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Screaming Myself Back To Life

Updated on September 29, 2016

The Inspiration Behind My Poem

© 2015 Missy Smith

I think the greatest thing I have found by writing poetry is that it helps me bare my soul. It releases all thoughts in my mind that are hard to express otherwise. It shows the world my vulnerabilities in a beautiful way.

However, sometimes my mind seems to drift off more than stay focused. I’m not sure this is a bad thing. Although, it can become a little annoying when daily life needs my attention, and I can’t seem to get that rhyme about death or a sunset out of my head.

Ideas come to me when I know I should relax and turn off my inner creativity. They come to me at times when that is exactly what I am trying to do; clear my mind.

Yesterday, while taking a hot bath after a long day, wouldn’t you know it, an idea popped up in my head. Laying there, my mind started thinking about my favorite poets from the past, and what I have in common with them. Mostly, I thought about Sylvia Plath, who I believe I may have the most in common with. Just because, I know life tortured her thoughts. She, like I, found it difficult to detach from her emotions past and present. Her most famous quote I remember is; If I didn’t think, I would be much happier.

I too, sympathize with Sylvia in that thought. Sometimes, I feel like I can’t escape all the things I’ve dealt with or have to deal with in life, and it does make me a little depressed and sad sometimes.

As I kept thinking, I thought also of Ernest Hemingway. I think, or I hope; I have a bit of his writing technique. He is known to have been a straight-forward writer who didn’t dally with those long drawn-out lines, instead he was straight to the point with his short sentences. I, too, do not like to linger.I try to make a point and then continue to the next.

Ernest like many other writers, including Sylvia Plath, had his inner demons whom he could not seem to get rid of, and as I kept thinking of others, I realize this seems to be some type of theme with writers, including myself.

No, I’m not saying that all writers become hopelessly lost and depressed in life, but I would be willing to bet it is possible our mental state is what carries us to the paper and pen so often.

I thought about all these things while having what should have been just a bath of meditation, and ideas started coming to me; like the way I deal with my internal demons, my inner struggles with life. I couldn’t help but wonder if these other famous poets could have possibly fought them out like I do. I asked myself; Would I too become so tired of fighting that I give in one day? Would my thoughts over-ride my ability to live sane?

Channeling all these thoughts and my own emotions, I put this poem together. I wrote it in the way as I thought them. I shouted the words in my head; they were an awakening. They were a fight. So, in saying that, this poem has a lot of exclamation points and probably a harsh line or two. It is a poem about rallying through my own negative thoughts in order to stay balanced. As much as I respect every word of the writers, I’ve mentioned, and believe I have some similarities, I do not want to have the same final fate. This is my Journey!

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Letting Go

© 2015 Missy Smith

You cry it all out

then let it go! Listen to

your inner voice when

it tells you so!


Stop giving into

loneliness, she Is not

your friend! She will

keep you wanting that

stupid love thing

to the bitter end!


Unshackle your mind

and especially your heart,

stop making excuses

for those who tear

your world apart!


You know the game;

you've played it

before. Bitch, wake

back up, and

Start keeping score!


Return to your reality

of common sense, it isn’t

worth all this fear and

Doubt that linger within!

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Rebirth from Truth

Clinging and choking

from what little life is left!

Get up, wake up, rebirth

yourself!


You look so silly

and really quite meek,

Stop playing the fool

for the whole

world to see!


Hear me when I

scream at you, that you

are better than this!

Pick up your pride

And kiss weakness

good-bye!


Seek your truth

within your soul, you

know it’s there find

it and don’t let go!



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Stop Drowning

Let it guide you out

of self-destruction,

and renew your senses

with fight and Intent,

never let another man

make you resent!


Remember your spirit

is not mixed with Colors

of pink and green!

These colors only consist of

weak and feeble things!


You keep drowning

yourself in grey waters

of self-pity and suppression!

Good Grief, just find your

existence!


Stop letting yourself get

beat black and blue!

You are not this fake

person; you are truest of true!

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Here to Stay!

You are, in fact,

a poet in motion!

You put down on paper

your tortured emotions!


I understand most writers

seem to be givers of love in

such a way that they

get used up!


However, you must

grasp this one true

fact; you are not

like Virginia Woolf

or Sylvia Plath!


They may be your

heroes in the writing

world, but remember

you're stronger than them!

You were born to show

this world you will not just

give up and disappear!!!

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Do You Know Their Stories?

Which writer/poet do you believe had the most tragic story of all?

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      I do tend to show a lot of my emotional side in my poetry swalia. I'm really glad you liked the poem. Thank You! :)

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      Shaloo Walia 2 years ago

      this one is really good and quite motivating too...you really bare your soul in your poems...keep up the good work!

