Screaming Myself Back To Life
The Inspiration Behind My Poems
The greatest thing I have found by writing poetry is that it helps me bare my soul. It releases all thoughts in my mind that is hard to express otherwise. It beautifully shows the world my vulnerabilities.
However, sometimes my mind seems to drift off more than stay focused. I'm not sure this is a bad thing. Although, it can become a little annoying when daily life needs my attention, and I can't seem to get that rhyme about death or sunset out of my head.
When I know I should relax and turn off my inner creativity; ideas come to me. They come to me at times when that is exactly what I am trying to do; clear my mind.
Yesterday, while taking a hot bath after a long day, wouldn't you know it, an idea popped up in my head. Laying there, my mind started thinking about my favorite poets from the past and what I have in common with them. Mostly, I thought about Sylvia Plath, who I believe I may have the most in common with. Just because I know life tortured her thoughts. She, like I, found it difficult to detach from her emotions past and present. I remember her most famous quote: "If I didn't think, I would be much happier."
I, too, sympathize with Sylvia in that thought. Sometimes, I feel like I can't escape all the things I've dealt with in life, making me a little depressed and sad sometimes.
As I kept thinking, I also thought of Ernest Hemingway. I think, or I hope, I have a bit of his writing technique. He has been a straightforward writer who didn't dally with those long, drawn-out lines; instead, he was straight to the point with his short sentences. I wouldn't say I like to linger. I try to make a point and then continue to the next.
Like many other writers, including Sylvia Plath, Ernest had his inner demons he could not seem to get rid of, and as I kept thinking of others, I realized this seems to be some theme with writers, including myself.
No, I'm not saying that all writers become hopelessly lost and depressed in life, but I would be willing to bet our mental state may be what carries us to the paper and pen often.
I thought about all these things while having what should have been just a bath of meditation, and ideas started coming to me, like how I deal with my internal demons and my inner struggles with life. I couldn't help but wonder if these other famous poets could have possibly fought them out as I do. I asked myself, Would I, too, become so tired of fighting that I give in one day? Would my thoughts override my ability to live sanely?
Channeling all these thoughts and my own emotions, I put this poetry piece together. I wrote as I thought them. I "shouted" the words in my head; they were an awakening. They were a fight. Explaining that, these poems do have a lot of exclamation points and probably a harsh line or two. It is continuing poetry about rallying through my own negative thoughts to stay balanced. As much as I respect every word of the writers I've mentioned and believe I have some similarities. This is my Journey! I do not want to have the same final fate.
Letting Go
You cry it all out
then let it go! Listen to
your inner voice when
it tells you so!
Stop giving into
loneliness, she Is not
your friend! She will
keep you wanting that
stupid love thing
to the bitter end!
Unshackle your mind
and especially your heart,
stop making excuses
for those who tear
your world apart!
You know the game;
you've played it
before. Bitch, wake
back up, and
Start keeping score!
Return to your reality
of common sense, it isn’t
worth all this fear and
Doubt that linger within!
Rebirth from Truth
Clinging and choking
from what little life is left!
Get up, wake up, rebirth
yourself!
You look so silly
and really quite meek,
Stop playing the fool
for the whole
world to see!
Hear me when I
scream at you, that you
are better than this!
Pick up your pride
And kiss weakness
good-bye!
Seek your truth
within your soul, you
know it’s there find
it and don’t let go!
Stop Drowning
Let it guide you out
of self-destruction,
and renew your senses
with fight and Intent,
never let another man
make you resent!
Remember your spirit
is not mixed with Colors
of pink and green!
These colors only consist of
weak and feeble things!
You keep drowning
yourself in grey waters
of self-pity and suppression!
Good Grief, just find your
existence!
Stop letting yourself get
beat black and blue!
You are not this fake
person; you are truest of true!
Here to Stay!
You are, in fact,
a poet in motion!
You put down on paper
your tortured emotions!
I understand most writers
seem to be givers of love in
such a way that they
get used up!
However, you must
grasp this one true
fact; you are not
like Virginia Woolf
or Sylvia Plath!
They may be your
heroes in the writing
world, but remember
you're stronger than them!
You were born to show
this world you will not just
give up and disappear!!!
Do You Know Their Stories?
Which writer/poet do you believe had the most tragic story of all?
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© 2015 Missy Smith