beautiful. Keep 'em coming.

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      Andrea White 

      6 years ago

      I wanted to say this is a beautiful poem however i wonder is your daughter ok

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      Sarah 

      6 years ago

      Love this poem

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      Dora Weithers 

      6 years ago from The Caribbean

      Crystal, welcome to HubPages. This is great forum for writers to learn and grow; choosing this site is a wise decision.

      Your language in your poem does much to demonstrate the conflict you feel. For example, "happy and sad all at the same" and "life can't end it's not even began (begun)" I also like the fact that you ended on a hopeful note. Good job!

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      Crystal Hubbard 

      6 years ago from Jacksonville, Florida

      Thank you very much I will try to keep it going only God above can ensure my gift

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      Derick Stronghold 

      6 years ago

      You are a artist I truly amazing artist.

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      Crystal Hubbard 

      6 years ago from Jacksonville, Florida

      Thanks to all who have liked this I will be coming out with more.

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      Lacie 

      6 years ago

      I love how you wrote it, it's amazing I love you cousin crystal!

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      Tina Martin 

      6 years ago

      I absolutely love this poem. PLEASE bring us more. That poem brought tears to my eyes and it takes a lot for a poem to catch me like yours did.Thank you for sharing!

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      Melissa 

      6 years ago

      I think this is a great poem. Can't wiat for more to read. Very beautiful very touching.

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      Eiddwen 

      6 years ago from Wales

      A wonderful poem and voted up for sure.

      Eddy.

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      Steven 

      6 years ago

      Well Crystal this is a beautiful poem looking forward to reading more from you in the near future.

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      jaqulin smith 

      6 years ago

      Wow this is beautiful.

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