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      I can't tell you how happy it makes me that you like my poems Bobby. I hope I can continue to bring such pleasure from my words. For a writer, it is the most rewarding feeling when a reader expresses, in this way, the joy they have in reading their work. Thank you so much! :)

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      Robert Morgan 2 years ago from Hutchinson Island, FL - Myrtle Beach, SC - Scottsdale AZ

      OMG... You are not just a good poet; you are amazing, and you just continue getting better and better. I love your introduction and your collection. Missy, you just keep taking those long hot baths and keep trying to meditate, lol. Because obviously that's one of the times you really bare your soul, and we the reader of your works are blessed beyond measure, as there is a little of you in each of us. My heart aches when I read about your personal turmoil, but without it you would not be you. It's your inner turmoil that makes you a poet extraordinaire. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. Blessings, Bobby.

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      Darius Kamiab 2 years ago from Tunbridge Wells / Manchester, UK

      Sorry to give you another notification Missy, but yea I agree, definitely relatable. For me it's so much easier to focus on negative energy a lot of the time and what I write gets things off my chest and makes me feel better temporarily, until i'm fueled to write again haha, I don't know if it's similar for you . Give it a go for sure! i'm sure it'll be another good read :)

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      I always love your comments aviannovice. They are truly words of wisdom. Thank You!

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      Deb Hirt 2 years ago from Stillwater, OK

      Good work, Missy, but not ever deep feeling and sensitive poet comes to a bitter end. Control what you can, and just leave the rest to fester. There are many ways to challenge your senses. Just keep walking your path and doing what you do...

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thank you so much Darius. I was really happy to see that you had read some of my work. Not because I want to gain more readers; I mean, I do, but for you, it was because I thought you could relate to my work. We both seem to share from the dark side of our emotions. I promise I am going to try to find my lighted vision though, and write a poem in this form. lol. I did, however, try to write a few articles that were more of a light hearted and interesting side. lol. It wasn't as fun as my poems to be honest. lol... Thanks again! :)

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      Darius Kamiab 2 years ago from Tunbridge Wells / Manchester, UK

      Missy, that was a great read, thank you. Will defo be keeping an eye on your work, very inspiring stuff :)

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thanks so much for that Frank. I appreciate very much that you read and like my work.

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thanks so much Jodah. I have a lot of fun creating my madness. lol.... And it is strange how personal turmoil can bring out my best work; I think I should say, I hope it's some of my best. I can only get better I suppose. :)

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      You are so right with all you said Dana. However, I now feel blessed that I have found a place here on HP with others that are so much like me. I'm happy here! :)

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      Dana Tate 2 years ago from LOS ANGELES

      I have always been a deep-thinker. Sometimes I'll just stare off into space as my thoughts go from one thing to another. My friends have often said: "I wish I could find a switch and turn your brain off sometimes" Sometimes I wish they could too. Unfortunately, for us poets and deep-thinkers, this is where our creativity lies. Life can be torture for us because we think too much and we love too hard.

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      John Hansen 2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Wonderful work Missy. You are just getting better and better. What I love is that in all your poetry you really bare your soul..like most of the great poets. Personal turmoil does seem to be good food for poetry doesn't it? I certainly don't wish you the same fate as Sylvia though. With your poll It was a close one between Plath and Poe, both tragic stories.. But I chose Sylvia Plath. Keep up the good work. Voted up.

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thank you Frank! I appreciate the awesome vote. :)

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      Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

      Missy a nice collection of emtionally charged poetry voted awesome

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      And to my friend Kai...I think that was the sweetest comment ever. I love you friend of mine! ;)

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      Thanks Jackie Pooh!!! xoxo

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      Missy Smith 2 years ago from Florida

      I'm definitely not in Sylvia's league when it comes to writing Faith. I think I have the same emotions as she did, but no, not at all as good at writing. No Way! Lol.... However, I do feel I try to be brave enough to express who I am and how I feel in my writing. I hope it comes across to readers that way.

      I am actually a new fan to her and the others. Since I have been writing poetry and researching it, they come up a lot. I always knew a bit about Ernest and always related to him in some way, and now I feel the same about Sylvia. I know a lot of their background from documentaries and reading poems and quotes.

      I'm starting to read more on Virginia Woolf. I am a fan of all of theirs, yet I'm still a pretty new fan, and can't wait to read more of their work. I will be visiting my local library as soon as school starts back for my children, and I have the time. I'll definitely look up, Ariel, as I've read a few of her poems from that book, but not all.

      Thanks for the lovely compliments Faith. As always, know they are much appreciated and make me smile wide! :):):)

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      Jack 2 years ago

      great work as always!

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      Kai 2 years ago

      interesting piece of work darling!

      Yeah I feel like talking all fancy when I see you typing like this it's infectiously good keep up the great work my dearest Poet -

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Wow, Missy, love this one ...raw and emotionally charged! It does seem all the great poets are tortured souls. I do love Sylvia Plath. My son gave me one of her books, Ariel, which I love. He is a natural poet, artist and all of the above. Funny, when he gave me that book, he said to me rather matter-of-factly, "Mom, now ...Sylvia Plath can get away with writing like she did ..." Hint, hint, in other words, Mom don't even try it LOL. I told him straight away, oh, don't worry son, I am not even in her league ...

      However, you, dear Missy, are a gifted poet. Love your choice of imagery too.

      Peace